Sleepy week

Mayb i m thinking too much, but wat will u think when pple u like most called other pple 'dearest' or even 'muackz'? To many pple out mayb its easy to accept. But to me not, i told myself not to think so much. but....she never ever said those things to me before but able to others...I started get to more n more listless. All i do is sleep and sleep, i just hope that i could sleep til i forget eveything. Sometimes i really dun knw wat is she thinking about or even wat she wants. i've been trying very hard to be better. Had i not done enuff or changed for better?? Can someone gimme an ans? The situation is getting darker n black..it leads to no end... i dun know wat to do but to keep sleeping and hide myself in a corner in this world. I dare not to pick up any call or reply any sms. Anyway she was too busy to contact me also. I'm now holding to a cliff. Question is "to fall or to hang on?"