Just back from watching 881. Feeling very very tired. Second night sleeping latez again. Hopefully tomorrow i can survive thru. Off to bed, still hoping to see that girl soonz. XD

Hmm its quite late alrdy, still feeling energetic. Met my gang for dinner and some catching up. Had a great chat and stuffs.

Last night, last min went to zouk, with gerald. Gerald agreed to company me to phuture. Guess wat???

Phuture is playing retros...OH NOS! Supposed to be some event thingy, "localised". Some local djs spinning the night. 1st hr was real bad, u knw u go to phuture people r expecting some rnb groove. All i can see is that dj killed the crowd. Everyone went off and he didnt realise anything at all. Then after hip hop n rnb kicked back, people start coming to the dancefloor again. There was this girl, whole night my eyes were set on her. She dances real nice and so cute~ Even saw her at zouk when i went over to check it out for abit. After clubbing i kept toking about her, gerald was like.. LoL! Shes on my mind every sec.... oh nos i guess i m addicted. HuR~ Hopefully i will get to see her again? I really hope so....

Thats the reason i m loving the song more. Its all becuz of you~

After phuture last night, im loving this song more and more.

Its all because of you~

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't


I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it


And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug


Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave


I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it


And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug

Bored, stressed, fuk-ed up is the word to describe me now.

Another week is almost over le, work is as usual. Learning the things fast, going stable mode soon. Finally end my mambo spree, juz jump off to bed n sleep the night thru. First time was abit messy, wanting to go but cant find any good reason. Oh wellz....

Problems at home is piling up day by day. Im so scared of staying at home now. Every day after work i will juz go home, have my dinner and sleep around 8. Yes...not more than that, today is abit different thou. Was playing DnD2 until complete then watch tv, disturb some friends on msn. And i realised, people around me are getting busy and "hot". Unable to ask anyone out for the weekends again. Another stik at home fri and sat i guess. Getting so fuked up, maybe i will juz go out find a 24hr lan shop n game all the way. Well, i guess i gotta do some "early booking" if i really wan to ask my friends out.

Its 1030. I survived 2 n half hrs more tonight. Maybe im really bored, i need to go and n de-stress myself. C'mom kai... i knw i can do it. Isolating myself isnt really that hard right?! Soon i will get used to it and live again. For now, im officially a dead person. Im going crazy.....


Things aint getting my way now. Depressed and lonely, no one to talk about my problems. Its another history repeating. Last time i almost gone crazy. Hmmm.... dont mind me people, i might be mentally unsound now or im just tired. Been fuking around and had no idea wat im blogging. I think thats enuff... time for bed.

I just feel like saying. F**K everything.... ( i just hope someone will really understand me for a bit... juz a lil lil bit will do.)

I know i hate this song to the max. But this mix is kinda nice, oh well . . .

Enjoyz . . .

Comp has not been off for a few days le. Downloading losta stuff, esp games. Ragnarok battle offline, need for speed underground 2, Beast wars seaon 1 and 2 and so on. Gonna flood my comp with entertainments.

Nothing much today. Play RBO, check in wow for 5 mins then off le. Maple for awhile to check my $$ and items, other than that tv and more tv. Kinda bored but no choice, how i wish monday will come soon. Weekdays at least i can go work and waste my time. Weekend, stay home and its really bored. Wanted to watch movie but dont know wat to go for, tomorrow bah....

Time for more tv again.... until i doze off~

Feeling damn fuk up now. DAMNIT! Reached home was downloading a game till moments juz now. One itchy click, my comp went standby mode. 6 hours of waiting is gone in a sec. Now i have to re download the shyt again, gonna wait for another blardie full 6 hrs again. Yes feeling damn sore now.

*Take a deep breath*

Work is kinda light n easy today. School holiday so students and losta teachers not around. Clear up my workplace cuz its sho messy til i cant stand it. Day pass very fast, went to the nearby hawker with one colleague for dinner. Had my fav tang yuan there and tried the "long" queue satay bee hoon. Wondered y so many pple queueing, to me its not that good. Took a bus home and start dowloading a game. Damnit!

Wanted to go out but cant find anyone. Cuz tomorrow, for sure im staying home. its alrdy pass 11 so i guess i'll stay home. Tot can play the new game im downloading to pass my night. Who knws....DAMNIT! No mood to log on WoW at all, no games to play. Feeling so empty now. Been surfing the net whole night, downloading pics and stuffs. Even changed my blogskin abit. Ok i know its kinda lame cuz i changed the pics and some heading only. Looking at my download.. 4% only. Think i will leave it for tomorrow, whole day playing it. As for now til i go to bed, i really have no fooking idea wat to do.

I think... wed night.. or rather thurs morning, i didnt join them for supper, somehow pissed someone off. Demand an explanation and i think its pointless. Explain le in the end it gotten messy and i guess misunderstanding? I dont know.. yes i really dont know how to explain. But i believe people who know me well and understand me knows what im thinking. If any other dont get it, i have no idea wat to do to convince them. Okay.. take it that im petty, things over so long and im still so sore about it. Wateva! If anyone thinks that way, go ahead. U can say that you finally understand how i treated u as a frd. Oh really? Now i also understand that how u see me as a frd also. If u dont understand me well enuff and keep demand an explanation when i dont feel like explaining, THEN r u really a frd of mine?

So sick n tired so these shyt happening over and over again. Its time to end it, dont have a good soultion now. So i guess for the moment im gonna be a caveman. Stay inside my cave for good. Morning go wrk, evening go home straight. Night stay at home and play game, play until im tired then fuk off to bed. Then next day go work again and so on. Sound boring? no choice... its better than more misunderstanding.

I did that before, to a very good frd of mine. In order not to really lose a frd, i chose to avoid. Avoid having problems and eventually the friendship just gone for no reason. Somehow it works, i save a friendship and i m glad i made that choice. In the past i will not choose to avoid but after so many things happened, i learn that avoiding can really save some unnecessary conflicts.

Oh well... i ended my life again... in a way. Finally feeling tired after so much blabbering. Sorry and thanks to thoes who make the effort to read my entry. I know... after reading, it might hurt ur eyes. Well... i talk in this way afterall. Luckily many people is read and forget.

Kay..time for bed and dreams. As for tomorrow, i hope for the better. IF i have a tomorrow.

Tired... still feeling very tired. Guess had a very long day yest. Awake for more then 24 hrs, wrk then mambo. Eve of holiday, as usual mambo was packed like hell. Met up with roger, yii, sq n danny for dinner before that. Blardie hell the rice cost me 5 buks, wasnt that good also. Mambo was usual, i meant the muzik. Other than that, alot of pple lo, nothing really special also.

Went to phu at 3 but sadly it end at 4. Went bak to zouk to hang around until 450? i forgot the time. Went to shell to get a drink, was really dehydrated liao. Feel like eating but doesnt wan to eat much. Was very tired, need some quiet time of my own. So didnt join the gang for supper at spize. Waited for them to go off liao then awhile later i took a slow slow stroll to lido mac alone. Top up my ezlink card at orchard mrt, came up n see the sky is shooo red. Strong wind were blowing and i know its gonna rain sometime soon. Ordered bagel meal, sat down n rest abit before i start eating. Took more than 5 mins to swallow the hashbrown then rain started to fall. Quickly finish the rest then proceed to bus stop. Bus 700 to bukit panjang will only start at 7am, that time was only 630. Took bus 171 instead, will alight at same place but its going thru bukit timah, gonna be a hell long ride. Board the bus n i dozed off moments later.

Was kinda fast also, holiday and not much traffic. I reached bukit panjang at 705am, wait more than 10 mins for bus 187 then sleep again in bus. Reach home is like 730 alrdy, took a quik hot shower then off to bed. Then all the way until 615 juz now. Woke up first thing is to get a drink then had my dinner. Ndp juz started so was blogging n watching ndp'07.

Wonder what time can i sleep later.. tomorrow is sch holiday but i still gotta work. Sleep too late, tmr will be a zombie. Oh noes... Die die muz sleep before 11.

Time to wow, muz catch up abit. Weekend i wan to go phu n club againz... next week onward not much mambo le unless im confident that i can survive on next day.

Been a busy week. Just start my new work, on job training is included of cuz. It's something new to me, not juz troubleshooting of pcs n such. Alot of things to learn n remember. Very very tired after work. Slept almost 17 hrs on sat, mainly becuz of mambo-ing on wed i guess. But after next week, think.. will skip mambo if can cuz i gotta report work at 730! Its time i really end the spree liao.

Yest was gaming at home til evening, very sian and wanted to go out. Then zy suggested porridge buffet at balestier. Jasmine n david went too, food was really very normal lo. But wun go back for a 2nd time. 14buks... alright bah, quite reasonable if not i will burn the place down. After the buffet, plan to go zouk to clock our attendance. David went home n the rest took bus down. Waited for jerry til 11+ then we went in. Maybe its been awhile since i went phuture on saturday. The muzik is quite... good? Wanted to go look for roger after clubbing budden was cancel. Spize didnt open so we had supper at some chicken rice store. Reached yck was around 530 le so sent zy back to roger's place first. Waste abit of time, then take a cab from there. Trying to skip abit of midnight charge. Cab fare was around $12.30, only 2 buks of midnight charge. LoL... saved quite alot.

Had plenty of rest alrdy, game awhile then watching tv now. Most prob after dinner, gotta read up some notes to refresh abit on my memory. Tomorrow is a new week BUT! wed can relax again. Eve of national day so its mamboz time.. Thinking about it also make me feel abit sad. Sure pack pack like vesak day eve. Good thing is most pple wil be there n able to stay til late. Good time to gather around, hopefully theres supper after that.

Need to subscribe a new hp line soon. Getting a cheaper plan with free incoming calls, also a new hp la. Most probably nokia 6288, cheap and its a slide phone. Other than that... maybe a watch or somethg, "time is $$" i needa manage my time well when work. hmm 5mins til 7. sunday i can watch tv from 7 till 11. Then Koonz! Really not much mood to game. Also dont knw y thurs i go buy wow timecard. Think its abit waste of $$ since im not playing regularly now. Oh well, alrdy buy le... soo ahem...

Wed will be free after 6. Guys, any plan update me kay. Think will juz go home n change then go out liao. Was hoping for some dinner before mambo or something. Time is $$... time to read up my notes.