Last weekend is totally shytty for me. Did something unbelievable. Not going into details.
Will be gone for awhile. Will update if i can. Dont bother to call me cuz i lost my phone. As for Msn...dont bother to msg me cuz i wun reply.
Other than that... advance happy chinese new yr to all my frds. Juz incase im not bak by then.
Time to go... i rly need a break, to think it over again. I sux and i failed in life.
Monday, January 29, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Phew....
umm... how shlould i start...Been busy the whole day. My room is painted and clean like it has never been. Game is lagging badly so i call it a quit. Watched tv n read many many pple's blog. In the end decide to blog myself
These 3 weeks is kinda messy for me. As in... im clubbing straight for 3 weekends straight. After so many encounters, i think im used to it or used to the way she do things. I'm busy playing my burning crusade, still i will go meet her when my phone rang.
For the first time, i really really dont want to go mambo becuz of my game cuz i cant get enough of it. Wake up few hrs earlier just to finish my wrk asap n get to my game. She msged me at noon at my determination of not going mambo is shaken. Of cuz...micheal called me too, he told me that not that much pple is going. So the whole afternoon i been thinking whether shld i juz go or f**k it. Around 8+ im too tired already so i guess i take the f**k it option. But yvonne is determined to go out and she sound rly bored. Oh well, dragged my lazy arse out of the hse n go meet her near her place. Took a cab down together n we rch there around 11.05pm. Once i rch there i saw 2 pple i can never imagine. Roger n zhenyi. I was like...... y nv gimme a call when u guys r going. Actually they happen to be around n drop by just to check if roger is able to get his priviledge card. Very nice of them wor. Bought me an ash tray that is belong to zouk, saying that its the present they got for me during thailand trip. Thanks hor~~ so in the end i decide to leave the ash tray there so everyone in zouk could use it. Not much regular there that night, not going to mention names. Its was kinda bored and another invasion of ang mohz. But the good thing is, we were dancing together on the top podium the whole night. Maybe becuz theres only me and gerald she know. End of mambo, i m really exhausted. Rch home around 5 n slept soon after i bath. First i was scared that it would be like past 2 weeks, who knws that it turned out to be nice n sweet.
Saturday... i know no matter wat i will go out. Cuz i rem her saying that "see u on sat" Okay...i purposely stay up the whole fri night until sat morning so that i could wake up around evening. If not, as usual i will wake up very early on sat n wrk. By evening, my energy r almost drained. For so long... i alwiz do things my way. This time im doing something for her. Maybe becuz im too tired last sat that i actually dozed off in double O. So she was saying that y pay $$ to go in and sleep? I sleep becuz im dead bored or somethg la...LOL! So...i woke up around 3+ and start my gaming, my aim to be lvl 63 before going anywhere. I dinged around 8+ and that time we r still discussing where to go. First was planning Dbl O again but adrian told me that no one is going. So i went around calling people asking if they will be there or not. So last the result is no one is going. Told her the bad news and both of us were like in a stuck mode. No idea where to go, so i suggested movie since we plan to do it before clubbing. But this time, its only movie cuz no one is going anywhere to club. Met up with her at HmV around 11+ n juz before we walk to cathay to get tix, she told me that she drank some red wine before came out. So the % of sleeping in the movie is very high. Geez...... LppL in the end we ended up in Dbl O. Lucky that we saw some familiar faces and alan is there. Still....thruout the whole night, juz the both of us. One jug each n dancing til it ends. Better crowd this week, also better music too. After that, she dragged dennis down to cathay n we went to watch Apocalypto @ 430am. Had a quick supper before that. I almost fell alseep in the cinema, thanks to the yuan yang... it happen to trigger the liquor in me. Thank god its a good show, i managed to survive thru the whole thing. Show ended n its 7am in the morning! Yvonne doesnt wanna go home cuz she needa help her sis soon. We went to coffee club to chill. Around 8+, dennis sent her back n i took a train back.
On my way walking to the train station, dad called me n saying that today my room is gonna be painted. Wat a good news! I dont get to sleep after i get home! Dozed off when im on the train. Hoping to catch some sleep n go paint my bloody room. I helped with moving my stuffs and shyt. Painted one side of the wall n i gave up. Went to the living room and take a nap. By the time i wake up, its all done. New paint, clean room, and new formation. One of my toy was injured during the moving of the cabinet. One part that connect to the body is lost and i got so upset about it. No choice i gotta get over it and think of how to stick it back. Used some lame ways to do it and i dont wanna mention how! Didnt really had a good sleep after the whole night, and now im not sleepy at all. Guess tomorrow is gonna be a sleeping day for me.
My mood went up n down like roller coaster these 3 weeks. It brought me sadness and laughter too. But in the end, its all good. Luckily shes only back for holiday, if not i will land up in hospital in no time. Been so long since i went out on sat and stayed til morning then go home. Its tiring but of cuz worth it. I been very thankful she willing to go out me or maybe she juz wanna go out. I know im a very boring person, no much idea of where to go n wat to do. Guess going out with me had rly made her feel very bored. And i count every cents i spent. Oh well, i dont earn much like most pple do, so i muz be careful on wat i spent. This may also made an bad impression on myself. BUT! Thoes who knw me will understand that i dont rly care how pple see me. If im not rich, i will not act like i am one. Cuz in the end of the day, the one suffering will be me. If i only have 2 buks in my pocket, i wil be very honest about it. If anyone ask me to do somethg i cant afford, i will not do it too. Guess mr zhou gong is calling me alrdy. Time to catch a good sleep if not i wun have the mood to wrk and game. Also i need to rest for next week, who knws wat crazy thing might happen.
No matter wat thing had upset me, end of the day... I'm still the happy Kai.
Its not a matter of wat i had done, its a matter of who im with. =D
These 3 weeks is kinda messy for me. As in... im clubbing straight for 3 weekends straight. After so many encounters, i think im used to it or used to the way she do things. I'm busy playing my burning crusade, still i will go meet her when my phone rang.
For the first time, i really really dont want to go mambo becuz of my game cuz i cant get enough of it. Wake up few hrs earlier just to finish my wrk asap n get to my game. She msged me at noon at my determination of not going mambo is shaken. Of cuz...micheal called me too, he told me that not that much pple is going. So the whole afternoon i been thinking whether shld i juz go or f**k it. Around 8+ im too tired already so i guess i take the f**k it option. But yvonne is determined to go out and she sound rly bored. Oh well, dragged my lazy arse out of the hse n go meet her near her place. Took a cab down together n we rch there around 11.05pm. Once i rch there i saw 2 pple i can never imagine. Roger n zhenyi. I was like...... y nv gimme a call when u guys r going. Actually they happen to be around n drop by just to check if roger is able to get his priviledge card. Very nice of them wor. Bought me an ash tray that is belong to zouk, saying that its the present they got for me during thailand trip. Thanks hor~~ so in the end i decide to leave the ash tray there so everyone in zouk could use it. Not much regular there that night, not going to mention names. Its was kinda bored and another invasion of ang mohz. But the good thing is, we were dancing together on the top podium the whole night. Maybe becuz theres only me and gerald she know. End of mambo, i m really exhausted. Rch home around 5 n slept soon after i bath. First i was scared that it would be like past 2 weeks, who knws that it turned out to be nice n sweet.
Saturday... i know no matter wat i will go out. Cuz i rem her saying that "see u on sat" Okay...i purposely stay up the whole fri night until sat morning so that i could wake up around evening. If not, as usual i will wake up very early on sat n wrk. By evening, my energy r almost drained. For so long... i alwiz do things my way. This time im doing something for her. Maybe becuz im too tired last sat that i actually dozed off in double O. So she was saying that y pay $$ to go in and sleep? I sleep becuz im dead bored or somethg la...LOL! So...i woke up around 3+ and start my gaming, my aim to be lvl 63 before going anywhere. I dinged around 8+ and that time we r still discussing where to go. First was planning Dbl O again but adrian told me that no one is going. So i went around calling people asking if they will be there or not. So last the result is no one is going. Told her the bad news and both of us were like in a stuck mode. No idea where to go, so i suggested movie since we plan to do it before clubbing. But this time, its only movie cuz no one is going anywhere to club. Met up with her at HmV around 11+ n juz before we walk to cathay to get tix, she told me that she drank some red wine before came out. So the % of sleeping in the movie is very high. Geez...... LppL in the end we ended up in Dbl O. Lucky that we saw some familiar faces and alan is there. Still....thruout the whole night, juz the both of us. One jug each n dancing til it ends. Better crowd this week, also better music too. After that, she dragged dennis down to cathay n we went to watch Apocalypto @ 430am. Had a quick supper before that. I almost fell alseep in the cinema, thanks to the yuan yang... it happen to trigger the liquor in me. Thank god its a good show, i managed to survive thru the whole thing. Show ended n its 7am in the morning! Yvonne doesnt wanna go home cuz she needa help her sis soon. We went to coffee club to chill. Around 8+, dennis sent her back n i took a train back.
On my way walking to the train station, dad called me n saying that today my room is gonna be painted. Wat a good news! I dont get to sleep after i get home! Dozed off when im on the train. Hoping to catch some sleep n go paint my bloody room. I helped with moving my stuffs and shyt. Painted one side of the wall n i gave up. Went to the living room and take a nap. By the time i wake up, its all done. New paint, clean room, and new formation. One of my toy was injured during the moving of the cabinet. One part that connect to the body is lost and i got so upset about it. No choice i gotta get over it and think of how to stick it back. Used some lame ways to do it and i dont wanna mention how! Didnt really had a good sleep after the whole night, and now im not sleepy at all. Guess tomorrow is gonna be a sleeping day for me.
My mood went up n down like roller coaster these 3 weeks. It brought me sadness and laughter too. But in the end, its all good. Luckily shes only back for holiday, if not i will land up in hospital in no time. Been so long since i went out on sat and stayed til morning then go home. Its tiring but of cuz worth it. I been very thankful she willing to go out me or maybe she juz wanna go out. I know im a very boring person, no much idea of where to go n wat to do. Guess going out with me had rly made her feel very bored. And i count every cents i spent. Oh well, i dont earn much like most pple do, so i muz be careful on wat i spent. This may also made an bad impression on myself. BUT! Thoes who knw me will understand that i dont rly care how pple see me. If im not rich, i will not act like i am one. Cuz in the end of the day, the one suffering will be me. If i only have 2 buks in my pocket, i wil be very honest about it. If anyone ask me to do somethg i cant afford, i will not do it too. Guess mr zhou gong is calling me alrdy. Time to catch a good sleep if not i wun have the mood to wrk and game. Also i need to rest for next week, who knws wat crazy thing might happen.
No matter wat thing had upset me, end of the day... I'm still the happy Kai.
Its not a matter of wat i had done, its a matter of who im with. =D
Thursday, January 18, 2007
yay! 61
Ok i guess the title explain everything. If u dont get it.....
I AM LVL 61!!!!!! YaY!!!!!!!!!
And i had a great mambo.
*outz*
I AM LVL 61!!!!!! YaY!!!!!!!!!
And i had a great mambo.
*outz*
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Yay!
This week is sooo fast.....Monday im waiting anxiously for tuesday.... And...Its TUESDAY...Jan16th. Wake up very early to finish my work then went down to suntec to collect my games. Met up with my guildmates, all nv talk much also. Collect game liao poof! hearth back home to install game le. LOL....im on disc 2 now n soon i can go lvl and lvl. Waited ths day for so long...all the unhappy thgs also forget liao...haha
This week plan: stay home n chiong game..... im thinking of not going mambo also. haha!
This week plan: stay home n chiong game..... im thinking of not going mambo also. haha!
Monday, January 8, 2007
Wats happening?
I definitely need to blog. My mind is in a farking mess still, cant sleep and unable set myself to play game. I really dont knw wats happening. All i know is i need to trash out every of my thoughts.
Would it be better if i didnt went dbl o last sat? Would it be better if i control my temper? Or would it be better if i never step out of the hse?
Seeing her at zouk was like a 0.001% chance and sure is a big surprise for me. Asking her out was wat i alwiz wanted. Its been 2 yrs since i saw her and sat is the day. Waited anxiously at orchard mrt, took a bus down n had a drink at the coffeeshop nearby. Went in to dbl o, tot its kinda bored but shes there. We had losta drinks n soon she mixed well with adrian n rest. Started playing 5 10 with them, well i m glad least shes not bored. towards the end i started to fade n in the end i vanished. Im like a duper extra n was left alone down there. Ok thats nothing to me, i dont mind at all.
After Dbl O, everyone left. Yes everyone...including adrian n wife. Shes already so drunk n my job is to send her home. Then this one frd of mine or shld i say i dont even know him well, he said somethg i couldnt believe. "Lets go MoS" i was like wtF? Ok i knw hes drunk too but who knws....when u put 2 drunk pple together is as good as chaos. First she said she wanted to get on his bike n go MoS. Okay........... then i might as well go home alone. Suddenly she flagged a cab n drag us all on. We reach clarke quay in juz like 5 mins? 2 of them r walking n fooling around. shouting, screaming, kneel on the floor and stuffs. Im not saying im paiseh by wat they do. I think that they r not in any situation to go anywhere anymore. Ok then we discussed, we shld juz go somewhere nearby eat n juz go home. Juz before boatquay...the big fuking bridge there. How the hell do u find a supermarket trolley there in the middle of night. She got on the trolley n he pushed her around to the bridge. I cant take it anymore, i already asked him to control himself and so he promised me. But wat happened after 5 mins? I really dont want anythg to happen to them. Out of no choice i called jason. i seek help n YES im helpless, i dont know wat to do really. Hes been tretaing our words like rubbish or bullshyt? Smile at me like nothing happened? Ok fuk it! i blew my top. I told i gave up. He wanna fool around? Fine im going home. I shouted very loudly, everyone around the area looked over even the policeman. At that point of time i really dont care anymore.
I went over to the other side wanting to get a drink before i go off. Wat happened? he left her alone letting her cross the fuking road n he walked away. I saw that while i was on the phone with jason. Okay now hes finally gone n i can send her home. But NO! she kept walking to the bridge n finally sat down n puke. N still asking me wheres that guy keeping wanting him to come back n find us. At that moment......... i.... really cant do anythg and keep calling him to come back. I really felt like jumping off the bridge. Then here comes adrian calling asking me juz to send her back. Wanted to go 7 11 n buy some tissues n drink but she wont move. Out of no choice i ran to 7 11 qickly grab the things n run back. Luckily she still there safe n sound. I was wondering if she didnt puke, things wont stop. I sat with her at the bridge till morning n around 6 i sent her home. By then she ok already. Everythg ended n i rched home at 7. Ate some bread n drop dead. I m awfully tired n hungry. slept only 3 hrs the day before n didnt had dinner.
Wat went wrong? I knw i shldnt juz shouted n left like that. But if i dont get angry, he might think im not serious about wat i said. Is it my fault that i spoiled their fun? Maybe i shld juz leave quietly when im still outside dbl O. I m not angry with them, its me... keep asking myself y muz i screwed everythg. Maybe i shldnt handle thing that way, then thgs might turn out better. Everythg might seems nothing to them but i meant well. Maybe i m a joke that i get angry for nothing. Maybe i m wrong......
Spent a bomb that night and i dont have the $$ to pre order Burning crusade anymore. Its coming out on the 16th n i muz go to funan to get the pre order by weekend. This coming wed is sq last mambo i knw i will spend $$ too. Im left with so little time to save $$. I dont want to miss the game...really..... i was waiting for the game since dont knw when. Not saying i felt pain spending $$ on sat night, in fact i dont mind spending it at all. If its for her, i wun mind anythg.
Sigh.......guess i gotta wrk harder this week, finish more projects n earn more $$ in order to survive wed n get my game.
Would it be better if i didnt went dbl o last sat? Would it be better if i control my temper? Or would it be better if i never step out of the hse?
Seeing her at zouk was like a 0.001% chance and sure is a big surprise for me. Asking her out was wat i alwiz wanted. Its been 2 yrs since i saw her and sat is the day. Waited anxiously at orchard mrt, took a bus down n had a drink at the coffeeshop nearby. Went in to dbl o, tot its kinda bored but shes there. We had losta drinks n soon she mixed well with adrian n rest. Started playing 5 10 with them, well i m glad least shes not bored. towards the end i started to fade n in the end i vanished. Im like a duper extra n was left alone down there. Ok thats nothing to me, i dont mind at all.
After Dbl O, everyone left. Yes everyone...including adrian n wife. Shes already so drunk n my job is to send her home. Then this one frd of mine or shld i say i dont even know him well, he said somethg i couldnt believe. "Lets go MoS" i was like wtF? Ok i knw hes drunk too but who knws....when u put 2 drunk pple together is as good as chaos. First she said she wanted to get on his bike n go MoS. Okay........... then i might as well go home alone. Suddenly she flagged a cab n drag us all on. We reach clarke quay in juz like 5 mins? 2 of them r walking n fooling around. shouting, screaming, kneel on the floor and stuffs. Im not saying im paiseh by wat they do. I think that they r not in any situation to go anywhere anymore. Ok then we discussed, we shld juz go somewhere nearby eat n juz go home. Juz before boatquay...the big fuking bridge there. How the hell do u find a supermarket trolley there in the middle of night. She got on the trolley n he pushed her around to the bridge. I cant take it anymore, i already asked him to control himself and so he promised me. But wat happened after 5 mins? I really dont want anythg to happen to them. Out of no choice i called jason. i seek help n YES im helpless, i dont know wat to do really. Hes been tretaing our words like rubbish or bullshyt? Smile at me like nothing happened? Ok fuk it! i blew my top. I told i gave up. He wanna fool around? Fine im going home. I shouted very loudly, everyone around the area looked over even the policeman. At that point of time i really dont care anymore.
I went over to the other side wanting to get a drink before i go off. Wat happened? he left her alone letting her cross the fuking road n he walked away. I saw that while i was on the phone with jason. Okay now hes finally gone n i can send her home. But NO! she kept walking to the bridge n finally sat down n puke. N still asking me wheres that guy keeping wanting him to come back n find us. At that moment......... i.... really cant do anythg and keep calling him to come back. I really felt like jumping off the bridge. Then here comes adrian calling asking me juz to send her back. Wanted to go 7 11 n buy some tissues n drink but she wont move. Out of no choice i ran to 7 11 qickly grab the things n run back. Luckily she still there safe n sound. I was wondering if she didnt puke, things wont stop. I sat with her at the bridge till morning n around 6 i sent her home. By then she ok already. Everythg ended n i rched home at 7. Ate some bread n drop dead. I m awfully tired n hungry. slept only 3 hrs the day before n didnt had dinner.
Wat went wrong? I knw i shldnt juz shouted n left like that. But if i dont get angry, he might think im not serious about wat i said. Is it my fault that i spoiled their fun? Maybe i shld juz leave quietly when im still outside dbl O. I m not angry with them, its me... keep asking myself y muz i screwed everythg. Maybe i shldnt handle thing that way, then thgs might turn out better. Everythg might seems nothing to them but i meant well. Maybe i m a joke that i get angry for nothing. Maybe i m wrong......
Spent a bomb that night and i dont have the $$ to pre order Burning crusade anymore. Its coming out on the 16th n i muz go to funan to get the pre order by weekend. This coming wed is sq last mambo i knw i will spend $$ too. Im left with so little time to save $$. I dont want to miss the game...really..... i was waiting for the game since dont knw when. Not saying i felt pain spending $$ on sat night, in fact i dont mind spending it at all. If its for her, i wun mind anythg.
Sigh.......guess i gotta wrk harder this week, finish more projects n earn more $$ in order to survive wed n get my game.
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