All i can say... my day is bad...very bad. my word might sound harsh cuz im still feeling moody.

Suppose to meet michael and nicole to go lan shop to play game in the day or evening. After sending nicole a sms reply, i waited until i dozed off. Called them around 5+ and they are alrdy there c&c-ing le. Logged in wow to continue farming. I guess i finally made up my mind to concentrate on my main, been farming for whole week le. 4/5 dungeon set piece and some reputation exalted. To some non gamers, they might think, these are all bullshyts. Whats there to acheive when its only a game. To hell with thoes pple la, if u dont knw about gaming, fuk off.
Was chatting with erik,zen and lyst on vent while doing some farming. Wanted to go shattered halls but i gotta meet up with andrew for coffee. No choice lo..gotta gif it a miss. Waited at the usual bus 16 stop for andrew. Tong pang his car n we to zouk, had coffee soon after sign in.

Mambo was like omfgwtf situation. I dont knw wats happening to me recent weeks. Mambo is juz not for me. Something is missing or something is affecting me. Hmm i really cannot answer also. The muzik doesnt suit my mood at all. Luckily roger n gang is there last night, around 1 we went of to velvet for hiphop le. Even thou the muzik at that time isnt that good and yes i do feel bored. But at least i feel ALOT better after leaving zouk. While later michael and gang joined us, including kes. Around 230 we went bak zouk, soon after it played missing. Only towards last part the muzik is good.

As usual the 3 red dots went to shell. Had a fast drink cuz kes had to go bak already. Gerald n i walked to spize for supper cuz gerald wan to save the midnight cab charges. Had murtabak with bandung. Satisfying supper and rain came soon after. Rushed over to borders there and wait for 6am to come. The rain juz come n go often, we chatted until both dozed off. Finally at 630 gerald got the first cab n went bak. See that hes so tired alrdy so let him go bak first lo.

This is the starting of my disaster. Waited 10 mins and couldnt get any cab. So i went up further to wait as the bustop cuz the rain is heavier. For the whole 20 mins i didnt see any cab that is available. Pissed off alrdy, so angry until im so awake. Walked all the way bak to mrt station n took a train bak. Guess wat? i didnt get to sit down at all. Struggle myself thru the whole trip, other hand i need to entertain someone while shes on her way to wrk. My brain is alrdy dead-ed then still got to think of wat to say. Reached marsiling mrt around 8 and its raining heavily!!! The new build "shelter" that link my from my block to the mrt station is bullshyt lo! Maybe its for nice only. Had a quik shower and wanted to sleep liao, rain stopped and the kids downstair start their PE lessons!!! Toss around an hour finally dozed off, but its not the end. I woke up very hour, toss 10 mins then go bak to sleep again. All the way like that until 330, in fact im still feeling very tired now. Hopefully i get a good sleep tonight, gona be a early camping this week. Starting from tonight until tmr. Cuz sat roger will be going phuture, juz nice he finish his exam on that day also. Nice.... waited 3 weeks alrdy finally get to go again. Logged in wow for awhile le still dont knw wat to do.

Guess i will "steam" myself all the way til dinner then pray i will fall asleep after that. I need a good rest. Almost forgetting one thing, this morning i enjoyed the rain again. Stood there n let it wash my brain. Getting very emo these few weeks, hopefully it will wash away all my funny thoughts. Oh well...

Well.. wed is hella tired day for me. That affect my mood in mambo too bah. hmmm

Woke up early as usual to do my wrk. Until 10+ then i log in Bnet to play a few games of dota. Zen called around 2+ and made arrangement to meet up. They picked me up at marsiling mrt, the moment i rch the bus stop, juz nice they arrived also. Went to causeway but cant find any good spot to la kopi. So we end up in Lot1, thats wat i planned at first la. Sat outside Mac n had my ... erm.. late lunch or early dinner? Gossip abit and took a train home. Had my dinner soon after i rch home and start sending out resume again. Zen called n said he will be at mambo later on. Took a nap, gah shldnt have took the nap lo. Slept 1 hr wake up with my eyes unable to open. Nua abit at living then Proceed down to zouk. Forced myself to take train down to orchard. Reached there juz nice 11pm, went in slack around. Mambo start very late, well u know gerald isnt there so it does affect mambo abit. No one to kamikaze and go up to be the ONE. Summer rain and rock this party played around 1+. After that i m all the way at dancefloor slacking. 2 weeks no hip hop le feel damn sian, and no one is there to company me there. So i juz stand there smoke n smoke. Waited for kes until mambo ended n we went off to shell. Grabbed our supper and went home. Didnt really stay, gerald not around and its damn quiet. Reached home didnt even check my mail, straight to bed.

Woke up at 2pm. feeling very moodless for whole day. abit dota then wow, then dota again. Dont even have the mood to do my wrk. Was slacking around in wow after dinner. zen ask me y so sian. Even myself also cannot explain lo. Maybe i m still tired bah? i also dont know. Went to bed around 1215 and that goes my thurs..

As for today leh... i think its gonna be the same like last 2 weeks bah. Camp at home. Early in the morning my dad showed me bro's enlistment letter. Oh well, finally hes going into the "army" House will be very quiet for the month of june at least til july? 16th june my bro is gonna be enlist and 18th im going for my reservist. Hmm government do plan very well eh. Mum has offically retired from her worklife. This whole week she's been cooking dinner. Hmm first 2 days is abit weird la, think too long nv cook abit lost touch liao. But still i do prefer my mum's cooking, food is nice n simple. Not like my dad, throw so many stuffs into one plate. Been having soup every dinner. Gosh i do feel good, i love to drink soup before and after dinner. Well that one thing not many people know. Used to do that when small but not anymore after my mum went to work. Now theres a reason for me to be home for dinner le.

Today is fri. camping at home day! pray i will get to use the comp tonight. LoL!

quite a peaceful and simple weekend for me again. camped at home both days juz slacking around n calling deliveries.

Finally got my mouse on fri afternoon. Went to causeway point for a walk then bought losta junk foods and drinks. spend quite an amt but oh well, compare to going out on weekends i still saved alot. Went home and tidy up my room abit, was so damn messy. Spent the whole night on WoW, n yes finally i get to play wow on fri night. LoL..

Met up with the gang for breakfast and went to mac to la kopi until 11+.Went bak home continue my conquest until 8+ n finally fall asleep. Couldnt help it at all, was too tired. Woke up at 10+ and watched some movies. Thks to that someone who has been companying me thru the weekends and also fighting to play wow with me. -.-

Oh and last thing, rem to check out kes new blog.
http://kesohnler.livejournal.com/

hmm, nothing much to update so wait a few days more then dump all the little things together.

As usual, mambo on wed. thurs was at phuture, eve of good fri. Fri and sat stayed at home playing game all night long. Bought losta snack to company me thru the weekends. Maybe recently keep going out ba. Now got time sure hide and home and do my stuffs, nua and such. Now.. coffee has taken over iced milo for my daily beverage. No more milo for a very long time le but kopi O with alot of sugar. Even thou many pple are saying coffee is not good if u take too much, i know smoking is not good bla bla bla. Wateva ok. If u are my frd, u shld know i have this serious skin problem.

I always have this thinking that im born to suffer in this life. maybe i m one of the well known murderer some decades ago? This time im here to serve my punishment. No one will ever know the pain i m having, not even my own parents. Everyday, every moment, i m suffering. I may seem happy on the outside but u wll nv knw wats stirring inside. So now, wat i can really do is enjoy myself. Do wat i want, smoke, drink, all thoes unhealthy things. I dont care really, Since i will die in a bad shape why not do wat i can now? Enjoy every moment i can spare for myself and things like that. Smoke also die dont smoke also die, maybe i will die earlier if i keep having all these unhealthy habits. To many pple, die early isnt that nice, but come to think of it. If i die early, its the end to all my suffering. Im helping myself anyway, all pple have to die, and i really hope i can die soon. Let my next life continue the suffering, anyway this earth will not last long also la and i also wun knw wat i will be in my next life. Myabe i can be a more useful person, i dont knw. All i know is i hate myself alot now, if can i would wan to know wat i was in my past life. That would be very interesting.

Dont know why im feeling so negative now. Mood swing bah? Dont worry, i will be fine.... hopefully? Maybe tonight i will be smiling away in mambo again... lol...thats life. gotta go take a nap n hopefully wake up early for dinner then mambo.

Tis is to all my frds. "do not die earlier than me" til now none has done so. so i hope it will stay this way. chill and have a nice day guys. If u will be there tonight, thats good. If not, some other time bah.

Feeling damn seh now. Is it not enough sleep or slept too much? Now sitting infront of the comp like a chimney, motionless and smoking like theres no tomorrow. And of cuz my fingers r moving la.

Mambo was hmm, kinda great last night. Is it becuz i skipped one session last week that y i find it good again. If tat is very true then maybe i shld do alt week mambo. Really feeling abit sianz le, for a few yrs doing the same thing, same muzik. AND! one week nv dance nia, last night afta mambo my hands are like so fooking tired. Good thing is Dj B played "world hold on" and "tokyo drift" woot! and a few nice songz too. Drift drift drift~~ Thanks to gerald and kes for companying me til 6am then go bak. The 3 red shirt guys at shell toking nonsense all the way til morning. LoL!

Reached home around 630 but wasnt that tired still, surfed abit of net and finally managed to sleep around 8+. Tonight is eve of good fri, wasnt rly impt. Impt thing is cosmic gate is at zouk and for phuture, flava vs holla! Must go tonight, as for tommorrow night leh, still looking for someone to go with me. Groove armada will be at zouk lo, damn powerz de lo. Witness the "beng" power few years back at MW2.

Gotta go do something le, dinner soon. Afta dinner will be nua-ing while waiting for roger to call. Hopefully tonight is a peacefully night la. And of cuz a havok one! hurhur

Its been a long time since i had more than 12hrs of sleep. Wakie that time is damn seh de, sleep until eyes swollen also. Guess im rly too tired leh. Spend my whole day sleeping and its maintenance tonight again. Must make full use of the free time to do some work, as usual wed i gotta submit my wrk le. Hopefully able to finish one more proj by tomorrow lo. Been spending more $$ lately, going out and stuffs.

Went to Panasonic to get my Vs6 battery cover, its like...seeing doc? The feeling really freakz me out. Went to cine to meet up with michael cuz we planned to play lan day before. Nicole was there too. But plan was diff this time, we only played for an hour then went to PS to have our dinner then watch TMNTs. Chris joined us just before the show starts. Quite a good animation i can say, most of all the villians r so hawt! Went bak after the show, michael drop me off at clementi mrt, too tired to think how to go bak so juz follow lo. LoL! Was quite fast also la, within 25 mins i reached home le. Watched tbee till 3 then sleep le, cannot take it le but still wanna finish the show. Seems quite interesting to me thou its abit lame la. Felt kinda weird going out with them, nothing much to talk about. Maybe...our frequency is diff?

Hmm, time to do some wrk liaoz. Digestion over, muz wrk if not will get FAT!

Been tired... sleeping alot past 2 days.

Fri: bugged roger on Msn to see if he wants to go out or not. First he was determined, end up still decide to go out. At first leh, got plan de, go nua around or la kopi. After rounds of discussion he want to go prawning... -.- Met up around his place n went to white sand for lunch. He had his fun bah, i sat there for 3hrs+, juz nua and chatting. Planned dinner since he caught prawns and zy want to eat crab. Went to shing song nearby his place to grab some pasta n stuffs. Bus broke down just 2 stops before the destination. Reached his place around 8 like dat, by the time everything is ready is around 930 le. Nothing much i do la, just sat down there and waiting to eat. The food is powerz de lo!!! Thou is abit too much, eat until all cannot move. Haha! Plus abit of beer..woot! Gotta rush back cuz its around 1030 de, scare no bus and that. Sorry cant stay back n help do the dishes. Rched home had a quik shower n sleep le, really a tired day.

Sat: Slacked at home whole day, watching tv n vcd. Til night time waiting for roger n zy to be rdy. Met up with them quite late n went zouk. Jerry's bday that night, we reached there he alrdy drank alot le. Hmm...alright la, had fun but i guess can be better? Found $25 on da floor! LOL...so supper is settled le lo. Went to spize and had roti john...woo the food is good de la. Maybe next time can try the western food there. hurhur. Took a cab bak, fall asleep once i got up the cab. Kns.... some drivers, really so desperate to earn that few buks. I reached home around $24.50. Thats like 5 dollars more lo! KNN he purposely go by CTE. Pfff!!! nothing to say.

Nothing much today. As for tmr leh... see how bahz... lol