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hmm, nothing much to update so wait a few days more then dump all the little things together.

As usual, mambo on wed. thurs was at phuture, eve of good fri. Fri and sat stayed at home playing game all night long. Bought losta snack to company me thru the weekends. Maybe recently keep going out ba. Now got time sure hide and home and do my stuffs, nua and such. Now.. coffee has taken over iced milo for my daily beverage. No more milo for a very long time le but kopi O with alot of sugar. Even thou many pple are saying coffee is not good if u take too much, i know smoking is not good bla bla bla. Wateva ok. If u are my frd, u shld know i have this serious skin problem.

I always have this thinking that im born to suffer in this life. maybe i m one of the well known murderer some decades ago? This time im here to serve my punishment. No one will ever know the pain i m having, not even my own parents. Everyday, every moment, i m suffering. I may seem happy on the outside but u wll nv knw wats stirring inside. So now, wat i can really do is enjoy myself. Do wat i want, smoke, drink, all thoes unhealthy things. I dont care really, Since i will die in a bad shape why not do wat i can now? Enjoy every moment i can spare for myself and things like that. Smoke also die dont smoke also die, maybe i will die earlier if i keep having all these unhealthy habits. To many pple, die early isnt that nice, but come to think of it. If i die early, its the end to all my suffering. Im helping myself anyway, all pple have to die, and i really hope i can die soon. Let my next life continue the suffering, anyway this earth will not last long also la and i also wun knw wat i will be in my next life. Myabe i can be a more useful person, i dont knw. All i know is i hate myself alot now, if can i would wan to know wat i was in my past life. That would be very interesting.

Dont know why im feeling so negative now. Mood swing bah? Dont worry, i will be fine.... hopefully? Maybe tonight i will be smiling away in mambo again... lol...thats life. gotta go take a nap n hopefully wake up early for dinner then mambo.

Tis is to all my frds. "do not die earlier than me" til now none has done so. so i hope it will stay this way. chill and have a nice day guys. If u will be there tonight, thats good. If not, some other time bah.