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2010 first post

Yea, this is the first post of 2010 after missing for a good long time. I locked this blog too cuz i knew i m not going to update it. Here i am, back to blogging and that means nothing good is happening to me recently.

These 2 months of less blogging and non-blogging is still the same me as always. Just that... i stopped buying toys, and only gotten 2 PS3 games. Which is Mw2 and GoW collection. Which now i think back, wasted so much time n effort on something which is not gonna happen. I shoulda just spend the money and time on toys n games instead.

I thought i was numb at almost everything, now then i realised there are people who can be more numb at everything else in this world. But i truly believe that these people are just pure acting dumb than being numb.

So many times i have tried but wasnt given any chance at all. I give up, i am back to myself, my toys and my games. People say dont give up without a fight, i wasnt given any chance to fight at all. All i had was the cant be bothered manner, this is made clear right, i dont stand a chance at all. fuck it... _|_

Gonna grab another game and some food to cook later. My dad just fried all the sausages and bacon i bought on the eve of new year. All he left for me is plain pasta for tonight's dinner. Have not i made clear all these sausages and bacon is enough to last til i finish my pasta. Ya right now i m left with pasta and sauce. speechless.....

Everything is gonna be alright after i get to my gaming n toy life. it shall keep me safe for awhile before i start coming out to venture again. Everytime i got injured, i ran to the cave and hide for awhile. How long i m going to hiding this time???

I hate being ignored. At least give me a simple reply even it's a no. That's all i asked for.... nothing difficult right???

Im blogging thru my iphone now. Finally i found an app to blog thru iphone. I m dead bored and moody now. My mac os is unable to boot up. Spent hours backing up my data and now waiting for the installation to begin. Later i still need to do a system restore. Dont know how long this will take. I guess my night is burned totally.

Already feel like taking leave on thurs. First is i wanted to have a uber long weekend and maybe i can go mambo cuz my colleague is going with his gf. But now, the only reason is i wanna stay home and save my mac os. Win Xp is still working fine thou. Lets hope everything will go smoothly. Anyway i m so broke to go clubbing to. Gave me a valid reason to stay home all the way.

So long didnt blog and i came back with a so bad news. I wanted to update on my stuffs for the whole of nov. Seems like i have to wait til my mac os is settled then i got the mood to recall everything.

The bo lui thingy actually helps to carry on with my plan. The whole of one week i didnt go anywhere and i never left house for the whole weekend. That is what i wanted. To get back to my otaku life and leave the social life for awhile. Things happened again and again. Made me start to think about friendship values once again. Have i done not enuff or m i doing it the wrong way? Why do i get these sorts of treatment everytime.

My bad mood is like paper stacking on and on and it keeps on stacking like never ending. I needa break. A long one until i find a solution to it.

This is another emo post. I never get enuff or tired of it. All i can concentrate now is my 8 yrs plan i been talking about. To get myself a house when i m 35.

I better go sleep... Mentally drained and i needa rest. This mac os thingy aint gonna be done in the next few hours. Might as well catch some sleep now.

This is 'Dororo' signing out.

It's kinda weird that i have time to sit down and blog, been so busy i dont have time to relax. Morning session is done and i have to go get ready the noon one. Been so long since i m so scared of weekend and hoping it never come. Tomorrow i gotta work, sunday is gerald's wedding, and monday go back to work again...

So tired that i dont feel like doing anything, i only hope for more time to rest and sleep. Even the genting trip, i dont felt like going anymore, what i really need is take a day off and sleep the whole day thru.

I guess the tired me is putting in into bad mood, i realised it's affecting people around me too, few mins back i just scolded someone in msn. Something small is enough to trigger me now. Sometimes i really wonder, some people just like to act they are concern when things start turning out wrong. In the first place, YOU shouldnt have come and provoke me. Don't come mocking at me and pin point to me that it's my wrong/fault. Then in the end tell me you said tat becuz u're concern. Total Bulls**t!

On the brighter side, going down to CsC to collect Mp-04, after the long wait and my pay is coming in today, i finally get to play with MP Prime, my MP-01 still in the box accumulating it's value.

Time to go, pray i can pull thru this weekend.

Yep... my last post is gone, hidden. The long a** swearing around shit is KIV, it's over and i don't wanna recall or be reminded of it. It's past and it's a brand new week, time to hope for the better. In fact i just had the most boring clubbing experience last saturday. It was so boring that i sat there from 10pm-4am... i even got so bored that i purposely wait til the last bus arrive at mohd sultan then go home. The 15 mins walk back home seems to take longer than 25 mins this time... it actually made me felt better after i got home. The feeling of walking alone on the streets, taking my own sweet time make me feel peaceful. Sounds abit freaky eh....

it took me 3 hrs to come back and continue the 2nd paragraph. Alot of things happened at home, outside or should i say everywhere. Been very busy with Gerald's wedding last weekend, in fact i m feeling very tired now. There is still more to come this week and i got no leave the day after the dinner. I can predict... what kind of state i m going be next monday.

i start to believe i m a person who cannot blog and stop halfway, once i stop, everything i plan to talk about will vanish too... -_________________-

I was told to blog, before someone wakes up, if not i will get slaughter. I been blogging at least twice per week, everytime before i hit publish, i click on cancel instead. Nothing but unhappy stuffs which i don't really felt like sharing. Especially last week, it's been a unpleasant weekend for me.

Nothing much going on as usual, wed @ zouk and weekends trying to find places to go. It's been the same old thing going on. I realised i been spending $$ on going out so much that this one month i didnt purchase any Transformers or Optimus Prime at all. Even i didnt buy toys. the $$ are spent. So is there any difference?

Suddenly feeling so tired with all the going out. Time to change phase, back to the solo days where i buy toys and games, sit at home whole day playing PS3 games. Been talking about this for many times, still the satisfaction come from buying things for myself than spending on things i dont see any return or don't last.

Zoukout 2009 and it's lineup is confirm weeks back, think of it i wasn't really keen on going this year. Dont see any point any hype about it, every years been the same anyway. Spending over a hundred bucks on a night like this, why not buy a game and stay at home? Modern warfare 2 is making it's way already...

No idea what to talk about, i m trying to push the negative to the minimum but all the stuffs i can talk about are the unhappy ones. So how?

This week phrase is Everyone got their own expiry date. So how long is yours? I find it mine is very short... is it the way i interact with people? I guess i am way too boring and doesn't do much when i m with people. That is why within a short period, i am KIV already. I m not born to be an entertainer so how can i extend my expiry period? Or is it because... i got no money that's why i am not fun to hang around with.

Just a little thoughts of mine, its always that few problems surrounding me. This is not the main cause of my unhappiness last week, something bigger happened at home.

I do my best, but seems like no one appreciate and always leave me behind.



why don't they play this in zouk? =\

Monday! people always don't like monday-s. Well... me too, but after so many months/year of telling myself monday is a good day, i long gotten over the blue-ness monday gave to everyone. Chinese always say '旧的不去,新的不来.' If the weekend doesn't end, how are you gonna look forward to the next? Life in Singapore is like this, ever since the day you start working, life's been fixed. You slogged your way from monday to friday. Saturday is time to party and Sunday is resting day. For some people, after the 5 days work, they are simply too tired and are resting at home on weekends. Not forgetting those who have to work on weekends too? For people who is working 5days/week 8 to 5 daily. Let's be glad we still have our weekends.

Enough of preaching. My 无聊 philosophy is acting up again. haha...

The last weekend, is a very fruitful one... 胖妞say must plan your weekends well then will have a fruitful one. Ok i did,and thanks to you. I seen ur blog too, don't feel so down 好不好? Anytime can gimme a call or msn, my 无聊 philosophy maybe be able perk you up a little. Or we can do the bhangra style beer drinking again.

Basically my weekend is all about games. For the upcoming BIG hits like Uncharted 2 and the already selling Ninja Gaiden Sigma 2. Ok i m still waiting for the R1 Copy of NGS2 so its gonna be at least another week of waiting. So i whipped out the old UC and NGS and tried replaying it again. Was so hooked onto these 2 great titles that i literally forget time. Gerald call and sms but i didnt repy or pick up. I guess he must be pissed now. Gaming, sleeping and eating are all done in the room. Other than toilet breaks and going to the kitchen to get some food, most of my hours are spent in the room. I sure missed the Otaku days, locking urself in the room doing your own stuffs, no one to disturb you or any nonsense. It feels too great!


Still waiting for the US version to hit SG shores, dont ask me why..i just feel like buying R1. Tried the demo, it's awesome! More brutal than ever, u will go around as Ryu Hayabusa again choppng off enemy's limbs and heads. I heard, the enemy will crawl to you even if you have their legs chopped off. LoL! that is so persistent... so make sure they are killed!


The next must buy on my list. Good ratings from people, be it single player or multiplayer mode. If you like Uncharted: Drake's Fortune, this is a must buy. To many people, the cover and title didnt look appealing at all. Many forum-ers said it's great game so i decided to give it a try. Bought a 3rd hand copy and have not regret buying it til now. The story is quite in depth and the actions never lose to any big titles out there.

Other than gaming, i took some hours to watch 2 movies. Especially at very late night when i don't have the energy to strain my eyes anymore.


The show i always wanted to watch, but in the end never. I go for animations that is up on the theater. Watched it on saturday, not really a woohaa show but considering the great effects it has and the animals humor in it, this show is definitely worth a watch.


2nd time i watched this. Before i go catch it on the cinema, people feedback back to me as a so-so ok-ok flim. Action packed and nothing much, full stop. Well after watching it and again, i can say is this is for GI Joe fans. It's about the same as Transformers the movie, if you had known the characters for a very long time, this show is gonna add alot of plus points. Other than the flashback memories, the rest of the time are action packed. The hype start very soon and goes all the way to the end. It actually tells you about the characters and their past, good for people who don't know GI Joe's characters. The high tech weaponry they use sure look alot like the ones back in the 80s. Also the movie at many points tells you that there is gonna be a sequel to it. Awesome movie and i hope there will be a second one.

Alot of time spend on gaming and lesser time to sleep even thou its weekend. This week i gotta report to school an hour earlier for some exams. Adding to that, i am actually feeling very sleepy already. Also due to not enuff sleeps, my skin condition worsen. That only makes me wanna stay home more to avoid people on the street, and resulting me playing more games. and the chain goes on... bla bla bla


PSP GO... it is released and i am still waiting for reviews and ahem you know what.... not gonna get it so soon cuz the only plus point to convince me buying is it is smaller. No point dumping another 300+- dollars onto another new PsP when my PsP slim is still working fine. Gona make my gadgets white so yea i am taking this color for sure.

My brain suddenly got stucked and i don't know or forget what to update.

Enough of ranting and break, back to work as i have to rushed out some configurations for tomorrow's morning. No finish no go home... gah......


我是属于比较被动的...一旦我主动之后看不到结果,我就会默默的...这也不代表我已经放弃.