2010 first post

Yea, this is the first post of 2010 after missing for a good long time. I locked this blog too cuz i knew i m not going to update it. Here i am, back to blogging and that means nothing good is happening to me recently.

These 2 months of less blogging and non-blogging is still the same me as always. Just that... i stopped buying toys, and only gotten 2 PS3 games. Which is Mw2 and GoW collection. Which now i think back, wasted so much time n effort on something which is not gonna happen. I shoulda just spend the money and time on toys n games instead.

I thought i was numb at almost everything, now then i realised there are people who can be more numb at everything else in this world. But i truly believe that these people are just pure acting dumb than being numb.

So many times i have tried but wasnt given any chance at all. I give up, i am back to myself, my toys and my games. People say dont give up without a fight, i wasnt given any chance to fight at all. All i had was the cant be bothered manner, this is made clear right, i dont stand a chance at all. fuck it... _|_

Gonna grab another game and some food to cook later. My dad just fried all the sausages and bacon i bought on the eve of new year. All he left for me is plain pasta for tonight's dinner. Have not i made clear all these sausages and bacon is enough to last til i finish my pasta. Ya right now i m left with pasta and sauce. speechless.....

Everything is gonna be alright after i get to my gaming n toy life. it shall keep me safe for awhile before i start coming out to venture again. Everytime i got injured, i ran to the cave and hide for awhile. How long i m going to hiding this time???

I hate being ignored. At least give me a simple reply even it's a no. That's all i asked for.... nothing difficult right???