K! time to update my blog again.

Im afk-ing in AV so im gonna make it short n simple

Nice zoukout... 2 great mambo sessions for past weeks.

Peaceful xmas gathering at sq place. Thanks roger for the optimus primus.

Upcoming events : NyE mambo at expo (which is FREE!). Gotta buy my Sony Walkman mp3 player with taka 200buks voucher (crazy about that for very long) WoW Burning Crusade releasing. (more raids n dungeons. less time to go out.)

If i think of anymore i will edit. Other than that....

Back to my AV.

Cold and boring

Upcoming big patch is making my night so boring. I wanna play game and nothing else. I got no mood for tv also. Sigh.... unable to get myself to do something so i decided to some web surfing. Having a sudden thought of changing my blogskin, but...the mood isnt there. Spent an hour inside checking out new skins and nothing suits me at all. Oh fuk it then.... stay to the same old simple blog. At least i added a tagboard...or a shoutbox? Ok wateva...im dead bored.

Wednesday mambo is hella havok for me. Not because of the muzik, all out of sudden danny msn me and asked if im going. Oh well he finished his exams and need a good break. Promising his frds to drink till drop dead. As i alwiz expected u never drop so dont even say dead. Everyone had fun, also been a long time since we two dance on the podium together. Ok i admit that as long as one of them is there, we will go crazy making losta lame n funny jokes. I did missed the good old days thou... Share a cab with kes n danny and ended up getting chopped. Driver purposely drive a big round and the fare was 38.40!!! Still can act blur and tell me to pay exact fare for it. When im almost got piss off n wanted to shout, the drive gave in too. Making it 35 buks, tried bargaining but sigh im too soft hearted la. See him so old ...gave in too. Take it that the few buks is lost or something. No point making myself into some serious problem for a few dollars eh.

Recieved an sms frm roger on saturday, asking me to go Jb for dinner or somethg. I would wanna go but... ... ... i had nothing to do with malaysia anymore. Ever since there is 24hours mac delivery, i never thought of going into jb anymore. And also im having slight fever on that night. Year end and the weather turn cold. Sickness start looking for me, even precious skin is on a dry condition now. Back to having my vitamins or whateva u people call that. Earlier in the day asked adrian whether going Dbl O and the response is negative. Alright...take this chance to save some bucks for zoukout. Wanted to show up for jasmine's birthday celebration... oh well adrian not going so no way im going down alone.

Checking my time...its only 11pm and im darn hungry now. Waiting for at least 1 or 2 am then i will pick up my phone n start calling mac delivery. Ever since i m on "saving $$ everything must save" days. I have not been ordering mac for 3 weeks, gosh could u believe that? Guess i m already on the edge and i need to get a job soon. Time to end my "born to waste my life" days..get a job..having a stable income and also A BORING LIFE.

Patch is not going to be done before 4am in the morning so i guess no choice but have to sleep my night through n wake up early next day to continue leveling my rogue. The mood is there esp when im 6 bars away from level 57. 3 darn stupid levels more and i can start going out having my revenge. New patch consist of things for the upcoming expansion burning crusade and a whole new PvP arena. Pvp ranks will be wiped after patch so no Afking in BGs and farming reputation. Blizz wan us to get our arse up n start earning token with real efforts by going out killing. Oh well..... guildmates and i had a way to farm for High warlord gears. LoL! who dont cheat in games? Human cheated all their lives away so ummmm i guess im not that bad.

Ok....so tagboard is up. People who support my bloggie pls feel free to make use of it. Spam it or watever ok. Scold me or leave ugly remarks, i dont care! I put up the tagboard is for u peeps to use it.

Time to go off again. Life is so boring for me so the content of my entry is getting shorter. Wait til my life get abit more exciting bah then i will stretch n spam more nonsense, rubbish in it. this week is party week. Mambo on wed where jasmine is celebrating her bday. Oh...how many birth dates u have? Lunar is counted in too? Haha...prepare to see u drunk again i guess. And not forgetting saturday Zoukout. Expecting losta funs n laughters, esp when sq is coming back just for it, my only member in the singlehood club. Will post pics if anyone in my grp remember to bring a bloody camera. Umm also remember to take some photos....and also sending them to me. If not....let my words do the talking bah and u peeps slowly go imagine it.

Due to the new version of blogger, my tagboard is screwed. Aikes..almost a mth nv blog....been siaming pple around... LoL. To the extend of not logging in my MsN. eh...for wat reason leh...ask me personally bah.

My plan of skipping mambo for the whole Nov is screwed also. Been there for last 3 weeks liao....haha. So tmr i muz jian chi dao di! Somemore now having fever....can use as an excuse for me to skip just once.

Other than that... my life is as normal. Have a week break frm Pc games. Chiong my ps2 for awhile n let it rest again. Next month, zoukout...need to buy Wow game card, Burning crusade is releasing to. I need $$!!!!!

Enough said....time to go lunch now.

Erm, i think theres some problems with my last entry. It may lead to some confusion and stuff like that. If i said anything wrong.. I am S O R R Y. I type like i talk, everything one shot go and didnt leave any space in between of different events. So if i really say anythg wrong again... im s o r r y.

ok enough said.

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Lastly......

I'm Sorry

*LoL im juz being silly. too tired and things to do later on. Damn Stress!*

So....if this entry piss anyone off again....

S O R R Y =D

Boring night....all i can say. One reason becuz it rained too early. Tonight anki and gang is therecuz its her bday. Also happi bdae to u danny! Daniel showed up after sometime of mia-ing. Crowded as usual n muzik....haiz.. enuff said. Somethg happened somehow, some people showed up n came up the plat. It took me around 5mins to recall who is that. MAYBE im old le bah! Was dancing to Hate myself for loving u n THEN jason start staring at me.. I was like WTF?!?! nothing better to do. He then pointed some direction, turned over n saw her. oHhhhH i thought wat sia.Thought got ghost or somethg...No la just joking. LoL! Turned over smile smile abit n back to my dancing. Bo bian la... not im unfriendly but everyone knws that when im dancing i dont care much about things happening around me. Especially when my fav-luate song comes. Anyway it doesnt really matter, if u think im a jerk so be it. Like i said in the past entry, people come n go. Some can be good frds but most treat me like 7-11.Harlow! u go 7-11 buy thgs also need to pay $$ right? When pple stop replying to me, i know my service is ended. Other than that, when they need help, will come to me. Saying this again, not trying to be a jerk but after so many things happen, i became more defensive. Am taking things easy, u need me n if i can help i will. If not, dont worry.. i will not approach u. As simple as abc...i know who my real frds are n who is not. so no worries im not targeting anyone. dont feel hurt if u r readin this LOL.

Enough said...going heat up my dinner that is bought 12hrs ago, hope i dont la du zi hahaha

Nohing to do..

Had my wonderful mac supper after dota with my gang. Was watching tv while surfing net and... suddenly i click on my bloggie. Been awhile since i updated, not sure whether i had much to say. Shall go with my mood n feeling.

Mambo is as usual, people had been getting used to the new set the dj is introducing. Thats a good thing, no more storms...peaceful mambo again. Just one week before my mambo, it was a surprise... andrew bought me armada prime. Was happy that he had the thought, but i already told him not to buy anything liao. Knowing that he had to spend $$ on his gf so felt abit paiseh but then.....thanks ah! its really nice n i like it very much. At first didnt want to open it de but hand itchy so still open it. LoL! After transforming to robot mode. It makes me like it even MORE! Yes... the robot mode is really nice compared to the hasbro version i had. Takara is really still a better choice eh.

On the week of my bday which is on wed too, had alot of people coming up to me n say happy bdae. Thanks to thoes n u know who u are. I dont expect much too, people who knw me well knws that i dont make my bday a big event. Had a peaceful mambo session, songs r good n they played "missing" Woot! Andrew was there n treat me drinks as usual. Thanks again....i knw cyndi is gonna complain that im wasting his $$. I did not purposely ask him buy de lo. haha!

On that same week, roger asked me out for makan to celebrate my belated bdae. Well i insisted that its a makan session nothing to do with my bdae. Went to woodlands stadium to find roger cuz he is having a game there. Typical s-league n got nothing to say...haha. Went over to his place cuz he needa bath n get car. Wanted to asked danny out too but he doesnt feel like it so didnt force him... Well maybe after things happen its kinda uncomfortable to meet up. So went over to bishan to fetch jasmine... n straight to cine. Show is at 1120 n we had only half an hour to eat. Went to the hongkong stlye cafe n we ordered losta food. It was great n we watched i forgot the name.... cheap production moviebut we had losta laughter... Thinking about movies... knowing roger for so long we only watched movie twice. First time is at...hmm oh well dont wanna say about it. AND i rem i passed by rapid culture, saw something that caught my attention. 20th anniversary prime's container AND starscream. I knw im gonna spend $$ again. LoL.... reached home quite early cuz roger promised to be home by 3. So we had a smoke n rushed off.

As for last mambo..its a above average one. Kes is celebrating his bdae thou its last sunday. He dyed his hair red and hes wearing all red. Omg! that include shoes n jeans... was really a havok one. As usual he had losta drink n this time he managed to get home on his own. Had supper with gerald after that rushed home for shower...been a tiring mambo for me. But good news is jeremy told me that he had a present for me. I kept asking wat is it n he told me is PRIME! He say is kinda exp n its blue. i was like huh prime got blue de meh.. The clue he gave me only linked me to one thing. Cybertron PRIMUS! If its so...i will be darn happy lo! I wanted that so much too. Haha...thou its not really optimus prime BUT it one of the item in my wishlist too. No matter wat it is thanks alot bro...u told me its exp n u killed my guilt again... Haha been looking forward to week after to recieve my present...woot! Transformers FTW!!!

People around me just come and go. I learned to take it easy n let nature go its own way. No point changing the way of nature. I can say im glad to know a good friend. That is shanqing, we had been chionging together for past 2 months. And yea...i said before he goes back to his studies we r gonna have a gathering. Roger, zhenyi, shanqing and i went out. No plans as usual, as we will juz decide when meet up. Went to parklane nearby to eat tou hua. Not that nice but well, its the gathering that is impt. Sq recieved a call n we went to east coast straight. Do something which is very stupid. LoL we went there to spy on someone... Omg please dont do that again bro. After that we had supper at east coast mac...had fun toking there and of cuz tons of bullshit will come out. Haha.. My game addiction came n we went to play some arcade games. Trying to refresh some old past memories when i was still chionging arcade games. They wanted to go bowling downstairs but its closing at 2am..so i suggested marina bay which is 24hrs. When we get on the car roger start to nag about his prawning... So while on the way to marina bay we decided to change location. To satisfy roger...haha AND suddenly sq made a big n fast u turn that scared yii. On the way there we had losta laughter too... Took a few pics but i dont think im gonna post it up. Both of them were busy prawning, sq went back to car to catch a nap while i go around hunting some food. Times up n i say prata! Everyone agreed n we went to jalan kayu for breakfast?? Not sure wats that meal too la. Everyone was so tired n we still joke alot in the car while going to prata. Reached home around 6 n it rained....was tiring but really a nice gathering. Waiting for u to come back bro...u said before Xmas and we will havok again by then.

Looking at time...its 430. Been on my blog for sometime. Am tired too so i guess i will just log off n jump onto the bed. Its a month before burning crusade comes out. I muz work hard on my 4th character, making it to 60 then i can peacefully start off with bc. Still no luck on brutamore, scholo n more scholo but gandling dont seems to like me n doesnt drop my Helm of valor. I gotta work hard on brut. i like this charc alot cuz i made losta frds in Gankgrene. i wan to be the superb ownage tank in anetheron. LoL...alright enough said. Gotta wake up before 8 to see if my frds have any raids later on.

I really need someone to motivate me to do something. I dont mean i need a partner in life. =D
Singlehood FTW!

Dead....gone......ended...

Haiz my comp is finally dead and out of no choice i gotta REFORMAT it..... Pain de leh... My mp3s, transformers cartoons n blah blah ALL GONE! Been feeling really really moody over this issue. It really hurts more than breaking up with gf. LOL and i knw this isnt a good sign. Maybe theres a medical term for it, dont knw la...

Anyway...last mambo is GREAT, the muzik woot woot woot! la luna, to the moon and back blah blah blah... roger was there also so 3 of us plus shanqing is having fun thru the whole mambo. Oh yea.... fun will end sometimes. Last mambo for sq untill he gets back before xmas. Of cuz after mambo muz have a goody supper. As usual at spize, had maggie goreng again.. am addicted to maggie. Ended the havok around 545 n played wow abit....then zzzzzzzzzz

As for weekends leh, as usual lo.... stay home n WoW! ut today abit diff gonna go out n chill cuz sq is flying off next tues. Andrew told me got frd bday...but too bad la its at dbl O if not i might go. Juz a waste of $$ for me to go there n do nothing.

Recently i got in love with rogues in WoW... they r juz fast n furious. Overpower being for me as i can 2shot kill somethg. My poor 3 60s...... 2 already being cast away n third is on the way to exile. LoL....so wats next after my rouge? Blood Elf Paladin. i wan to play smelly also... fight until no life "bubble" then heal myself. One of the most smelly class in WoW....haha cant wait till burning crusade comes out. Oh and...after sometimes i juz realised, i m still better being alone. Maybe im too afraid to commit again, thats y i chose to be alone. Things might get weird these 2 weeks, abit dramatic but at least i knw wat i really wan. Time to get some rest and poof off to hunting food all night long!

Sigh

Till now....my comp is in a safe situation. NO more blue screen but the bad news is i cant install my WoW n play my Wc3 Frozen throne.... very sad case. Spent Whole day try to install le still cannot. My weekend juz screwed like that, but luckily theres someone there for me. Phew

Like i said i cutted my finger, got fed up. After cleaning the wound n bandage it i went to sleep. Plan to have a nap but then woke up at 4am in the morning. omg......LoL Steve was online so asked him out for breakfast, another reason is of cuz i wanna take bak my WoW disc so i can re-install and play! We met up at central around 630am n had a nice breakfast. After that i pop by his place to get my discs. Becuz i had a ZG run at 8 so he say i can stay n play for the run. So hell yea! y not.... I been trying my very best not to miss my ZG run cuz i wanna get my epic polearm [Halberd of Smiting] ok this is a false link, so pple who play WoW dont try to link it if not i will luff at u ! The run is ok at first, playing with cautious and we made it to the first boss, got wiped 2 times n finally we killed it with a perfect strat. Drop a nice epic trinket but didnt roll for it cuz i wanna use my chance for my polearm.....hurhurhur. So next place is the creepy spider's den. Sad to say we wiped too many times there and we had to call it a day. By the time it end its around 1145. Damn low morale cuz i didnt even get to 3rd boss n see whether he drop my polearm.

Just before i ended the 20 man ZG run, lynn msged me. Then i remembered its her off day thats y so early msg come le. She offered to deliver lunch for me again, always make me feel bad. So i rushed home soon my game ended cuz my hp is going low batt. Its 12 noon the sun is having its lots energy n i walked home kena bbq. Changed my mind of meeting her for lunch cuz after the bbq i really dont feel like going out anymore. So i stayed at home checking on my pc while waiting for my lunch to come. Defragment is done and the result is bad.....many bad sections and.....i dont know wat to do about it. Knowing that pc is almost saved, i start installing WoW. But then........ it didnt worked, for many many times! Oh fuk (/wrist) I'm a stubborn guy so no matter wat i muz get my game install. If im not wrong the first time i install is a smooth journey, no problem at all. Now leh......haiz maybe is my comp really having problem bah. Cuz i cant even play my Wc3 also. But then problems come when i install the new WoW mod mah. So wat the hell is going on? (/sigh) My lunch did came abit late. Around 4+.... ok cant say anythg cuz i expected that. LoL....but she told me she had class at 7 and it made me felt bad again.... So we had lunch together and watch some tv. Fact is....it sux...i meant the programs. Mediacorp tv at that kind of time can really kill me. When she is about to leave for her lesson, rain come and its dropping cats n dogs. So i suggested y not she dont go for her lesson. LoL! Evil Kai.....(/grin) But i can see that she kinda unhappy about it n yea i feel bad again. So we still stuck at the tv n thing gets better after 630 news. Its the dramas....n thoes the ones i have been watching all along. The ultimate comedian at 8ppm is kinda sad n kind happy. The good ones r REALLY good n the bad ones r sure 100% NOT funny. Before 10 she had already doze off, well mayb is me bah. I seldom talk just keep concentrating on my tv, too engross le bah..haha. So she went bak around 1020 n she insisited that i only can send her till mrt station. Haiz again i feel bad....wat the.. Dont knw muz eat how long more vegetarian to make me feel better. So she went bak alone, n soon i reached home....ZzzzZzzzzzzzz really too tired liao so no choice. So yah thats how my monday ended.

Enough of my complains. Now its time for me to decide wat to get for my breakfast. Its raining outside still, n yay i had a good sleep cuz of the rain. Hmm? maybe mac bah....lazy to go out so call its delivery. hahaha 2buks to avoid myself caught in the rain, not a bad idea. Last!!!!!! I hope my WoW can play soon. I missed my Brutamore!!!!!

/cry

I had tons of things to complain about. No one i can talk to, then so sorry to my blog. Its a place where i can complain. Anit virus is still running so im writing with big fuking LAG (/wrist)

Comp is having alot of problems recently. First my mp3 drive cannot be detected. It happened few months back and guess what? Drive crashed and lost all my mp3s (/frown). So this time i decided to backup my mp3 into another drive. Thou still no problem till now but u never know, it might just boom! and gone case. Thats not all... ever since wed till now constant crashes and restarts. OMG even when im playing WoW also kena (/wrist). Been up from 7am till now and i have not settle the problems. Gonna faint soon.....i can live without a gf BUT i cant live without my comp. Basically i have no idea what is going on and i had tried all means even by cleaning up the fan. Wow its sure dusty.....thinking of when i last clean it.....hmm... never! So might as well cleaning up my room while im running the chkdsk.

As for my game leh, lagi best. First thing i log in it prompted me that "Your game time is up, please buy new time card to continue game" GOT SO FAST MEH! Blizzard cheated my one day. Planned to go buy it once popular bookstore open but was busy until 3+ then remember that im hungry and i need to eat badly. So happy that now popular bookstore sell WoW gamecard. Still remember the last time, i search thru whole causeway point and cant even find one. End up going to Sembawang to buy. Went there grab my box, pay for it then Kfc time! Last time i bought the gamecard also had kfc for lunch. Weird but i guessed they are somehow linked.

Happily come home see my comp is working at least fine for awhile, entered my game card code and start the game. The moment i log in ride on my mount want to go buy something. SUDDENLY game crashed...... i was like WTF!!! it happen in game now? Tried 21049832574734 times and the problem is still the same. First game crashed then comp restart, they just take turns doing this on me. Haiz.. My whole saturday i spoiled becuz of my comp problems.

Actually wanted to go prawning with roger n gang in the evening but due to my comp situation i decided to give it a miss. Even if i go i will not be able to enjoy myself, thinking about the dying comp at home. So sorry guys... i got my own reason for not going, not purposely want to put aero de. Think i gonna stick to my comp till it is in safe condition.

About my whole week, its kinda messy... Hmm or should i say i had more things going on? Had sushi buffet with someone on tuesday. If im not wrong i just had jap food for dinner with my gang on last weekend. Few days later im back to sakae sushi again... Duh luckily i didnt had buffet on both days. Wed mambo is bad, invasion of the ang mohz. And this time they come in big group! Totally spoiled my mood that night, ended mambo very early. Went to shell station alone and decided to get my drinks and supper. Tar bao everything cuz i just wanna rest abit, drink then go home liao. Feeling really damn sian thats y rather go home n have my supper maybe after shower or something. Jo and gang came right after i bought my things, have a short chat n decided to leave. When i m walking to cab, "ding dong..u have a msg" someone in a bad mood and ask whether i can keep her company. Yea i went down...had a talk and mac for breakfast/supper. Left around 615, took a bus to causeway point and change to another. Reach home first thg after shower is sleep! Was really too tired n lazy to wait for my hair to dry. Sleep for 2hrs+ then i m awake....weird feeling n im not tired at all. Do some proj n play game after that. Then.......my comp start to have problems.

Thought i said i have alot of things to complain....but seems that i have write abit nia. Whateva.. im glad that it didnt crashed while writing blog n was happy to find out that its virus free now. time to restart my comp n back to WoW! Been waiting for a day to play liao so PLEASE let me PLAY!

Something to add

OkOk i know im lame n full of shyt. Wat i wanna say is after shower n breakfast, im feeling better. And thanks for chattting with me. U knw who u r.

Soooooooo now! I just wanna get some sleep, wake up then CHIONG AH ! im still stuck at level 58. 4 bars to ding! After ding then i muz chiong chiong chiong to level 60. And thats MAX! No more worries of leveling after that. Juz grinding reputations and collecting of my gears.

Scholomance, Lower/Upper Blackrock Spire, Strats and blah blah blah. I will revisit u guys very soon enough.

Last but not least FUK U ALLIANCE!

Question?

Double blow with critical hit, it really does hurt. OucH! Dont knw why.....im thought im already free, moving on like normal. But after tonight, i start to question myself again. M i really ok OR all along i've been lying to myself, trying to run away from reality. Wats truth n wats not?

Its really a big surprise tonight, for so long i nv thought will see her again. But tonight is the night. Saw her there, first thing i do is ask pple around to drink with me. I dont want to spoil the night, i dont want to have an answer to my question. I want to escape from everything and force myself to enjoy. I dont want to leave before mambo even started. I want to be strong at least in from of everyone. I drank..... not too much but enuff for me to forget things temporaily. Everything is juz unexpected and i cant seems to be able to handle it. So the key to solution is to act blur n run away first. Wait till sometime later then settle it.

Luckily the muzik is good. Im high n i danced till im almost out of control. Pple may think im ki siao but....... this way is better. Afer mambo im really tired, im glad cuz once i reach home i can juz shower n sleep. I try my best not to think, not to see and not to feel. But its out of control too.
Heng tonight time seem to pass very fast. Hours of craziness..... like everyone said, u cant escape frm reality foreva. Once im out of mambo, my brain start working. All the bullshyt stuffs kept coming in. Tell myself i need to run, as fast n as far as possible.

Hopefully after i wake up tmr, everything will be forgotton. I m really lost now, i cant sleep and i juz keep listening to thoes lau bak sai songs. Is it juz a temporaily thing? Am i juz missing her cuz after so long didnt see her? I really hope its juz for awhile. I wan to move on i really need to. I wan to be bak to wat im. Single, games, toys no other stuffs. Even if i m lying to myself still, i rather lie foreva.

Missing - Everything but the Girl is still the song i wanted to hea most.

Moody

Almost one month so im bak. Back from mambo and i cant sleep. Tonight is hell for me, for no reason, i sarted missing her again. Juz before i reach zouk....haiz Didnt talk to everyone much, wanted to be alone n dance alone. Hoping time can pass by faster so i could get home, sleep and hopefully will forget about it. National day + mambo = massive crowd.

Muzik is alright at start, summer rain at 1am n after that im half dead. Went to dancefloor stand around and in the end sat at s plat. Been mentally tired so i almost dozed off. Missing her really makes me tired.....thinking about the days in zouk, first time i saw her. Its been so long but i still cant forget about it. Maybe its juz me.... i cant stop mambo-ing. Mambo-ing is another way to make me remember her. Thou its tired n sad but i do not wanna forget her.

"And i miss u, Like the deserts miss the rain"

Back

After letting my blog to "seh kor" for so long decide to come back n update abit. Looking at the date...woah! just nice one month. Im bak to "kiao kah-ing" life again. Dun blame me with my qualification its near impossible to find a job n plus abit of laziness la. LoL

Still on the hook of world of warcraft. Horde side is doing well, 44 tauren warrior and 16 tauren shaman. Shaman rox~!~!~!~ i thought my paladin is best now shammy is taking over. Frost Shock! Shammy can heal can tank can melee its a perfect all rounder.... eh zen faster lvl ah.....theres alot of instances for us to chiong together.

As for mambo leh.....alrite la...still the same, abit of things still happens in mambo. This is wat makes mambo so interesting. Losta stories to let me bah gua about..hahaha. Outside mambo leh theres more hot n juicy news going around. Neva expect things to happen this way. Well like most pple said, money is the most lethal thing on earth. U cant live w/o it n also it can make frds become enemy juz becuz of it. Well enough said, go play abit of game then makan breakfast then koonz!

Home

2nd day at home. Still not used to it, weird right...kai is one who is use to be slack but now complaining. Nothing much for me to do other than looking for jobs online and watching tv. I knew i will be out of job so i am bak to play war of warcraft again. So rusty after so many months. Went to another server to play horde side, becuz ziwei is playing there too. But then after one week liao still nv see him log in. Really had a hard time playing horde, unfamiliar with the quests so its really hard for me to complete them.

Clubbing is still the same for me but theres 2 weekend i didnt go dbl O. Guess i really needa break abit. Last sat is adrian's wifey bday so we all went. Luckily still manage to had our supper, this time the bah kut teh taste nice. As for mambo.....still da same la...no point saying at all. Other than that are some problems my frds r having. List them out i might aim target again so better not.

Thats all i wanna update. Sux right..... i think im becoming lazy to blog liao. Everythg also cut short.

TODAY IS TUES, WoW IS HAVING MAINTENANCE AGAIN. IM GOING TO BE BORED TONIGHT!!!

Duh

Was toking with gab online til 7+ then i had my dinner. Back to room n watch tv, juz before 9pm i fell asleep. Woke up around 1am n saw gab's sms. Asking me to play Dota, but when i log in no even a single soul. LoL! Guess they had already gone to bed, knowing that gab is collecting his car so he need plenty of rest then go roaming around. Was online for the whole night seeking some good wallpapers. Manage to find a chinese website with Transformers data. The artwrk is damn well done n i had download the Stunticons. After reading the pages i decided to make a wallpaper of my own. Theme will be Stunticons!!!! After hours of repainting n editing this is wat i get.

















Guess it still look sux....oh well, im not that experience in doing this kinda stuff. Like i said i spent hours juz editing these 2. 3 more to go and i can put all of them together and make the wallpaper.

Asked mum to buy me nasi lemak cuz im stil very awake. Really hope i can fall asleep before noon. If not i will be spending my night sleeping away again. Time to go Breakfast.. Will update again if i got anymore program coming tonight.

Haizzz

Been more than 2 weeks. Everything around me juz seems not to be going on smoothly. Biggest thing of all is having a quarrel with my buddies. For more than 10 yrs of frienship and i found out that it's how they see me as. Been very bothered about this issue for days. Hopefully it will get better as time goes by. Work is the same for me thou its very far. Everyday travelling to simei is getting on my nerve. Anyway my contract will end next month. Gotta find a new job soon.

Another thing that made me very sad is my job interview. I flunk it and was very disappointed, all blame it on my body. Was born weak and mayb im juz useless for all my life. Had very high hope on this job. Was thinking if i got it i may had a chance to go somewhere else and start my life all over again. Who knows.... mayb im destined to stay in singapore. If n i say IF i really cant get a job soon enough, i will juz go bak to my slacking life for the moment. I dun really care how people see me now. Even they think im a trash or junk, so be it. Im wat i m and i enjoy my life this way. If anyone doesnt like it then too bad.

Been thinking about alot these few days. About me and my life. I think im really a failure when comes to handling frds. So i guess for the moment, i will juz be alone. Some pple might think im sick of them thats y im leaving them. Cant really control wat others think of me. If they really think that way then no way i can change their mind. I need to be alone and think for awhile. If things goes well i will appear again. If not..... i will juz stay alone. Being alone..... i dun have to feel responsible for others and the same others dun have to feel responsible for me. Mayb this the way life is for me.

Wed and sat is becoming very standard for me. Zouk , Double O and so on. Sometimes even friday also will go dbl O. My life juz that boring, and wat else u can do except clubbing? But still was satisfied with my life now. Even thou i go clubbing, i still see my frds and sometimes will talk to them. But when time is up i will juz leave alone and go home by myself. People might think i see them as nothing cuz i dun even bother about saying bye or wat. Well thats life and that wat others think. Let them be...... Even the my best buddy also mistaken me as a guy with ill intentions. Alwiz picking pple around me. Hmmm if im really wat everyone think, then i think the decision i made is suitable for me now.

Today should be ziwei's wedding dinner. But thurs i decided not to attend it. Roger asked me why but i couldnt explain why. I dont want to feel like im not myself at the dinner. Thou i knw there will be mambo regulars there. But the truth is i dun really know them well. We didnt even talk more than 2 sentences when we meet everytime. So....i guess its better for me not to go. I dun wan to feel weird n like a stranger down there. Go there eat n keep quiet, times up then say byebye. Then wats the point of going if im not going to enjoy the dinner. I knw this decision is hard and i knw pple will start saying things about me after that. Like i said earlier....i dun really care now. Juz say wat they wanted, since my reputation is already so bad.

Its sunday night and i guess i need to force myself to sleep. Tmr is a brand new week, juz hope that everything will go smoothly for me.

"Being alone doesnt have to feel responsible for anything."

Lost

Lost?? dun knw why but....theres been alot of clubbing for me last 2 weeks but didnt have the mood to blog. Was watching tv but its was so sad so i decided to blog.....After stoning for awhile i stil dun knw wat to write about. Was tokin to yii on Msn n watching chn8...got koda kumi Mv...Nose bleed sia. LoL!

I think i shall update on my activities... week before andrew n i went to bbbc to support aaron. Andrew wanna go down n check out the place too. Was there around 11 n surprised to see crowd there. Saw pple frm nightlife too. Was a big group n they r damn havok. But too me, too havok is noise for me. So we find some quiet place n chat while we chill the night away. First we were dragged up by someone cuz andrew was a member of nightlife so he knew few of them. Our drink were being taken away by others soon we join them. At that point of time i was abit hungry so i took the food on the table...well they took my drink so its ok for me to eat some. Everyone was havin their fun but both of us still tokin to each other. Like we r cast away like that. As the noise is getting too loud i decided to go somewhere else. We saw two new drinks on the table, grabbed it n run. Not bad la! Some finger food n renew our beer, wu hua leh! Aaron is very high that night....he drank alot n first time i see him doing break dance and fell down! LoL.... Party ended n we went to kopitiam for supper....andrew wanted to catch the last nightrider i manage to make him stay for the first train. We sat outside city hall mrt n chat again. Throughout the night we tok about lotsa things. Anything n everything under the sun. It's been a long time i had a long chat with someone.

After waking up i was abit tired, doesnt wanna go dbl o but already promised andrew. LoL!!!! Bo bian la for a frd i go there. Luckily adrian got go also. But hes abit low on cash so i will be paying the cab fare for him. Had a good night at dbl O cuz of the muzik. Mondae was a holidae so i spent my time shooping at various places alone. Got my pepsi twist optimus prime and a new panasonic hp. Waited so long n its finally sold at $98!!! So blah blah after weekend wrk n wrk then mambo.. Mambo is ok and i m not going to say much. As for Dbl O last night im not going to say anything much also. Last night i really wished someone could kill me. I felt so sian n nothing i could do. But at least i shared cabby with jason. Having a pack of mee once i got home. Watched tv for a while n i slept around 430. Woke up n 10 n could find anythg to do now. So boring......

Thats all i think....finally manage to squeeze out a few words. If not some pple will complain i nv update again. haha....time for me to go out n buy some games to spend my boring n yet not sleepy sunday.

Cant Sleep!

Fuckeroni!!! This is my 2nd time im writing this entry. 'Accidentally' erased everything. I guessed my title explain everything. To me.... the worst nightmare is unable to sleep afta clubbing. Physically but not mentally tired, wrote a testimonial for andrew but still eyes as big as goldfish. Didnt have the mood to play game forthe whole week, m i tired of gaming or is it no more interested after i start working. Wat the hell man!!!

Met up with gerald at orchard...andrew was supposed to be there too but he 'aero' me. Had dinner at cine n as usual i went to rapid culture that was located at 2nd floor. Was very disappointed cuz the amount of transformers is getting lesser. Did they re stock or did they not? I was aiming for Alternators Optimus Prime but didnt see it there. Guess i will start hunting for it next week. Last time no $$ to buy but now! Got $$ cannot buy. Went to HmV after that hoping that i can get my Best of Hse vol5 n 6. Again!!! Its was not there. Really fuken hell, got $$ want to shopping to pamper myself abit but cant. Bah! Went off soon after gerald got his cd n we took 16 to zouk. Went to meet roger n followed them to dinner. Asked andrew to come over n find us dun wan! In d end waited so long, blame urself for being lazy k. Haha! Jasmine joined us cuz she havent makan also. Really been a long time since i saw her n heard something about bad.

Was surprised that sebastian suddenly pop out n he treated us drink. Wanted to go for lychee martini but in the end andrew paid for it. Thks again! Music is better and lu luna is played. Whole night is full of nonsense with roger. Was really afraid that the night would be boring but really turned out well. Xuan is celebrating her bday tonight, was low profile but thks for the drink. Few of us went off earlier to shell, was able to drag nicole along cuz its been awhile since she join us at shell after mambo. Gave her a new name soon after she said that she's fat! Wat r these gers thinking man... After the drink all went back... in the cab kes is still making fun of sebastian.

Reached home around 430 n the match is finishing. 0-0 barcelona won with a goal in the first leg. So 2 weeks later its Barcelona vs Arsenal. Juz glad that Arsenal went into the final.. barcelona will be hard to win im sure of that. This weekend im going bak to pennisular plaza to get the away jersey for arsenal. Yellow!!! my fav colour. Haha

After mambo i had some thoughts.. and i m quite happi about it. After tonight, im very confirmed that im moving on fine, really fine... Took me a long time to recover but well.... late is alwiz better than never. Guess i will be commencing my hunting session soon. LoL! Learnt alot from past experience n i also learned that both of us r really not meant for each other. Another thing is..... haiz... dun knw how to say it. After the last relationship, i have not been talking with someone. This someone of cuz is very impt to me if not i will not be sighing. Mayb is becuz of wat happened in the past that made me so afraid to talk to her again. Was very sad about it but wat to do... Just hoping that she will still treat me as a frd. As for when i will have the courage to talk to her again it all depends. Been sucha long time since i saw her, dont even know if she will come bak to singapore during vacation. Till now i still regret n blame myself that i didnt arrange to meet her up last year. For some reason i cant ask her out, still feeling very fuked up about it.

The fact is............i still miss her alot.

Review

Hmm finally got mood to blog le...or shld i say i got the time to blog. Last week have been very slack for me. Worked on monday, mc on tues n wed. Off on thurs and fri holidae. Super long weekend for me eh. Its all becuz of the week before, not enough sleep then i was sick, sick from wat i also dun know. Just body aching and restless, doc see me machiam wanna die le so gave me 2 days mc.

Same as before, wed mambo n sat dbl o. Been going to dbl o for the past few weeks. Mayb i enjoyed the company there. Went there to chill n dance abit, also RnB muzik. Thurs night went to aaron new wrking place to check it out. He organised an event but no much people turn up. Everyone came up the same reason. Either too WuLu if not never heard of it. But then the few hardcore buddies still went down. Met denis at bugis n we had seafood nearby. A plate of prawn, fish n crabs for only 40 dollars. Damn worth it mon....will go back again sometime.

Aaron is wrking at bbbc now. Its just behind Tekka mall....thou place is small but its sure a nice place to chill out with frds. 2nd floor there is a cafe type room, concept is the same as pure room in MoS. Color theme is different of cuz, strongly recommend my frds to go there. Thoes who have been there...thks for supporting aaron. Even if only stayed for awhile...its enough. Food there is good, although i only tried the beef burger. Drinks r cheap enuff so i would gif the place 7/10.

Didnt ask roger along cuz of the crowd, didnt want them to feel boring. They did called after that..asking me for plan. So they r suggesting supper n i said ok of cuz. Not hungry but just wan to tag along mayb for a chat or somethg. So yii told me that danny n xuan is joining too....well i cant say no too. If not others will think that im too mean. Anyway didnt saw danny for a long time so its the best time to gather up. So when they reached i asked them in for awhile cuz aaron still dont wan to let me go yet. LoL! We left the place ard 2+ n went for supper. I just sat down there n had a drink. Had alot of jokes while supper...well, roger + danny = havok! Then we were thinking where to chill out...then danny suggested Mustafa.... That time i heard frm them is like so fun. In the end we went there....OMG that place is too fuking big to walk around, somemore its around 3+ in the night. After rounding a few levels, roger n i were complaining while we took every step. Abit of tension cuz some wanted to continue walking. But luckily everything turned out fine. So after that we all went back, they sent danny n xuan back to toa payoh. I told them to drop me at somewhere nearby mrt. So i could wait for train... roger didnt say anythg n quietly drove me back woodlands. The whole trip was too quiet as no one is talking. I know that everyone is tired, but still i think that something is wrong. Is it i said something wrong that made roger drove me all the way back home? Well, i really didnt mean that, i really wanted to drop by at any train station to wait for the first train. Cuz i spent losta $$ that night so i wanted to save $$ on taking cab home. At least after 6am..no more midnight charge. If i really did anythg wrong....i'm sorry. i wasnt aware n didnt know what happen or wat i did. Hopefully i was oversensitive about tis issue. But this kind of thing never happen between us before, therefore till now im still worried about it.

Sat was at dbl O, and before roger msged me. As usual...he need to decid, but in the end they didnt turn up. I know that he got lesson the next day. So when i msged him around 11+, he said hes going to bed. So, my night is without madness when they r not around. Everything is normal but abit more drinks. Andrew treated me a drink that taste like bitter milk. Nice i can say n 2nd round he bought me lychee martini. Gave my share to lynn but she only sip abit n gone missing with her sandal. Yes sandal....andrew will know wat im toking about. Haha! Got abit tulan after dbl o. Cuz gotta wait for the other to make up their mind. And alwiz they took sucha fuking long time to take their bags. Things were fine after we found our seats.

Ok..i think i really got nothing much to update about. Everything n everyday is the same for me.... updating my blog is really getting longer. Normally is one entry per week but now is more than that. Shopping is gonna be a part of me soon. Went to cwp for dinner n bought something. A new toohtbrush n Hugo Boss Kosong. I meant original. Spent around 90 bucks juzt now, but then felt very satisfied. LoL!!! Been saving up $$ for the next jersey. If i said IF arsenal won the champions league, there will be a champion jersey. i will sure buy that of cuz n i know it gonna cost a tiny bomb. Tomorrow is mambo again....also arsenal semi final first leg with villareal. If mambo is boring i will leave early. Gotta go play some game then sleep. Tmr before mambo i m goin down to hmv to buy cd. Check the webby juz now m realised there is Best of house vol 5 n 6. Will buy that if i manage to find it.

Er?

Actually not much things to update. My weekly life is very standard. Sat went Dbl O n had a crazy drinking session with adrian n jason. Aaron is not working there anymore, kinda sad eh. First tot that the night will be bad but it turn out different. The dj spin good retro then top 40's. Good chill out session on the weekends. After that we went for supper. Jerry n roger is driving so can ask adrian along too. Anyway... if i go adrian also muz go. LoL! Went to many places but the stalls were all closed. In the end we ate at hougang. The food sux big time, everyone was complaining about it. We went off around 5 n was lucky to get a cab.

Last night mambo....damn sad also. Was deciding to go or not cuz there's arsenal match. So went to irc n check it out, david n alern is going plus andrew msged me. Oh well juz go there n meet frds bah. Met andrew at orchard n meet the rest at zouk. Roger n zhenyi was there. Consider lucky bah...since they r there so make my trip down more worth it. Something juz puzzled me alot. Wats the great thing about i had a job? Some pple juz came up to me n asked "hey u got a job?" Then they went off, so wats the big deal about it. I know i dun like to work, but in order to feed myself i had to force myself to. Another thing is some pple mention to me that i was cold to somebody. So??? I juz wan to avoid anymore problems. I already had a bad time with them so why bother to make it worst. I cherish the frdship so i rather choose to avoid n maintain it that way. At least now both parties r leading their own life. Im fine with my life now thou im not sure about the other side. But frm the way i see, i guess their life is way alot better without me. Of cuz i wish it would turn out better, but then wait till i learn how to be a better frd first bah. Till now im still a potential trouble maker.

Its been too tiring for me. Mon til after mambo i didnt had enough sleep n i m working todae. After i got home i dozed straight. Woke up around 1+, so i guess i can only sleep at least around 4+. So tmr is gonna be hell for me. Weekend they r planning dbl O...hmm....if only i have enuff rest on fri night if not i think im going to give it a miss.

Bored

Actually....i didnt wanted to blog but its really boring so no choice juz write abit. My nap overshot n i woke up ard 2am... That sux! Now i cant sleep n i cant think of anythg to do. HELP~!~!~!

Sat is a tired event...Dbl O. Was expecting to enjoy myself but didnt. Roger, Yii, Jerry n Lynn was there. Starting was ok..Everyone had their drinks and dance. Dun knw why suddenly the couple quarrelled again. Well, to me im used to it so i leave the talking to jerry. First time for me to take a break. Saw michelle there n she was harassed by japanese.. Haha.. anyway sorry abt that night...didnt really have time to tok to ya. Gotta settle rogers stuff so i rushed off without saying anything. Went to O bar to check out on roger. Was with jerry n roger at a table trying to knock some sense into roger. On the other side the gers enjoying themselves. Afta i found out that they had waterfall! Yes and its the 2nd round for zhenyi, gezzz while roger is thinking nonsense at the table. Of cuz both gers r drunk, anytime they will fall dead. One point of time roger is missing..jerry went out looking for him. No sound from them n the gers r dancing furthur away frm me... Headache at that time. Rushed out of O bar n look for roger...dragged him bak n saw lynn walking out by herself. Companied her to take her bag cuz she is going bak with her frd. Poor andrew... gotta go bak by himself. After sending her out i went bak to adrian side. Luckily hes doing fine.. if not i would kill myself. Went bak to find roger n things seems to be getting better. All 3 of them were almost dead as well, suddenly zhenyi wanted to go home as we were discussing where to go for supper. Jerry frowned cuz no more supper for him. LoL! I walked with them to outside n see them got onto a cab then i went bak Dbl O. Rested a awhile n all of us went to supper. Bah kut teh! Had alot of luff afta the meal...As usual we were being chased off cuz they needed to close the shop le. Again... same as last week, i doze off in the cab... too tired le... Next dae i had my whole body aching all over...

As for mambo... its a quiet one. Kes didnt turn up cuz he got some commitment. Joanne side was missing too. So the centre plat is infested with ang mohz. Clever me was with david at s plat. Supper afta that n at first agreed to play dota afta supper but everyone was tired so they give it a miss. I had a game or too then i went to bed. Woke up ard 2 n was cleaning up my room again..
My room juz seems so big to handle..Muz take days to tidy it. Juz by cleaning my toys it took me a dae. Took a nap afta dinner n poof! i woke up at 2am.... Guess im going to have a game or two to make myself tired then hopefully i get to bed before 4. Wish me luck....

Weekend is coming n we planned for movie on sat. Ice age 2...pls do not disappoint me again. When can i go ktv again??? Alwiz get Ps by adrian!!!

Mambo

Once again last night mambo is great. This time not the muzik but is the pple. Last night there is 2 pple celebrating their bdae, zhenyi n kevin. Took a mrt down alone, when i reached orchard mrt andrew msged me. I did reply fast, but once i replied i saw him at the bus stop.....The moment he saw me, he was like kinda shocked. Like i was being 'summoned'. Haha! i used to be but not anymore. Its juz pure coincidence... afta asking i found that he's alone n will be going somewhere to wait for cyn n david. So.. i asked him to join my side first. Then edmund came, we waited a long time for the toopid bus 16. Once we alighted we went straight to winebar as Kes and the rest is waiting. Gez they were quite early todae.... alern was there too. =\ That time was around 1040pm le so we decided to make it fast so we can start our drinking session. Cake is brought out and we sang bdae song loudy. There's even a chn version for him. LoL!

All of us went in zouk at 11 sharp. Very simple its one for one, gerald got us 2 tables then we start off with 2 juggies. Er.... 1+1 that time so its 4. Andrew and gerald got themselves lychee martini~!~! I was like....gezz i wan the lychee~~ haha.... But lynn n nicole was there so no choice la. we ha our laughter n drink till zhenyi came. Our 2nd star in mambo for last night. She bought sex on the beach...n thats alot. Everyone around had at least one shot then stil hang around the tables. Suddenly i found out that he's missing so i went to the dancefloor n dragged him bak. He had another few drinks with us n i know he's goona get high for sure. Then kes bought flaming lambo.... poor bdae boy~ One by one everyone showed up, David and cyn and many others. Out of nowhere someone juz slapped me on my bak. Its daniel...long time no see eh... He told me about his problems....aikes. Just hope that everyone will have their problem sloved soon.

Music was good as brendon start off with the set. Cat also came n later part is xuan. Last night is like a gathering as many turned up. Wasnt really into dancing, halfway thru i was on the dancefloor ahnging around. Gerald of cuz at that time is already high and was doing his drunkard dancing. Everyone was luffing cuz its da first time we saw gerald seh! Thou we luff but we r not making fun outta him....Well excluding roger la, he keep going to gerald n act seh with him. Before 2am bdae boy is almost goner. He fell on kes once n i didnt see him afta that. Lynn came back n was complaining that kevin puked on her! XD
Kes, nicole n a few dragged kevin out n they spent quite a long time outside. I saw a familiar face on the dancefloor, its princess. Its quite a long time since i saw her, last time is adrian's RoM bah. Till now stil dun get it, y would someone name herself princess.

Mostof us stayed till everything ended. Lights on and we cant go to shell for our supper. Its raining heavily outside. So we waited n waited while some went to phuture n continue partying. Once we got to shell jerry told me that they r going to rivervalley to have supper. I know i will be asked to joined too so instead i asked everyone to go. Roger is driving n some had to take a cab. Its a short trip so i guess it wouldn't cost much. Food is darn good n i had a really heavy supper. I juz felt like eating something but didnt expect it to be so heavy. Somemore princess keep throwing her maggie goreng to me. I felt like i was a rubbish bin...no choice so i passed my food around, esp to princess..haha...she finished her food like almost dying. Great supper as it was the first time everyone got out of shell n eat somewhere else. Had our fun, laughter n great share of food. David gotta rush off first...haiz poor david. Im going to talk about that later. Afta food n a short chat, everyone had to go bak. We divided up and everyone left. Edmund n gerald is last to leave cuz they r still smoking. Good weather cuz its still raining, chat awhile with david then i went to have a hot shower. Last but no least a peaceful sleep til 2pm. Sat will be dbl o for roger n gang, promised andrew i will be there as he promised me a jug of lychee martini too.

Alright....now i m going to talk about david incident. I know its a small matter, i m not trying to make it big. Juz felt like saying it out. I myself also know that im not a good frd to everyone around me. I might not be fit to say this but from wat i see yesterdae...it was really a sad case. I might had misunderstood or wat but frm wat i know is david is left alone at zouk. He didnt come alone so i think he shld be going bak with his ntu gang. Afta mambo i only saw him around so i kpo n asked abit. He was drenched that time so i asked wat happened. He said that he ran to atm to get money for his cabfare. Hes going bak alone to ntu so i askd him to join us for supper instead. Once we got to rivervalley his hp kept ringing as he need to rush bak n pass something. Its was quite a fast supper for him. Once he finished his food he gotta go. Then when we chatted afta i got home, i knew that he's bak to ntu first n waiting to pass that something important.

Some pple might think its nothing, but to me....if u r treating him as a frd, pls spare a thought for him. If u had something important and it's with him...well at least let him finish him supper. Instead he's the first to got back n still gotta wait. Sick is not an excuse to do things that way. If u r sick, u still can go for supper and enjoy ur time. While enjoying u r rushing ur frd to get back to ntu AsAp. Last...u made him waited for u. Everyone had their reason for doing something..but frds r frds. Not maid.....Thoes who knew david sure know how 'on' is he. But dont treat him like ahmad la... Im not trying to act noble or anything, this is wat i felt n im straightforward. I like to say wat i felt like to. If i offended anyone then so sorry. Like i said above, im not fit to teach others how to be a good frd. Cuz i'm a lousy frd too. Signing off......

Sat: Peaceful n Laughter

Alrite..i think the title explain how did my sat went. But tues night writing about sat event seems kinda weird and hopefully i dun forget wat i wanna say.

Afta clubbing dbl o on fri adrian decided to do it again. So on my mind now is to wait for that lazy bum to wake up and chiong again. Early in the evening steve msged me about wat r we gonna do in the night. Oh yah, then it strucked my mind. I did mention about movie on sat night. Well that wats we do almost every sat. On the left is movie, while on the right is clubbing. So still gotta wait for the lazy bum adrian to wake up then can discuss about it. Soon afta adrian called me, the first thing i heard is not 'hello' but 'how' ? LoL....puzzled leh..... But for me it darn too easy. Since we clubbed yest night so might as well meet steve. When coming to frds, u gotta give fair share to everyone. (am i going bak to the dumbass me like before?) Nah! Cuz i felt like watching movie too. hahaha~!~!

After discussing i managed to get them to watch Date Movie with me. First thing on their mind was V for Vendetta. Phew....dun knw y i juz dun wanna watch that. Movie started at 1135pm. Before we went in something happened. Its kinda strange a bunch of kids ask if they could changed tickets with us afta we went in. Then i realised that Date movie is Nc16, few of them aint 16 yet so they gotta buy other shows. Then when they got it, all we had to do is gif them our tix. Well....that kinda lame to me so afta giving them the tix i told them something. "u can alwiz wait for da vcd" Steve said im evil! Whoever knows me sure know im a devil.

Date movie is really funny n lame throughout the show. I was luffing my arse off n yes my arse really did came out! Hahaha... I juz cant stop luffing till the gang said that its the first time they see me luffing so loudly. And asked me whether i need an ambulance or not. Kaozzz....i will luff until kena stroke meh! Afta the show, its our tradition to sit around n chit chat. Steve not wrking on the next dae so we can chat abit longer this time. One nice thing about it is theres a cat around while we were chatting. Suddenly adrian said he gotta go....geesh we were juz starting to enjoy the chillout. Afta pursuading him, he suggested that we move to another place instead. Well something spooky happened...we only get to know it afta we reached the badminton court near adrian's hse. Oh yah....adrian found a few packs of seaweed while we were passing by a few hdb void deck.

We went to the petrol station to get drink cuz we know that we will spend some time there. Theres a new product in town, okay maybe its not new, but its new to me. Magnolia yogurt ice-cream. Somemore lychee flavour...so steve n i decided to get it n reward ourselves. Anyway its not everyday issue so its ok that i pay for the ice cream. After we left the petrol station we found out that theres no spoon!!!!! Luckily adrian hse is nearby, so poor him...gotta go home n find us some spoons...... While toking, i saw a cat walking around so i decided to bring it near to me. I like cats....maybe i think that it would be a greater companion to me. She well groom n had a chain on her neck, so i suppose someone is looking after it. She seems to be very less active cuz it doesnt gif a damn to anything around. Suddenly..i saw her chasing something....its a lizard....we had our luff as we were watching wat shes doing. At that time it reminded me of my 'dog'..duh i really missed him! Gussed i really need to get a new companion soon! Still i was waiting for a cat in TpY to gif birth. The breed is kind cute n it have short legs. First time i saw the cat, she was pregnant, so i guess bb kittens will be out soon.....MUZ TO BE THE FIRST TO GRAB IT!!!! The pic of the mother cat is in my friendster pic.

The chat ended around 5am n we decided to go home n play DoTa! At tat time i was so fooking tired....so afta 2 games i went straight to bed. Was talking to anki while writing my entry...found out that she's kinda down recently. Nothing i can say to encourage her cuz i dun even know what happened to her. Haiz.....hopefully she will get over it soon bah~~~ Time to end my todae's entry.....Gotta go play a few games of doTa then sleep. Yest was on doTa til 3am.....almost forgot that i gotta wrk the next dae. So todae at wrk its hella tired for me... Tmr is mambo!!! i muz get enuff rest for tmr night. Had craving to go mambo again....probably is becuz of last week. But the fact is aldrin is not spinning tmr..Well, yii is celebrating her bdae tmr at mambo. So i guess there will be drinks. =D~

Fri Night

Quite a simple weekend for me this week. Fri was suppsoe to be my resting dae, adrian drop me a "free entry b4 1030" sms. It's was at Dbl O....They r launching their own website so there's a event. Reached there before ten and they already met their quota. Geez...was wondering if dbl o is that packed already. Left with no choice we paid n went up. Crowd was ok and muzik is quiet.... its like a morning session pasar! Everyone is shouting here and there....not afta awhile im kinda pissed off. Its simply too noisy for me, so i had to go to the toilet n hide n seek some quiet moment. Things dragged till 12Mn then the party started. First was house muzik then RnB...Quite enjoyed myself thou. Saw a person there...its been sucha long time so i didnt really able to recall who is she. Then adrian came n introduced us to each other....then i found out she's the one that worked at Comic's Connection in Causeway Point. Still it took me awhile to recall everything. Didnt really talk to her much but constantly drinking. Was craving for Lychee martini...and adrian got a jug for me!!!!! That point of time i was enjoying my Lychee martini til i was in my own world. LoL!Party ends at 3 and according to tradition we went for supper. Had Bah kut eh for my dinner so i decided not to eat it for supper. Normal Bah chor mee and a ca nof milo then we headed home. Soon i got onto the cab i dozed off...until i reached marsiling mrt and i slowly dragged myself home. It also took me a long time to drag my lazy arse into the bathroom and have a shower. Think i slept before 5 bah.....

Wanted to write about sat event too but i was too lazy n tired le. Think i'll write it maybe afta work tomorrow. Time for me to go to bed, i m really yawning too much.

Mambo with Aldrin!

Was a very tiring mambo last night. Thoes who were there will know wat im talking. Pple around me agree that mambo is awesome!!! Aldrin is back for juz one night to take over Sonny. Heard that sonny went to DXO or something. Everyone was worrying about last night cuz only left Dj B to spin mambo. But everything changes after aldrin decided to spin. At first i was worrying that if he will get rusty or not. LoL.....He proved me wrong!

First heard the news from gerald, couldnt really believe it cuz we juz suggested it the week before. News spread fast eh... But thank god he is willing to do it. People who used to go mambo 2 years back will know how good aldrin is. Thoes were the time he made mambo rox. Everyone was so looking forward for the night to come. Da wei even bought juggies cuz he know that tonight will be damn havok. Things juz seems too good to be true. Even when Dj B start the warm up set...this time is totally diff. I can say he really did well last night. Not forgetting the all time favourite 'Cherish' Chic chic chic.

Aldrin made a very obvious entrance, all he did is blast the speakers to top and started his set with La Luna. Geez its been how long la luna came out man..... Once La luna came, everyone on the podium is jumping n screaming. (*for thoes who dont like this song, too bad then!) Aldrin is able to keep the night going on and on. Only a few songs that stop the crowd. Other than that is non stop dancing and madness. Blasting volumes and controlling the bass is a bonus to the happening night. The grooves and the beating of bass really made the tempo going fast. Whole night everyone is dancing wild, even the crowd enjoyed the music too. Each of us in our own world. With Spin Me Round, Venus, Summer Rain and many more.

Last hour of mambo is really good. With all the popular hits in mambo like A Lil Respect, I Should Be So Lucky, Blame It On The Boogie and Bizarre Love Triangle. For thoes who left at 3+....too bad la. U guys missed the good part. Haha! And last night is the first time Kes tell me that he cannot take it anymore. Hes completely exhausted... Looks like even Kes the Energizer Battery had to bow to Aldrin too. Completely Ownage and tekan session from Aldrin. Everyone had to drag ourselves to shell station afta mambo ended. But on our face, satisfied is the word to describe it. Its been a long time we enjoyed so much. Afta mambo we r discussing about how the night rox and how indivdual enjoy themselves. Its a night neva to be forgotton.

Anyway.....the energy drained doesnt stop me from anything. Only 4 hours of sleep and im back to playing DoTa! Haha...mayb i rested too much last 2 days. Tons of sleeping hours to replenish the energy lost on sunday. This weekend think will be resting at home if not, movies with the gang. Wanted to go Dbl O on sat cuz Yii's bdae is next week. Thou we will be going to mambo, but the amount of drinks consume at zouk will not be that much compared to Dbl O. But too bad, roger got lesson on sundae...so its cancelled. Hopefully gabriel will be back with losta presents to reward the gang for the things we done for his wedding. LoL!!!!! dun come hacking me when u see this gabriel. U shld know me well, piority is enjoyment then presents for us. Already told u wat to get for us cuz u r going to LA n LV. Afta u come back from ur honeymoon, then we will have another gathering again ya.

Gabriel's Wedding

Afta weeks of preparations and busy schedule, it ended beautifully on 12/3/2006. Everything went on well thou is abit late in the day schedule. Endless laughters n blessings from everyone. Really happy for u my friend! Will upload the pics once gabriel return from his honeymoon. I guess i'll the the pics do the talking.

After the day ended....i was in a super tired mode. Not enough sleeps, not in the mood when comes to work and one bad thing, my skin conditon went bad! I said bad but luckily its only abit, not as worst as before. Phew...... I go all out for your thing MAN! Haha....u people shld know i juz like to complain n nothing else...... But frankly speaking its worth it. Skin will get better if i take good care of it. But wedding is Once in a lifetime things. Like the same old zhikai alwiz say : "no matter wat muz do sui sui for u!"

Well...6 months of cooldown period for me and adrian's BIG day is on Oct.....another happy occasion to busy with. 2 big events in a year and my frds r on their next phase of their life. Left me alone on the shelf. LoL and i dun think my big day will not be that soon eh? Maybe 5 years later or later..no one knows. No matter what happens our 10 years of frdship will still be there. Glad to have u guys to guide me along thru these few years.

My last blogskin sux big time so i decided to change back to the previous one. Basically my last sunday entry didnt display out. Fuken dun know what happened to it, tot its blogspot problem. But hell!!! Everyone's blog is doing fine but why me.... so finally conclude that its the skin. Been searching for a few hrs but didnt manage to find anything i like.....my mind was so messy now. I cant even type well. Am i too tired or whats going on with me?

This week is super duper busy for me. Gabriel's wedding is on next sunday, need to rush the presentation on time. Thought it's 90% done but i wan the best out of it. Havent got my new clothes for that day and.... no time to cut my hair too. Everything seems to be so rush as time is running out. Went to the restaurant to check it out on sat... things shld be fine as the staffs there is quite cooperative. Then we went for mid night show at causeway point. Underworld Evolution. The movie is really better than the first one but still the ending sux. The fight last not more than 10 mins and its juz ended suddenly.

Aint toking much about mambo becuz it was a quiet one. Thou many came but all left quite early. Mambo is starting to get boring... but i dont have the mood to stop it so soon. Hopefully it will improve as time pass slowly.

Alrite.... i shall stop here....tonight juz sux. Hours of searching for blog skin, head spinning like hell and i cant even type probably. Am i falling sick soon???? Pray i better not if not i wun be able to make it on next sunday.

Was having a serious headache when i was about to doze off. This juz sux..... was tired and wanting to sleep but couldnt. Staring at my monitor don't know wat to do....So i'll juz blog since tonight i had some unexpected events. Today is another working day for me, but had to leave half day cuz i was still very tired. Luckily i manage to finish my work before 1pm. Didnt had any lunch n i went home straight.

Woke up at 7+ by my dad's curry.... recently was into spicy food. Had a heavy dinner and back to my comp. Checked friendster and there was a request. I dun rem having anymore frds to add, who knows....its sharon. I was like "Isnt she in my frd list?" Beo-ed her profile n i guess its a brand new one. Everything was quite empty and i was wondering where had she been for the past 2 years. Saw gabriel in Msn for da whole day, tot he's busy with his wedding stuffs so decided to check it out. He was down with fever....gosh...tmr is kinda important to him and i hope that everthing will go smoothly for him. Maybe is because of the busy schedule that's y he got sick. Take good care of urself bro....

Checked my hp and adrian's sms came early today, tot he will be sleeping his arse off til 9+. Wanted to watch movie so gave him a call, or did he call me? Nvm about that.....We had conference with steve. Barely can heard adrian's voice...lol.... O2 or Motorola... maybe its time u get another new hp. Was discussing til half n i dropped the idea of going for movie. Gabriel is down n i dun want adrian to sleep too late. He got so important stuffs to attend to the next day, anything happen = he's dead. Hahaha... Somemore i was yawning all da way afta dinner...so i guess i would prefer sleeping at home. Tossing on the bed is what im good at..... 1/2 hr i was tossing here n there....Gosh......i was feeling so miserable. Checked my hp n saw roger's sms, location : Double O. Was having second thought becuz i juz cancelled my appointment with adrian n steve. Then thinking about afternoon cyndi Msn me asking me whether going Double O, plus david will be going too. Decided to go since i cant fall asleep, had a quick shower and rush down to Yck mrt station to meet up with roger n yii.

Reached Dbl O around 1130....called jason down juz for the sake of cutting queue. Sorry i really didnt know that the queue was so fooking short. Was kinda crowded... well it was a good thing. Ever since MoS is opened, Dbl O was so empty. First thing i go over to jason's table i saw andy.... used to be my love rival in da past, but now...who cares. Roger bought losta drink n i was thinking...is he going to have war like last week. Msg david n i just couldn't find him. He told me he's at the bar....OmG there is a few bars in double o. After searching all the bars, he told me he's at the toilet.... farking hell....hide n seek!?!?!?!? As usual i will go to the dj console n find aaron n roger told me that alfred is here too. Thats not all... i saw the other jason's campmates. Wow!!! Didnt know there are so many unexpected pple appearing tonight.

Was abit draggy this time, normally we will juz dance n get our drinks after. This time the drinks came first....music started and i wanted to dance...but there is still so much drinks...duhh! Keep asking them to finish it so we can proceed to the dancefloor. Music was good at first... was having a great time. Saw david alone on the centre podium, rest of us joined him shortly. Didnt really talk to cyndi, maybe she's seh or maybe she's busy with her frds. She bumped into me and was talking to david. They r toking about going to devilsbar, so i told them why not go after 3? it will be free entry then. Only thing they reply is HARNA HARNA!!! Halo! im juz giving some suggestions. Dun need to be so hostile right? Even if my idea is not constructive enough, dun need to gimme that kind of reply right? If im a piece of shit to u guys, no point for me being so nice anymore. As simple as that....

Thats not the end..... as i went back dancing, i noticed that there is a group of pple pointing at me n was like laughing at me. Ok...if u pple dun like my way of dancing, so be it. Awhile later... jason's campmate came up to me. He asked me whether im who or who. He got my name wrong but doesnt matter. He popped up a question like "are you her ex-bf?" Was so surprised....How da hell did he know. Then he pointed to me the group that was on the dancefloor. Then i realised that he and that group of pple that were pointing at me are her secondary school mates. No wonder....... finally i know why. Well, was surprised that this world is really small, her schoolmate happens to be my frd's campmate.

Zhenyi was missing soon after we went to the dancefloor n she returned around 2.30. Her frds were in O bar so we decided to join them. Was playing RnB muzik, was good but i already dun have the mood to dance. Was so tired and hungry...was hoping that half an hr will pass real fast so that we could go for supper then devilsbar. Roger had another round of drinks n by the time yii was kinda seh le. From the face u can tell whether she's ok or not. So.....devilsbar is a no since yii is almost goner. We left at 345 not sharp and its was supper time. As usual, 2 bowls of rice with bah kut teh and 2 cans of green tea. Was a satisfied meal of cuz.... soon after the supper we gotta leave cuz the shop is closing.

The more i type, the more im awake.....dun tell me i gotta wait till afternoon then i will be able to fall asleep.....Still gotta go to toa payoh with adrian to visit steve at his Zui Quey stall in the evening. Yum Yum..... going to have good food later.

Its another late entry this week....cyn say i hvnt update it...so im here to do it now. today is the worst off day i had. Not becuz i had to bring my work home n do.....something devastating happened. One of my partition crashed, n that farking partition of mine contains 98% of my mp3. Still feeling quite sad now,only slept 4 hrs afta mambo....most of my time im trying to recover back my lost data. My norton GHOST had been running for the past 6hrs n it only recover 6% of it......dun think my HD can wait that long.... its like telling me "i cant hang on anymore" All i hope now is get back wateva i can n let my HDD go to rest....a long rest that it will never be activate again. First is my mouse, then my keyboard and now my hard disk.... NO!!!! IT WILL BE THE END OF DA WORLD IF I DUN HAVE A COMP!!!!! One day 24 hrs and i spent more than 10 hrs per day on it, even my gf i also dun spend so much time on her. So u can imagine if i lose my comp......days will be like hell!!! yes n i meant it!!!! HELL~~~~ And i m in a deep shit now. Gabriel's song needed for wedding day, n song i promised jeremy...i cant give it to them on time, pls forgive me n understand my situation.

One thing to feel lucky about is it didnt attack my main drive.....If any farking virus really attack my main system...i really can say bye bye to my lovely n precious comp.... afta 4 yrs of using it, thou its old but the performance is still great....spent so much effort n time on maintaining n upgrading it. Its like a frd to me.....juz like i like my Transformers......

Another thing that didnt drag my mood down to core is Mambo of cuz! Thou not as great as the previous one, but i stil had my fun. Sufficient fun n great frds r around. David, marcus, alern and even calvin is there. Not forgetting the usual gang on the centre plat.... Music good, n great crowds. Becuz theres a break for uni students.....ntu, nus blah blah. Therefore theres alot of XMM in mambo last nite.....making my eyes so tired..... LoL...busy dancing n busy beo-ing on the same time...makes my mambo no time for a cigg break....Still there is sometimes i was forced to take a break. There is alot of flower vase in mambo last night. FARKING HELL!!! If u pple dun knw how to do the retro thingy its ok. BUT DUN JUZ STAND THERE N DO NOTHING! Its really damn fuk up when they stand so near to me almost body to body. So if they didnt move, so cant i!!!!!

Last weekend so quite different ever since i started working. First weekend i went clubbing afta i start work. Kinda not used to it.....mayb too tired cuz i gotta work on sat. Went to devilsbar with rog, yii n frds. Was toking about transformers all da time...another collector i get to know....more lobangs in future. Somehow he got his Fortress Maximus @ $900 bucks.....Was kinda jealous.....LoL!!!!! Music was good....some of my fav muzik came out. Eg...In De ghetto..somemore techno ver wan! We had to drink alot....cuz roger need to finish his bottle in a night. Brand new bottle i guess......but wasnt my kind of drink. Afta we finish that bottle, we order a barrel of beer............. at that time i think we went crazy... Couldnt finish in the end n we end up giving to pple around us. Pple around us as in we dun even know who they r. Few of us walked out of devils in a blurry situation. I demanded for Mac breakfast....n it created a joke... A bah poh approach rog's frd.....hahaha...... End of the day everyone is so tired as we r so quiet on the cab.... but i nv stop my transformers topic..LoL...heard that he got losta collections...one day i will rob his hse. I only want ur Fort.Max~!~!~!~!~!~

Juz got a bad news...my HDD up da car....gonezzzz.....all my mp3...goner!!! so sad.....guess i have to start frm scratch....but where to dl all thes mp3....basically there is no way now....Gotta dig out all the cds i could spare n rip in wateva i can....my mp3 empire is gone again for da 2nd time..... finding the songs again is like starting another civilisation........ nothing but sad n despair...

But there is another thing to happy about~~~that is Arsenal won Real Madrid.....Muahahahaha...

More than 12 hrs late...used to blog soon afta mambo. These few days seems so tiring to me. Thou i m staying home most of the evenings...but still im so tired! Meet up with gab, steve, adrian for dinner at sun plaza. Just nice that everyone is on leave on wed so we r able to meet up fro dinner. Afta we went to coffee bean n we start discussing about gabriel's wedding stuffs. Alot of things to do n the most kelian person is adrian. LOL! He will be the photographer that day. Time to rest is far lesser than steve n i. I know the meeting will take some time n i will be kinda late for mambo. In da midst of discussion gerald msg me, i know my reply is kinda harsh. i'm really sorry about that, but im trying to end the discussion AsAp. So i expect no disturbance frm anyone. In the end things went out smoothly n i get to go off at 1030 sharp. Time i reached zouk was 11pm sharp too!

Finally i can use 'good' to describe last night mambo. Usual gang is there except nicole, crowd is good and the muzik rox. Everyone had their fun last night, all left afta mambo ended. Its like a few weeks of boring mambos n finally the good time came. The way muzik was mixed n the sequence played was reallly good. Really kept me busy till 230 i think. End of da day i told myself that luckily i went, was really tired n doesnt really felt like going cuz of past few lousy nights in zouk. Only 5 person went to shell afta that. Rest seems to disappear in the mid of the session. Like i said i was too busy enjoying so really doesnt notice who went back or wat. And it was da first time i saw everyone was so tired afta clubbing. Had our supper quickly n went home. During bukit timah we encounter a road block..... was a very long wait when the policeman ask for many things. Was around $4 more this time.....kaozzz $4 i can buy 2 double cheeseburger ya know! ##%^&!~@^&

First thing i reached home - Drop dead! Dun even bother to take a shower, juz change n POM! ZzZzZz..... I tot i was going to have a good sleep afta that. Who knows.....i woke up 1 n half hrs later....Time was around 635..Had a great shower immediately, again i tot i will be able to sleep afta my hair is dry. Didnt expect my eyes would be so Bright n shiny....tossing on the bed for 45 mins n i decide to do something to make myself sleep. I m going to read a book...YES reading to me is the most darn boring thing in my life... Never failed me, i fell asleep wothout reading more than 20 pages. Woke up around 2pm n my body is aching all over.... counting the the hrs i had slept + - + - less than 8hrs. Am sure that i will turn in early tonight...cuz afta my dinner.. i m feeling sooooo sleppy now~~~

Time to update on my weekends. Fri night was at gab's hse to search for muzik for the wedding dinner. Outcome was good as we found losta nice songs. Had supper dowstairs n was a good one. Vcd soon afta supper... i was stil so awake thou i didnt had much sleep. We watched Wu jian dao 3 and gab went off to sleep afta that. I continued with Underworld n then Sex and the city. manage to finish 5 episodes n gab woke up. Took a cab home as i was kinda tired already.

Sat as usual... gathering of the three "ah pehs" Surprising i didnt had any beer that night. I was darn hungry cuz i met them soon afta i woke up. Had a curry pork rice (rice x2) + ice milo and we had crabs!!! Adrian went over to nearby shell station to buy bread. Wat a heavy dinner...yum yum....was so satisfied after enjoying the crabs slowly. Thats not the end! 3 cans of Jia Jia Liang Teh.. Muahaha! Soon afta my skin conditon gets well, i started to eat losta seafood. Like crabs which i cant even think about it in the past...now i can eat no matter how much the quantity is. Craving over the past year..... was like hell to me, also not frogetting my skin conditons. I m really glad that my skin is getting better n it's going to b stable for quite some time. Past 6 years i was really living in hell......passerby see me in diff ways....suffering when my skin is in bad conditions, hospitalised, do not dare to go out too often. Unlimited amount of pain n stress im going through, and also the non human looks of mine.....Hopefully n sincerely i prayed that it will be over forever. Who doesnt wanna live a normal human life?

Been through alot of things in my life. Asthma in my young age, Eczema when i was in teenager life. And the recent incident, got out of love. Everything seems to be so harsh in my past years. Health problems n then relationships problems. Blah blah blah.....finally its all over.... hopefully all these bullshits doesnt come back to me anymore.

Been thinking about losta things today.... Conclusion...... a smile. I'm satisfied with my life now. Staying healthy is one big bonus for me. Doesnt have to worry about the food that i eat or drink. Somemore i can take liquor n beer now. Another thing is that i manage to survive thru the last realtionship. First i tot it was the end for me as i lost my ex gf.....but now no more.... im recovering n i m moving on without anymore regrets. My life is getting stable as my recent illness is getting better too. My doc was hoping that i will recover soon enough. Problems with frienships is sloved too. All i have do is to learn to close one eye, talk less n response less. Last but not least im back to my clubbing life... thou no more on weekends, but every wed going to zouk is enough for me. One more thing i have to add on is i m enjoying my life as single now. Everything seems to be going smoothly for me from the very first day of 2006...guess its da primetime of my life. Cuz this year is my year. The year of DoG. I'm unstoppable!!!

Haiz...time to blog again. Feeling very weird n bothered for da whole night. This strange feeling....wasn't able to describe it. Tonight mambo was a boring one. Not with the crowd or muzik. Just me feeling weird, tired n bored. Kinda feel guilty, mayb im too bored thats y pple around me r bored too. If thats the truth, im really sorry. Only dance when i heard my favourite muzik or the tempo is fast, other than that......standing around rotting. After mambo things get better abit. First came a joke.....There is instant noodles but there is no chopsticks. So everyone ended up using spoon to eat. The tide finally turned, the one who is anti social is da big winner. Everyone was chatting happily but i'm da only one sitting down there listening, without giving any comments. Maybe the topic doesnt interest me or mayb things are stil bothering me. My mind is still in a fooking mess now.

When i reached back home, i was asking myself.......y did i go mambo???? One definite answer is to meet up with frds, another....wanted to see her. Ok....to thoes who r reading, u muz be asking who is that 'her'. Well... i'm not going to say anything not to say reveal the identity of 'her'. If you r smart, u will know who i m toking about. If not.....too bad then. What is happening to me tonight... Its kinda sad... kept thinking about the past. I thought that i had already put down the past n decided to start new. Yes i did, i swear i did. But dun know why i just start to think about it. Maybe im forcing myself not to think about it thats why it back fired.... If something are meant to pop up, no matter how u hide it, it will still pop up.

Another reason why i think about the past. Got to do with the new 'her'. It's not that they look alike or they have the same character. One is north another is south. Just that when i started to like this someone, i became so no confident of myself. Major issue is about my past experience. I dun dare to move forward n start another new relationship anymore. I got lost in myself before, and i hardly found myself back. I dont wan history to repeat itself. Another issue is she's too good for me. To me, she is near perfect. And for myself, im near useless. How can a person who is almost perfect choose a junk to be her bf? Thats totally impossible and i know the day will not come. Put it in another way, i'm juz too lousy for her. I cant give anyone sense of security. I dont work n i laze around all da time. At the age of 23 i still haven done anything yet. Doesnt have have a stable carreer, no money in my pocket, not mature enough is another point. Who on earth who choose this kinda guy. I must admit im a total failure. Thats why my last relationship failed. I'm about to resign to fate. I can forget about having another relationship. Be a lonesome jerk forever is wat i'm gonna be in the future. So about this ger i like....forget it bah. I can only dream n keep on dreaming. I am trying my best to forget about her and hopefully it will be erase away soon. So meantime i will still be the king of wishful thinking n keep on being silly. Hoping that she will be at mambo every wed. Not going to tell her about it cuz im afraid that i might scare her away. At least i still get to see her n talk to her now. Thats already a bonus for me. I know its stupid but wat to do??? I already fallen for it. It will take me some time to stop dreaming. But i really hope i can keep on dreaming. LoL

Been listening this song these few days. At first i think that this song is stupid but recently it just caught my attention. Most probably it suited my mood now. Its called 'lao shu ai da mi' Dun call me idiot or anything ok. This song does have it meaning too.

'Bu guan you duo shao feng yu, wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni'
'Zhi yao neng rang ni kai xing, wo she me dou yuan yi, _ _ _ _'

Am not going to complete the last four words cuz i know it will never happen. Unless miracle happen. If miracle really come i hope that she will complete that last four words for me. Haha...i'm dreaming again =x
One more thing, i cant put in chinese words cuz of my template setting so only choice is to put in hanyu ping ying. If there is alot of mistakes plz forgive me. I sux in everything. =
Alrite...this entry took me an hour to finish it. Im really outta words cuz my mind is still in a mess and im damn tired now. Gald that im finishing it soon....can go to sleep. Tomorrow is a brand new slacking day for me. All Da Best!

It's 5:52am now. For no reason i'm feeling damn tired now. Tonight mambo was great! More crowd thou the muzik at start is like a lump of shit. More actions for me this week but then was like dance abit slack abit type. Guess im really getting old... body not working well. Alrite thoes who r older than me dun mind me. I'm born to be lazy so i get weak very easily.

Later part of mambo was kinda hell to me. David u r complaining that looking afta pple who r high is one big headache. Thx to u hor! U bring cyn n her frd over then u MIA for awhile. 2 pple who cant even stand firm makes my mambo session end earlier. ( I juz like to complain ok. Not blaming anyone.)

This is not the end.....afta that is michelle!!!! Hvnt seen her for long. She said 6 months, dun knw is it that long. Once i saw her she start toking non logical things to me......Ok....another person who is 70% drunk... Worst thing is afta she got on the podium, all the wolves came along... Gotta keep an eye on her juz to make sure no one touch my frds when they r 'seh' Then suddenly mic say im JI HONG! I take it that u r seh that time so u dun know wat u r toking about. Thoes who know me well will know wat kinda guy i'm....Im gonna say it again i only go for thoes who i m interested in. I dun use fishing net to capture my prey. I like to use fishing rod n slowly fish for it. If that person dun like my bait, too bad. Somemore im not in da mood for anything now. Not even for a casual relationship. So michelle, i think u got ur answer eh? U been asking me the same question all night. If u really dun get it, gimme a call then.

Gathering at shell is getting shorter, afta supper all gotta go. Understand that some gotta work next day. Really missed the good old times when everyone juz sit around n chat til the time is forgotten.

Now is the time to update abit on my CnY.. On the day of CnY eve met up with steve n gang to watch Huo Yuan Jia... Was kinda boring cuz Li Lian Jie movies r all da same. After we went over to Gabriel's Hse for a round of mahjong. First day of CnY is alwiz stay home for me. Was playing my game in da aftanoon til my frds ask me over for a gathering. Guess wat???? Mahjong again! Duh.............. around evening time yii msg me n ask me over to roG hse for another gathering. It was made clear that its a gambling session. So i went over, end up watching soccer at roG hse. Feel so outta place cuz all r his sec sch frds. Was kinda alone down there...watch tv, walk around n hopefully i can get back my frozen throne CD. Things ended around 3+...everyone left afta the mahjong session. Had cup noodle for supper then went back alone. Also...empty handed home..... I wan my CD~!~!~! LoL

Only time i will be visting my relatives r on da 2nd day. When everyone will go over to my grandma hse n gather. Missed my ah ma's cooking, cuz last year i didnt get to go over. Wat happened last year???? Mambo on the first day of CnY. Overslept on the next day. First thing i got there, ah ma asked me where is my gf?????? Didnt get to see her last yr.... The moment the question pop out i was like....WTH... Afta awhile things went back to normal as my mum started another topic. Slowly one by one appeared n the hse is getting more n more crowded. This year there is another few new members in da family. All boys..... By 4+ the hse was like OMG! Nephews running around da place making havok. But it was fun plus there is tons of good food around. Was planning to meet up with gabriel n steve in da night but then cancel. Went home to continue on my games.

Adrian is finally back in Sg on the 3rd day. Had a small gathering at the coffeeshop in da night. Out of nowhere pple was fighting....Happen to be adrian's cousin or something. Things ended fast as police came n we decided to go back n rest earlier. Was hacking in game with steve til morning.....Damn shacked as we die die wan to keep on going. Before sleep, i was kinda happy...Mambo is coming~!~!~!~

That is all da things i could think of now. My brain is kinda dead now. If there is anything i missed out, will fill it in tmr or in the next entry. One last thing i wan to complain about..... MY KEYBOARD SUXOR!!!!!

NeW CritiCaL!!!!!

New critical record. 9318 damage..... Currently LvL 69......Gotta make my weapon more 'powderful'. Currently Legit record is still at 13k damage. GoGoGo!!!

One entry per week. Is it less?? Anyway i dun think anyone is reading my blog anymore. Thoes who used to support my blog, dun think they r stil reading.

Was kinda bored or i shld say im very bored. Im 5% to my next skil Superion Summon and suddenly some idiot juz crashed the server. Not much things i can do now, was cracking my brain on wat to blog. Was browsing the net just now. Tv suxor n my mp3 doesnt impress me anymore. Cyndi asked me to comment about her new blog skin, ask me if its messy or not.....i can say its quite well done n i like the layout. Didnt replied me after that....... Was randomly browsing pple's blog tp update myself n dun know y i enter someone's blog. After reading her entries i was surprised that i wasn't really bother about her stuff anymore. No special feelings or no other comments, juz closed it after reading just like reading some stranger's blog.

Months pass n i start to feel better......toking with frds that really cared for me n hanging out with new people in mambo. My life is not as havok as before but at least its getting better. I asked myself....' m i able to move on?' The only answer i could give was 'no matter what i had to'
Guess im really recovering from my wounds. Time will heal no matter how much i doesnt wanna put down.

People is progressing with their own life, happily living with their love ones. Doing things that they like. Im happy for them.....sincerely i was glad that their life r better without me. No more stress given by me n no more 'sandwiched' situations. Thou i doesnt see them often anymore n they r too busy to contact me. I will not blame on anyone........i had kinda awaken from the deep sleep.... I know i was very sensitive in da past n i created alot of problems for people around me.
Only thing i can say that during that period of time i was really down....i lost alot of things in my life. Then i started to become very sensitive n bad tempered. I knew i could never change myself. I cant be a successful guy in my life, so i decided to be a lone ranger instead. For all thoes troubles i created in da past i could only say sorry. Im feeling better and i think my mind is reversing back to normal state. But every thing is too late.....i scared everyone off.

Just wanted to start a new life in a new year. Friends that r gone....i know i cant bring them back. Even if i could i m scare that i will make them go away again. As for new friends, i will try my very best to maintain the friendship between us. I will try my very best thou i m stil as lousy as before. But as long people around me r willing to gimme a chance i will try. I do not hope for much, as long everyone that r gone is living happily now.....i will be glad.

My own life.....how m i gonna plan it, i start to think about this already.... I would like to save myself a alot of $ to get myself a car. All i wan to do now is to pamper myself. Recently i juz highlighted my hair n i kinda like it. Thou some pple around me gave me negative comments. Next step is to go shopping. Only bought 2 shirt n a pair of jeans.... My levis jacket im gonna get it soon i swear........ then i will be done with my CnY shopping. Didnt wan to spend too much on my CnY goodies cuz i m still struggling on Fortress Maximus. I found someone on yahoo auction that is selling it. After bargaining i got a good price of $850 without shipping fees. Ahhhh im feeling so good recently..... Spending $$ on myself juz made me feel so great!

Chinese new year plans.....play games when my family r out to bai nian....LoL...i m stil a gaming freak yea???Well... thats my only life support machine now. Until i found a ger that i can forsake my games..And thats IMPOSSIBLE. Gf is gf and game is game. Even if i found a new love in the near future, i will stil not forget about my games. My life formula is very simple. 30% games 30% Love 25% Tansformers 5% Vampires. The rest 10% is for thoes i didnt name out. Last time i used to 100% focus on juz one thing. thats y in d end it made me fell so hard.

As for mambo, i got nothing much to update on. Only word to describe it is Fantastic!!!!!! Maybe its the last 2 mambo thats too bored thats y this week i m feeling so good in mambo. Crowd is abit better n regular of cuz more of them came. Music is good at first n was enjoying dancing around. Been a long time since i danced til so tired. Jeremy came with his gang and we r on a 'pirated' business. We exchanged the stuffs in the middle of mambo. Juz like illegal business transaction. hope our business will prosper ya?? LoL

Hope i didnt missed out anything cuz i think i wouldnt be blogging for the next few days til after next week mambo. My CnY has been a plain one for a few yrs n i know this year will be da same.

My life has been like a schedule recently. Mon - tues is on games. Wed of cuz MAMBO. Thurs - Sun Game Game Game. N if roger n yii is free to meet me, sat is for them. I m contented with my life now. Peaceful yet with few surprises. Guess im starting to like someone. Saw her few times in mambo n left me with good impression. Only thing that made me stop myself is me. Thinking about how unsuccessful im n how bad my character is, i dun dare to make a move. Like my mum said, no gers would like to be with a junk. Currently im still a junkie... i got no confidence to fall in love. I cant give a ger sense of security. I got no succesful career n i got no $$$. I had a lousy temper n a smelly character. And im not handsome enuff to make a ger fall for me. In another word, i'm rotten from head to toe and i m sure that no gers will fall for a guy like dat. All i can do now is start my hunting season. Would really like to play around first until i fixed myself to a better shape then i will start to find a ger that will settle down with me. As for the ger i like...haiz time is not right now. I cant give her anything so i guess i will juz give it a pass. Hahahahaaaa enuff of day dreaming, time to go back n check out my game. I swore to lvl up then i can sleep. Wish me good luck pple. GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!!