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Double blow with critical hit, it really does hurt. OucH! Dont knw why.....im thought im already free, moving on like normal. But after tonight, i start to question myself again. M i really ok OR all along i've been lying to myself, trying to run away from reality. Wats truth n wats not?

Its really a big surprise tonight, for so long i nv thought will see her again. But tonight is the night. Saw her there, first thing i do is ask pple around to drink with me. I dont want to spoil the night, i dont want to have an answer to my question. I want to escape from everything and force myself to enjoy. I dont want to leave before mambo even started. I want to be strong at least in from of everyone. I drank..... not too much but enuff for me to forget things temporaily. Everything is juz unexpected and i cant seems to be able to handle it. So the key to solution is to act blur n run away first. Wait till sometime later then settle it.

Luckily the muzik is good. Im high n i danced till im almost out of control. Pple may think im ki siao but....... this way is better. Afer mambo im really tired, im glad cuz once i reach home i can juz shower n sleep. I try my best not to think, not to see and not to feel. But its out of control too.
Heng tonight time seem to pass very fast. Hours of craziness..... like everyone said, u cant escape frm reality foreva. Once im out of mambo, my brain start working. All the bullshyt stuffs kept coming in. Tell myself i need to run, as fast n as far as possible.

Hopefully after i wake up tmr, everything will be forgotton. I m really lost now, i cant sleep and i juz keep listening to thoes lau bak sai songs. Is it juz a temporaily thing? Am i juz missing her cuz after so long didnt see her? I really hope its juz for awhile. I wan to move on i really need to. I wan to be bak to wat im. Single, games, toys no other stuffs. Even if i m lying to myself still, i rather lie foreva.

Missing - Everything but the Girl is still the song i wanted to hea most.