Fantastic Saturday!!!

Well well well. I must admit today is the most enjoyable day of life. Never been so crazy before. Slept at 6 woke up at 12. Only 6 hrs of sleep n my eyes r kinda red n watery. Everyday i woke up n i tell myself "Today i must live n enjoy better than her" So i called xuan n haapen that they r juz awake also. So we r planning for today's havok n juz nice yii joined in the conversation. Yii will only off work ard 3.pm so the plan is i meet danny n xuan at toa payoh. Before leaving hse anki msn me. n we chatted bout 1hr, she gave me alot of kind words as she know about my incident. She also explained to me wat kind of girl is my ex-gf. Very detailed...made me understand n know alot about this type of ger. About their thinking n actions. Thou i know not 100% accurate but i really appreciate that. Thank you Da Jie!!! So i went out after that n took a train down to toa payoh. Danny said 3.30pm but they showed up at 3.55pm. Forgive them cuz today we r coming out to have fun. So we meet n while waiting for yii to call we went to mac cuz im darn hungry at that moment. Suddenly they tot of playing pool so we headed to nearby pool centre n too bad itz full house. Left with no choice... Lan game! Nearly 2 hrs of nonsense playing n we decided to stop. Xuan complain hungry so we juz pop by nearby food court to have our meal. Well before that roger already went to lucky plaza to have his malay food n he deicided not to join us at the steamboat session. So.. today no steamboat!!! Luckily the western food really satisfied our stomach 3 of us shared two plate of it. So now another headache is to go Dbl O or to go Devilsbar??? Cuz 3 of us would prefer Dbl O music but yest already told roger we will go Devilsbar. Really cannot decide so we went to xuan hse to nua first. Really nothing we can do as her xbox n pc r kinda out of order. Danny n i suggested to watch vcd. The show is really damn funny, everyone was lauffing till cannot stop. As the show ended we found out that we r kinda late le so we hopped onto a cab n i called adrian. Luckily hes going tonite so can share cabby back.
Reached Dbl O ard 1030 n we went in. Immediately adrian order a jug of vodka ribena. Before he drink anything, danny n i drank 2/3 of it. Poor adrian... have to order any juggy. hehe...cant blame me cuz these 2 weeks i really drank alot of liquior n beer. Can say im kinda trained up abit liao. 11.30pm music start to gets retrolicious n we dance n dance. Danny was kinda sian as we know he dun like clubbing so much recently. Xuan keep pulling us to centre plat n finally we went cuz shes kinda noisy u know. LoL.. music is getting up high n we r dancing n enjoying the music. Suddenly got three super seh ger came up. Keep knocking at us til danny is down n xuan is pissed off. Well of cuz im kinda angry too but one of them realised n tok to me n apologies... ok...let it go first. I got no mood to bother about them cuz the moment i step onto the plat i noticed this ger. Gosh!!! she is very sweet n when she smiles omg.... can melt an iceberg. This ger was looking at me n was having the look of curious, mayb its the first time she saw ppl dancing like that??? Well moments later she start to follow the retro style. Thinking for so long i decided to smile at her, n the response is very good! Well zhikai is kinda lucky tonight eh?? HeHe.. Then Xuan n Danny left at 2am. kinda sad cuz itz stil early but danny frd is sending him home n xuan went back to her own hse too. I notice that ger starts to move close with her grp of friends n poof! We chatted..Her name eve ( very nice name!)...We were chatting while dancing until 3+ she gotta leave cuz one of her frd is almost deaded. She gave me her num n said mayb tmr can meet up for lunchie. That point of time was like cloud 9?? nono cloud 999!!! Hahaha... After she left im realised that 3 super seh gers r stil on the plat. They r god damn seh until guys around the plat was aiming at them. I saw many transformed into wolfy!!Adrian asked me to drink with him cuz the GM of Dbl O treated him2 juggies. So 1 juggy for each of us. After drinking i went back to centre plat n continue dancing. Suddenly one of the super seh ger grabbed me n we were drity lancing.....first time in my life i ever do that n its feeling is kinda good mayb becuz i get to know eve tonight. And one by one they danced with me n i was thinking is this kinda "tofu buffet" god gave me?? My claws came out n my razor teeth showed! I become one of the wolfy + aliigator (buaya)!!!!!!! Hahahahaha kai is one lusty boy tonight!!! Danced til 4am n music ended. The 3 gers left n said "see ya next week" i was kinda freaked out. This kinda thing one time enuff le bah.
Adrian n i went to eat our "bar chor mee" n we headed home straight. Chated with adrian about his future n i realised adrian finnaly wanna settle down le. Out of 4 2 already gonez. So left with Steve n i. I told myself i really enjoy this particular week. Wed mambo, friday ktv pub and sat Dbl O. This whole week was packed with alot of fun n laughter.... Im really glad i have good frds that r around me when im down and they pulled me alot. I really wan to thks thoes who had talk to me n went out with me these 2 weeks. I really felt better....n specially wanna thanks xuan n danny for meeting me. Suddenly think that xuan n i became good buddies! She listened alot of my complains thou she cannot gimme any constructive suggestions. But really Thanks alot!!! Well time to sleep.. hope i can wakie around lunchie time if lucky i might get to see someone that made my night so colourful~!~!~!~!

Cheap N Fun

Last night was planning to go out on fri n sat. So i slept ard 2+ in order not to overslept the next day. Woke up at 12 n on my com immediately to see if Danny n xuan if awake already. Well i was surprised to see xuanie tan already online. So i ask her if danny goh is awake, she juz feel kinda unhappy about a lil conflict they had last night. Well, time for kai the middle man to do something. Haha! lucky is only a small issue. So as we had planned earlier, orchard mrt 2pm.
Reached there on time, in fact 5 mins earlier! phew~~ wasnt late so no need to treat! But then xuanie tan was earlier than me....cuz she doesnt wanna home alone so went out earlier. So as usual danny goh is gonna late for a long long time. I dragged xuanie tan to Kino to look for books, then we head down to cold storage to get a drink. I saw this toy fair and i was like omg!! So i went round to see if there is any Transformers... but then dont have.. Pulling a long face n we went to buy drinks n go meet danny. Walked around as time is stil early n discovered that nothing much to see at HmV nowadays.
Times up!! 3 of us chiong for the buffet. Joke alot as we eat, n i told them today quota is 45 plates. All tried very hard to make it but in the end only 36 plates conquered. Even to the extend of hiding the rice under the plates, cant imagine i really did that! After the heavy lunch we contacted roger n yii to ask if they wanna to go chill out at pub. While waiting for their reply we went to cineleisure to look out for my transformers. ExiKaiser is here in singapore!! but only one for display de. Zhikai feel very disappointed again~~ We decided to drop by kes's working place to visit him a lil. He was kinda surprised to see us too, we chatted quite awhile as danny is playing his racing game in the shop for FREE. At that time we already dun have the idea to chill out anymore so we were thinking if roger wanna go over to xuanie place to play mahjong. The plan failed in the end as roger n yii gotta work tmr. N suddenly danny's fren decided to go to the pub again. Left with no choice, nothing to do n dun wan to go home so early...we decided to go.
15 mins to bus trip n we reached chinatown n went to this ktv pub call lollipop! 2 of them were playing dice n i was having the tibits...Soon after danny's frens showed up n i realised is his fren that he know when playing A3.. so it was kinda like A3 meetup session eh? Beer came n we were drinking, they were joking around having fun and i was alone in my deep thoughts...... thinking about its a week since we broke up. My life is only black n white after that...No more colours no more fun.As thoes chinese songs came out i got even more moody n my mind is thinking more n more. Suddenly i tell myself... i cannot suffer just like that!!! She is having fun on the other side, why should i be feeling moody n sad!!! I joined in the group, joke around n sing with them. Felt better after that cuz danny's frends r really one crazy group. Cannot stop laughing while danny is making fun of himself during singing. At 1130 we decided to leave cuz i dun wanna waste $$ on cabby. Cuz we planned to have mahjong session n steamboat at xuanie place tmr! so we left n i took a bus that left me in deep thoughts for 1hr 15mins. Really thks both of them for today.. hope they dun mind a light bulb following them around.. Gotten home had a nice shower n start blogging. Needa sleep early cuz if nothing goes wrong we will be meeting ard 3-4pm tmr. But first i gotta do something. Is to try out new online game that kes has given us. Its free so he dun mind giving us one copy each. Lets juz hope tmr is another chaotic day!!

Oh my god! this is the 3rd time im writing this blog. My com keep restarting. Im getting kinda pissed. So i juz have to retype again. I went mambo in the end. Meet roger n yii n Yck mrt. I was kinda blur n asking myself y m i going out?? Guess i feel like seeing her again bah. Then my mood started to get abit cloudy...5 mins of waiting n they showed up. In order to cover up my mood n blur blur i joked with them as usual and we slowly head down to zouk. Roger got a member card frm his fren but he only can sign 2 ppl in. So we decided to split the cost between 3 ppl. I went in by zouk cuz there is no queue. Straight i headed to the dancefloor n start dancing to myself, soon after i reached the music is already good. Roger came to me n told me that another of his fren got member too. So my $20 went down the drain, but roger stil treated me an e-33. As i drink n dance at the same time, my body get heated up n im getting high. I pop onto S-plat n dance like nobody business. After "drive me crazy" i heard the background music. I jumped off s-plat n ran off to centre plat. I m confirmed its my fav "like a prayer" I screamed like hell n dance, at that point of time i already forgot everything around me. Suddenly i realised there is a group of gers looking n following my moves. So happy! Long time dun have this kinda of feeling le. Hahaha! Haven been so high ever since i got a gf. Now im back to single n i m enjoying the feeling of clubbing. But soon reached 1am i started to cool off n feel abit lazy n no energy to dance.
I remembered i was here to meet a fren too. So i leave the plat giving my spot to catherine. I was having headache as i dun know how to find my fren in phuture. But who knows... easily i found her. Straightaway she treated me one e-33 n we went to dancefloor. We were 1 to 1 dancing n soon after one song ends she hugged me n told me not to think so much as the relationship is already over, muz look forward. At that time i was so glad n i really appreciate the kindess. Then she insisted that she wan to treat me to another drink. I told her i cant drink anymore but in the end we shared a bottle of e-33. So thats 2 n 1/2 bottle for me. She asked me to go back zouk n have my fun, if my night ended bad she will be angry...haha!
So i slowly dragged myself back to zouk n yii gave up her spot to me. As i promised my fren that i will end the night happily, i start to dance again. this time even more fierce than before. Kai is losing control!!! After awhile there is 2 gers came up the plat. N we teased the guy beside her, then the ger suddenly grabbed the guy n do dirty dancing. Body to body sticking together, the guy were stunned n didnt move while the guys around r having nose bleed. LoL!!!
Around 3+ crowd start to go off n centre plat was kinda empty. We sat around n waiting for the last song to arrive. I was looking at her sometimes n i noticed that she didnt even turned n look at me. Well guess im nothing to her after we had broke up. She was having her own fun n i was having mine. I told myself...isnt it better for both of us?? Since she doesnt care about me anymore, y m i so stupid....y does i stil care abit for her while she dun? I tried to washed away the thinking n things get back to normal as the last few songs r good. Dance abit n i went to shell station with ken. We sat around awhile n i was force to leave as roger's fren is waiting for us in the car. I tot that we could stay n chatted abit longer. At least yii was having the same feeling too. But we cant stopped roger in the end, haha. His fren dropped me at bukit timah i took a cab home. Was chatting with the cab driver til home. Cab fare was $14 n i saved $4. Thanks to roger n his fren.
After reached home i prepared my cup noodle i bought at Shell station and had a great shower. I sat down infront of the comp to had my supper n soon after i finished my meal xuanie tan is online. We chatted until 6am n logged off. Thanks for the chat... pai seh to take up ur sleeping time. We r planning to go out on sat for movie n 1 for 1 sushi!!! Cant wait til sat cuz im craving for sushi for a long time!!! Friday was added in as they planned to go out also. Lets hope everything will be good...

Normal start

Out of boredom i decide to write my name on the wall!! Ahahaha how is it. Kai is getting more n more mischief. Whole week is normal for me. Sleep at 10 woke up at 8. Play game in the day n meeting friends for dinner at night. Everyday routine is the same. Now.... today is wednesdae, my butt is getting abit itchy. A fren of mine asked me down to zouk, to be exact.. she is going to phuture.... But yall shld know i will stay at zouk for mambo...Hmm... shld i go or shld i not??
shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not?? shld i go or shld i not??
ahhhhhhhh going insane soonzzzz LoLoLoLoLoLoL

Gate to Heaven

Well, playing the game too much also boring, so i had some screenshots taken.. GoGo!! hope i will be lvl 50 by this sundae night or later Monday afternoon. Been playing games to forget thing. Trying to forget the r/s i used to have which is ajuz ended few days ago.Pple can say im a rubbish that doesnt wan to work. Who cares!!! Im free n easy now. I'll do wat i like and wat makes me happy :D

Gaming for whole weekend

These few days been trying hard to get over things. Well, all i can do is dive into my online game GTH. Play n sleep play n sleep. Time pass very fast, yes very fast and i was feeling better as my charc goes lvling up every few hours. But the worst part is my sleeping time, i keep dreaming about her. Oh wat the shit, i been trying hard to get things over n yet i keep dreaming about her. Guess "Zhou Gong" is making fun of me, but stop its aint fun at all. Now i keep telling myself to sleep less n play more. To avoid her appearing more in my dream, i sleep 2 hrs n wake up, but it doesnt work at all!!! So i guess today i will juz play until im dead n let myself auto fall back to sleep.
One more thing i m curious about, how is she doing?? But i guess only one answer will be confirm. Is having fun and more fun, Since she finds me a bother to be her bf. Now im gone so i guess she will have even more havok n fun in her life. Going clubbing every moment she can dig out?? Well, i wanted to drop all thoes thinking but.....can u when u had a relationship that is so deep n true for a yr plus?? M i being a fool all along?? All the things i wanted didnt turn out in the end. On the other hand all she cares was having fun n clubbing. Does she really put in to the relationship??? Wat is really going on after the cool down, we r together almost everyday. Things r getting better n sweeter. She stil meet me as usual do things that we usually do. Everything seems to become normal again. But... one day her mother juz bombed me asking for her to go home, her mum used nasty words on me til i really have to go hiding. Everything Goes weird after that. She goes home after work if not she will jus stick at home not going anywhere. Til wed......She juz start a quarrel out of nowhere n asked me not to go mambo. That time i really wanted to go but she dun seems understandig enough. I woke up in the morning n told her i m waiting till night time to go mambo with her. But all she was thinking is becuz i wan to supervise on her n making her life miserable. Wat i told her in the morning she all forgotton?? What i planned for whole day juz go into drain by her thinkig n principle. She only think about the bad of me but never ever consider about the good of me. Well mayb i did not have any good. Dont wan me to go can say juz like she taught me using the soft approach, but she never, She juz fuked me up like that. Wed night is spoiled is a small thing to me, but the r/s is over is really a matter to me. Since things already became so bad i might as well make it worst. I wanted to end it forever so i became a bastard in her life, she said knowing me is the worst thing in my life. I was so glad i m finally a bastard in her life, that she will forever rem me a an enemy. I'm sure wthin days she will forget me n i will get over it soon. This is the way i wan..since she doesnt this r/s anymore, i will juz make it worst n disappear at instant. rather than dragging n dragging like before. Without dragging i think its better for both of us n better for her. I had fulfilled her last wish n frm now onwards we got nothing to do with each other anymore. U can do watever u wan, no one will control u. You r free to do anythg at anytime. But one thing i cant fulfilled guess let other guy do it then. She asked if someday anything really happen to her n her mum will i be there for her. I said i will.... but i broke the promise. but dun worry i will not break anymore promise as we had no more promises now n in the future.
Im suffering every sec...esp when i m asleep. No one is at my side helping me out. Wat m i gonna do to pass this miserable time of mine. I really wanted to get up on my feet again. Starting a new n peaceful life but question is When??????

Story comes to an end

Wat do u get from being a guy whos trying to change for the better n the realtionship? Getting shouted and become a puncing bag is wat u get. All along i been trying hard to save back the relationship. I put down my pride, learn how to be a better man n a better boyfriend. But i realised the more i give in the more she wans to step on my head. All the anger i taken these few weeks i can only drink it down like a can of coke n burp it out like nothing has ever happen. She keep telling me to control my temper and dun ever let it out on her for no reason. But she cant do that do herself. Hours ago, she juz shouted at me like a crazy bitch. For no reason she juz did that. I was caring for her wanted to go mambo to have so fun n look out for xuan too. She juz keep thinking that im controlling her like a kid. If i really dun feel like going i wouldnt go. Everyone knows that esp her. Too many things happen in mambo every week, n she is stil so naive to think that she is safe. When trouble really comes, who to cry out to? That Big bad wolf chris??? Dun think he will care i believe. Hes only interested in ur body than ur business dude. I knw thoes who is frd of chris will not like wat i said here. Who cares?
Out of anger.....n out of sadness i became crazy. I kept bombing her hp non stop. And she told me not to make her hates me more......So... u been hating e all along eh??? So wats the issue of getting back with me, the underground relationship??? R u looking for someone to confront u for the time being ?? Until u r totally recover frm the scars u had from our relationship then u will juz walk out of me? Mayb its the time n the time is todae that y u chose to start a quarrel for no reason. U alwiz ask me to take the soft approach, but u never did. Dun keep asking pple to do wat u cant do. I been trying very hard to have u back but u keep thinking that im in the wrong. Watever i said or done is wrong to u, on the other hand u only believe in wat ur "friends" been saying or doing. Is it fair? Juz becuz of one mistake i done in the past u can nevr think i will be correct for one time?
I dun care wat ur mum judge about me, even she say im useless n im a rusbbish i dun care. Wat really hurts me is u doing that to me. Why cant u ever put down ur principle once n listen wat others have to say to u. Dun juz keep thinking that wat u think is correct. Even is pple corrects u, u try to deny it. Thoes frds that doesnt say things about u cuz they really dun know u well. They only know when they want to have fun they asked u out. Thoes that really able to pin point ur bads r ur true frds. Believe it or not, this is a fact.
Im now in depressed mode. i cant concentrate n do anything. I know this time is for real. There is no hope for the relationship anymore. Luckily my ex-gf or rather i say my very good frd rachel msg me in msn, talking to her makes me feel better by abit. Thou is a normal chat but a chat at this kinda time is realy a great help to me. Thanks alot.. All i can do now is pack up my feelings n hope that i can get over it soon. Wishing that there is a better future ahead of me. Time for me to find some big bags n throw all the unwanted stuffs away. Including some of the memories......

Deaded

Meeting up with the gaqng was postphoned for 1/2 an hr. so decided so slack ard. As i had planned, i didnt dare to take any phone calls. Even to the extend of plucking out the phone lines. But who knows....got attacked on the hp. Recieved 3 sms, these 3 sms really spoilt my day, went out looking like a zombie until all of them showed up. Forced to put on a happy to act as if nothing had happen. i couldnt tell anyone due to some reasons. Followed gabriel to courts to order his shoe cabinets n then went to his hse nearby to had our dinner, asked gab's mum along. Food is quite good n we chatted about adrian's issue. Later we take a slow walk to my hse opp to hunt for some durians. Each came out $1 n we had quite alot.After that slow walk around the area again n gab finally decided to take a cab home with his wife. Normally i would feel happy if there is durian for me, but this time is a sure no.The 3 sms kept spinning in my head, its a totally insult to me. Juz cant get over it so i decided to play game. Was tired but unable to sleep. So i played for 12 hrs... Finally the rain comes n i start to feel hungry. Grab myself a pack to magi mee n some meat balls. Didnt had much as my mood is still bad. Tot that the games can numb my brain cells abit but no. Soon after my meal i came in n blog. Stomach filled, tired + weather is good, i hope i will doze of in 1 hrs time.............

I'm a spoiler

So the day is set. Down to Dbl O, Danny n Roger side was still making their decision but in d end all nv go. Only left me n her going down there alone. Reach Oh Cafe ard 9+ n found out that reading room is not there anymore. Had a drink n we quickly went to Mohd Sultan for dinner, as usual, i had my bah kut teh while she ordered prawn noodles. Knowing that after clubbing got no chance to eat, so eat it before anything happens.
Reach Dbl O quite early, no table for us while jason is stil looking for it.Stand there like dumb ass until 11+ crowd started to fill the space. Everyone was dancing happily but not for zhikai. Music is great but dun knw why...no energy to dance. I was sitting, standing n smoking... until she suggest we go get a drink. Wanted to order lil bit nia, but listened to her ordered a jug of Vodka Ribena. Wanted to go back to find aaron n put the drink there, got stopped by bouncer. Super LL n no choice find a corner stand down there n drink in my own. As the music is getting better, i start to speed up my drinking by alot. Within few mins i finished the jug alone. Went up to podium n dance, at that time i also dun knw wat im dancing to also. Too gong liao, so went back to look for her n i sat down there. getting more n more dizzy i started to fall into sleeping mode. Music was still running through my ears. But had no energy to stand up n dance. Opened my eyes n i cant see clearly, after summer rain comes out, she suggested that we go back first. So we left at 1.30am. Feeling very paiseh like i spoiled her night by going off early due to a jug of vodka ribena.
Reached home n straight lie down on my bed like a zombie. All of a sudden i feel like vomitting so i rush to the washroom...ta ma de coughed alot but stil cannot vomit, machiam the thing stucked down there. Heart feel very pain so i decided to stop trying n went back to sleep. Had a very hard time for me to doze off cuz my head is stil spinning like nobody business.
Woke up at 3pm, luckily got no headache...heng ah! Had a super light lunch n went to bomb japan immediately, recieved a call frm her mum n was asked to call her back after i finish bombing. Well..as usual i dun dare to call back, knowing that i will get flooded by her words again. Hang up all my phones, but stil sent me sms...so i think she wun call back again eh??
Start up my com n wanted to update my bloggy but dun knw y suddenly it restarted. Alamak..is my com dying soon?? i hope not.. Later gotta meet up the gang at cwp, so i think now its time to get ready.

New exciting Finds

Wow wow wow...while doing window shopping on the net, looking out for the new transformers series toys. I found this.......made out from latest TF series "Galaxy Force" Doesnt look really cool. But its name is 1000% damn cool!!! Its called Exikaiser. Pple who know me well should know wat i meant, cuz itz has a "kai" in the name!!! Finally after 20 years of TF making...they finally think of a 2nd name with 'kai' in it. Isnt that great?? hahaha.. Later in the evening sure will go down to Cineleisure. To that only transformers shop to look out for it. If its price is good i will grab it n bring it to Dbl O!!! Thou Hasbro (usa) will make its own but wait until when sia?? Cant wait to get it soon. Only a few dollars expensive n its made frm Takara (jap). Better pray hard that i will see him later. Muahahahahah *happily signing out*

Lazy Friday

Got up n 4am n guess what?? Back to sleep at 8am. Another 12 hrs in dreamland, cannot blame me...the weather is far too good. Good as in chilling... Woke up n feel sad, Zhikai is a sad boy without everyday dosage of Dragonball Z and Maked Rider Ryuki. Even my fishball drama is only left with 15mins. Had a light dinner n pop back to my comp. Checked everyones blog n my friendster. Talk with xuan n sheena in msn for awhile. Then i realised its been a long time since i download my most favourite series. TRANSFORMERS!!!

Till now i downloaded 8 episodes in a shot. Well there is a smaller format as in only 30+ mb per episode. Thats alot compared to 160+mb per episode. Thou the resolution sux abit but as long there is transformers to watch, Zhikai is a happi boy!!! Wanted to install one of my fav game too. Vampire the Masquerade, but tried twice n it failed even jamming up my comp. Darn it! Guess i will do it another time. So for now while waiting for my next episode to finish download, i have to play some online game then.

So plan for later is confirmed. Head straight to Dbl o n dance my heart out. Well was hoping to drop by Oh Cafe to see some old frds then to reading room for dinner. Hope this sat will be a good one.

Ok... one last time very very impprtant de. If i dun say it out, the blogs might become some shooting AK 47. I read jason blog n made some comments on my own. Jo came in saw my entry made some comments after that too. I just wan to tell everyone my entry is not pointing to anyone. I just say wat i say n i hope it doesnt affect anyone. If it does make anyone buay song then very sorry. I juz dun wan end of the day our blog become a tunnel for us to shoot at each other. PEACE EVERYONE AND HOPE TOMMORROW IS A BETTER DAY

Sleepy thursday

Yest night after mambo couldnt sleep right? Well Thursday is payback time!! I slept at 7+am til 6+ thats 11 hrs. I woke up had my dinner n watch tv til 9. Sleep agaun until 4. thats another 7 hrs....wooo 18 hrs!! luckily got wake up if not sure feel super numb. Juz now i called her, she's going to ktv with xuan juz now. Last night say wanna go tonight do it liao. Was wanting to wait for her sms n see if got chance to tok to her again. but suddenly my brain ring ring me. I remembered something she said.

"When i m with my friends i need some privacy. I will contact u after everything"

Alright....i dropped the fucking idea n pop back to my floor n sleep. (juz in case pple dun know. i sleep on the floor) Soon after i woke up she smsed me. so im right afterall. She will contact me after everythg finished. Also dun knw y, all the privacy n thingy. really cant let me call in n ask how r u doing meh?? When we r together all her friends can bomb in or cut in anythg. Well i understand cuz to her frds r more impt than bf. mayb juz like Jo said, "frds r forever while bf r not" Well all i have to say is... u r thinking that way cuz u see no future in ur r/s bah. Thats y bf r only a part time issue to u.

One more issue i agree with jason. When a guy think that another is a threat to himself, thats becuz he CARES. He knws whats happening around n not like the gers said " its ok la, we r frds. so hes harmless" Well come on, we r not blind. Esp to that chris issue. Yah u guys think hes a frd n hes a harmless little creature, pple who really know him dun lie to urself anymore. Everyone knws wat kinda pple he is. Who on earth like another guy to stand so close to his own gf n doing all thoes hanky panky stuffs?? Thoes who dun mind cuz THEY DUN CARE! So stop calling me stupid or silly, im not silly or stupid. I'm Zhikai.. I dun care if hes my frd or not, even its my own brother i will still whack. I m not a guy who will share someone who i treasure most.

Lastly... all relationships need Honesty, so its a must. but sad to say... i only can see a part of it. Well wat to do?? We only can accept n hope that things will turn out better in the near future.

Mambo again

Well, really didnt wanted to go juz now. But since i cant stop her frm going i have to go with her. Didnt really trust her going with few pple only. Wat to do? LL lo go there waste money. Mayb heaven see me like that pity me bah. Music turned out to be quite good, first come my 1st fav cherish (chit chit chit) but i was queueing up taking my drinks. Saw Weilun n cyndi there too. chat a lil bit cuz is my "not so close buddy". Wanted to go up podium early but some ang mohs was there wasting space. Then came my 2nd fav Like a prayer, that time i was dancing to "life is a misery" than mystery. Cuz everytime go mambo dun get to dance to my fav song.
But luckily later part came my 3rd fav song MOOOOOONY MOOOOONY!! was so happy n shouting like nobody business. Its really rare for this song to come out ya know??
Dj added a bonus to my crazy night. You SpiNnNnNnN me round~~~~~ Immediately after the song i saw everyone around me is gonezz. Thought everyone got knocked down by me. hurhurhur.
Saw Kes n Catherine was quite "sianz" tonight. Well didnt know wat happen, but i tried asking them to dance rather than standing down there looking sianz. not very close to them so dun dare to Kpo too much. So after spin me round we headed to shell to look for jo, jason and HaDo"Ken". Cannot see them when reached cuz they r hiding behind the car. jo n jason left early. so left Ken n i sitting down there waiting for the rest to come.
Went back around 0430. Then i realised my hp is low batt.....omg.....i remember that she said will call me after she got home. Quickly charge my phone n see wat she sent me. She slept le due to too much lemon tea n the rocking of cab?? Really feel bad about it, didnt even notice my hp is dead..
Think i wrote quite abit but still im super awake. siao liao.....cant sleep n also no mood to play game. See my msn all people deaded liao. Super sian now. Guess i will go around reading others blog n edit my bloggy. Boys n girls....Sat Dbl O????? Hurhurhur~!~!~!

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Boring Weekends

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This weekend is kinda boring. Had a mahjong session with danny on fri night. Go there let them slaughter.....Then went home around 9+. First thing reached home is drop dead all the way zZzZzZzZ til 2+pm only. Wakie le had a light lunch n watch tv until 6+ den i felt tired again. But didnt sleep much too, woke up ard 10+. Tired but cant sleep, was stil thinking if i'm going dbl o. Gabriel sms-ed me but not adrian so i guessed hes not going lo. Loitering around infront of com til 1+ then sleep again. This time is for real!! i sleep until 3+ this afternoon. No mood to play games recently, dun knw y too. So all i can do is watch tv, going to be a couching potato le.

Back to mambo

After so long of mia frm mambo, finally im back. But things doesnt seems well at all for last night. Basically i was tired n no mood to dance, yet i stil went down just to company her. Music stil didnt improve, i mean not even abit. Music all came at the wrong time. Most of the time i was squatting down n my legs r trembling. Due to not enough liquior flowing in my body.... feeling very uneasy. Argh!! last sat like dat yest also like that.... hope this sat i can unleash all my potential energies out.....hurhurhur. Same like every mambo....sure got things happen... Ms Xuanie Tan got targetted again.....by a HUM JI Nsf personnel. Grab her butt.....made her so angry that she came to centre plat n grab everyones butt. I ALMOST CALLED THE BOUNCER TOO OK. U heng ah i never....lololololol. Heard that the culprit got handcuffed n i really wish he will get his whipping on his ARSE!! Evil right?? YES I AM!!
Then we went to shell for a small n quick chilling out session, waited for danny n rest to show up then we all left.. Danny left to cantoment to report case... Sian too bad i cannot go....cab fare all so ex....but bo bian I'm born to be kpo...was thinking if go mayb can see my frds also. =Couldnt sleep until 7+ then i start to doze off slowly but woke up ard 325pm... thats not enuff sleep eh. This is all i have to update. Time for me to send in my resume le...

Long Day Part II

After pondering so much, i decided to blog again. I know it will take forever to sms these all to u. I know u will drop by n read my blog. After thinking so much i stil couldnt get an answer to why u still uable to accept me. I know u doesnt have an answer too, thats y i didnt ask u anymore. All i could do is ask myself everyday. Think we shld stop all these underground relationship for the moment, i really cant lie to myself about this. We may seem close whenever we r alone, but when it comes to frds around us i will have to act like normal n there is nothing going on at all. Lets juz take sat as an example, i couldnt hold ur hand or wat. Even when walking we also have this line between us, cant even get near u.
I know wats going on between us now. I remembered i ever asked u this before. "how m i going to ans to thoes that asked about us?"
Ur reply was "We r frds lo." u may find this way ok to u, but to me...never. So i decided that we shld go back to normal like u said "friends". Doesnt mean i'm giving up on the relationship but i hope that when u r ready to accept me then we shall do what normal couples do. i wanted officially but not confidental. Its like we r hiding frm someone or something. I m already changing on my temper n i had taken good care of myself. My skin is now on the road to recovery. Guess now only if i get a job then u will return to me. One more thing i had discover, one thing i muz really do. Is to get a life of my own, so i will not be seem like alwiz clinging on u or tagging along. I knw u r getting more n more schedules in ur life, so u will not have time for me anymore. So i seriously think i need to get a life. I'm lonely n lame n everyone knows that. Hard to admit it but i have to. Well, i had said wat i wanna, time for me to go to bed........signing out.....

Long Day Part I

King of Wishful Thinking is wat i'm. All along is my childish thinking that there is stil a chance. Awhile hot awhile cold, wat could it be?? i didnt know. She told me that she had a quarrel n feeling down, she doesnt wanna go home. In the end leh......go play mahjong with frds. Dont blame me for being straight. She doesnt seems moody to me at all. All along im the only one down here worrying for her. I seems stupid n senseless right??? Til now she stil doesnt wanna go out with me whenever i asked her to. Why like that??? i felt very extra, its like i keep clinging onto her while she tries to shake me off. One whole week of schedules lining up, not leaving a day for me. even there is a chance for us to go out, im only tagging along. I felt so lost again, suddenly i lost all energy to hold on again. Tell me wat to do

Superb Lunch

Had a really good lunch todae. Meet her at Causeway point around 2.45p.m, but i was late! Pple shld know i seldom late, most only 10-15mins mah... We intended to go fiesta but there is no lunch buffet. Last choice is Sakae, thou i doesnt like sakae alot (due to limited variety) but stil went in cuz she said she wanna have the buffet thingy. Am surprised that they had some changes. Not bad...there is one that is rice mixed wif mayo n crabstick n they fried it~!~!~ really bagus. Had alot of food cuz her aim is to finish at least 30 plates for 2 person. We had around 33 plates in the end. N i was ended up too full mode. I cant move fast or even have the energy to talk. Taken few pics but useing her phone, cuz my phone sux. If she did send me i will post my fav pic, the one i take with my FAV SOFT SHELL CRAB!!! After that we went for a stroll.....to digest myself too. Happen that there is a pasar malam there but i think it doesn't interest me anymore.

Headed home to slack n watch tv. Chatted with jeremy n "SharkBoy" in Msn too. then went down to get my Biggy Gulppy n poof! i m writing my blog.
Really glad that she went lunch with me. Its really hard for here to go out or do anything with me recently. Maybe she find more interest in doing thoes things with other people. Like going clubbing...asked so many times finally she went with me last sat. as for movie leh...haiz totally cannot make it, she doesnt have any slot for me. Take one step at a time bah... the fate lies in her hands. One wrong step i might be send to the execution ground. Thinking of chaning my skin.... Hope i m able to get a good one soon.

Screwed up Night

Alrite i have to admit yest nite at Dbl O SUX! Reason is becuz our Dj arron is not there at work. Basically the dj who is taking over doesnt know about retro at all. He's not mixing but "changing cds"Danny n i shared a jug of Vodka Ribena. Just when the 'kik' got up.....the music sux more...omg...the power in my body i was unable to unleash it. End up sitting down there feeling very very bad. We went off around 3 plus. but the mini yii doesnt wanna leave cuz she JUST started to enjoy... -.- (isnt it abit too late?) Then rog n yii went off first while the rest of us went for my fav Bah Kut Teh. Wierd thing is i cant finish my 2nd bowl of rice..mayb due to the lousy soup that they serve. Then hop on cab myself n find my way home. Then i realised i forgot to take my hp... =\ After i reached home i straight knock out.....too tired le...... Thou last night is not good but glad they turned up too. Also............thanks to yii n rog...they nv failed to piss me off. LoL