Story comes to an end

Wat do u get from being a guy whos trying to change for the better n the realtionship? Getting shouted and become a puncing bag is wat u get. All along i been trying hard to save back the relationship. I put down my pride, learn how to be a better man n a better boyfriend. But i realised the more i give in the more she wans to step on my head. All the anger i taken these few weeks i can only drink it down like a can of coke n burp it out like nothing has ever happen. She keep telling me to control my temper and dun ever let it out on her for no reason. But she cant do that do herself. Hours ago, she juz shouted at me like a crazy bitch. For no reason she juz did that. I was caring for her wanted to go mambo to have so fun n look out for xuan too. She juz keep thinking that im controlling her like a kid. If i really dun feel like going i wouldnt go. Everyone knows that esp her. Too many things happen in mambo every week, n she is stil so naive to think that she is safe. When trouble really comes, who to cry out to? That Big bad wolf chris??? Dun think he will care i believe. Hes only interested in ur body than ur business dude. I knw thoes who is frd of chris will not like wat i said here. Who cares?
Out of anger.....n out of sadness i became crazy. I kept bombing her hp non stop. And she told me not to make her hates me more......So... u been hating e all along eh??? So wats the issue of getting back with me, the underground relationship??? R u looking for someone to confront u for the time being ?? Until u r totally recover frm the scars u had from our relationship then u will juz walk out of me? Mayb its the time n the time is todae that y u chose to start a quarrel for no reason. U alwiz ask me to take the soft approach, but u never did. Dun keep asking pple to do wat u cant do. I been trying very hard to have u back but u keep thinking that im in the wrong. Watever i said or done is wrong to u, on the other hand u only believe in wat ur "friends" been saying or doing. Is it fair? Juz becuz of one mistake i done in the past u can nevr think i will be correct for one time?
I dun care wat ur mum judge about me, even she say im useless n im a rusbbish i dun care. Wat really hurts me is u doing that to me. Why cant u ever put down ur principle once n listen wat others have to say to u. Dun juz keep thinking that wat u think is correct. Even is pple corrects u, u try to deny it. Thoes frds that doesnt say things about u cuz they really dun know u well. They only know when they want to have fun they asked u out. Thoes that really able to pin point ur bads r ur true frds. Believe it or not, this is a fact.
Im now in depressed mode. i cant concentrate n do anything. I know this time is for real. There is no hope for the relationship anymore. Luckily my ex-gf or rather i say my very good frd rachel msg me in msn, talking to her makes me feel better by abit. Thou is a normal chat but a chat at this kinda time is realy a great help to me. Thanks alot.. All i can do now is pack up my feelings n hope that i can get over it soon. Wishing that there is a better future ahead of me. Time for me to find some big bags n throw all the unwanted stuffs away. Including some of the memories......