If im not wrong, today is the last day of july. Anyway its 9.04am now, had my breakfast n such. Somehow today is my last day of my slacking spree for so many years. Tomorrow onwards will be working liao lo. Abit sad but no choice, given the situation now i gotta go out n work. These few days... have been sleeping well, umm as in sleep b4 11 wake up b4 8. Gotta get use to this lifestyle liao so might as well do it one week before my work really start.

Some people might think. Working only ma, nothing big to fuss about. Well, maybe to some pple, zhikai the trash bin is finally getting his ass up n work liao. Have not been working full time for the past few yrs liao. All i do is stay home n help up with frd's project. Gah!!!! hope for the best bah.

Time is precious. Today is my WoW last day of subscription also, gotta make use of today and chiong chiong chiong!! Hopefully tmr afta wrk, theres a place for me to buy my gamcard. If not have to go causeway point lezzz.... Ok!! enuff of yapping.. time to play game!

No life... another stay home saturday. sigh....

Had a long day yesterday. Long as in im not busy, just that.. i woke up damn early and slept damn late. Went down for a very very short interview at ncs hub. The person told me "shldnt be prob." Dont get it at all, wait for their call lo. Want to jio danny out to la kopi but didnt expect "the" interview to end so early. Juz went home straight without any plans in my mind. Hate it when i go out, walked so far, reached there havnt sit down for more then 5 mins ask me go home liao. Think i really failed that much.

Good choice of not meeting up or going out yest. Ran Steamvaults got my neckpiece and also kara. Even before 8pm im already sho tired, wanting to sleep le but since im kinda needed in that raid so tag along lo. By the time everything ended, my brain is already bleeding. So pain n giddy and woke up with a slight fever this morning. Oh Dohz.

After sooooo soooo soooo long i finally got another epic. One bloody cock tanking helm, stats are good. But the cock i referring to is the looks. Still..happy to get something new

5pm already. Time to decide where and what to have for dinner. Temperature still abit high, gotta pop some panadols and rest early tonight.

Now is 5 mins before 6am. Woke up by the heavy pour outside, feeling so cold and shivering. Main reason, nose blocked... i sure hate that. Before i really wake up, all i remember is im looking for my blanket. And heard a loud bang, one of my prime got blew off by the strong wind. Fan isnt on now and im feeling like im in a air con room. Can imagine how heavy is the rain outside now.

Made myself some hot coffee, and i mean "some". Nowadays one cup is not enough for me anymore, seems like im becoming a coffee addict. You know.. cigarette, coffee the link is there. Have no idea what to do so decide to blog abit.

As usual, same old shyt every week. Zouk.. suppose to be the cd release but i dont see anything special about it. Maybe mambo dont amuse me anymore, more to phuture already. Always waiting for the time to arrive then off to real party. Hours of standing at zouk cant compare to the one hr dancing in phuture. Thats the only time that i can move non-stop like the good old days in zouk. After that our plan didnt change too. Stayed til 6 so everyone can save $$ on midnight cabby. This time we have a half drunk dumb fuck kes with us. I gotta admit when hes high and dont know wats hes doing, he is irritating. But oh well, he does add laughter to our long wait til 6am. Thats just kes eh? hurhur.. Just before 7, our "full of shyt danny" wanted to shit becuz of some drink he had. So we had breakfast while waiting for him, who knows it ended up with a long chat again. Ghost, embarass encounters and alot of other insignificant issues. I think we left around 8 plus cuz its gonna rain soon. In the end kes decide to take a cabby back. Bad choice, bad jam at PIE and cars couldnt really move. I got off the cab paying 23buks. Thats like taking a midnight cab home. All i can say, we had good laughter that night/morning.

Weekends.. i dont have much to say. Stay home, boring and lifeless. Spent of my time sleeping and more sleeping. Haiz... frankly speaking i need a life badly. LoL! If not im becoming the cave man million years back. Of cuz i will kill myself before that even happen.

Almost 2 weeks le...how r u? Hope you're feeling better already. Im getting use to it le so i hope u r feeling the same too. Oh well...

Rain stopped, feeling hungry. Time for a slow walk downstair, enjoy the breeze. Get a pack of ciggy and buy breakfast home. Nose is better after 2nd cup of coffee and tons of puffing of ciggies. In fact i do feel good now. Maybe a few games of dota later then at night, guild in anetheron is running gruul. Are they gonna make it? LoL

Hmm... after days of watching n dl-ing of Tf series. Finally got the mood to force myself to blog before i sleep.

Gulit....gulity..is the only word to describe me now.

All along i know its gonna be impossible, never gonna work out. "You never try you'll never know the result." Ok..to be fair i gave it a shot, but...it stil fails. I guess..i m better off alone, relationship.. i still not prepared for it. Some people say, "start a new one and u will forget the past soon."

O'rly? Nah.. i dont think so. For me, i will only take a step out when im done with the past. Been so long and i dont knw wats stopping me from moving. The puzzle still unslove til now. Or maybe like wat i said always. When i totally forgive myself, then i will move on. Mistake and more mistakes is what i can only do in a relationship. Think i really failed in this kind of stuffs. Alway a better friend than a boyfriend. Dont think i m able to change that fact. So... all i can say is sorry and sorry. Didnt expect it to turn out this bad.

Okay....no more emo... if not cant sleep again. Other than that, i have not been gaming. Dont think im joking... really not much activities in WoW recently. Most of the time im Dl-ing Tf series and watching it. Tired liao go to sleep, hungry liao go makan. Simple as that... someone told me "humans need companion." My only answer to that is my toys r my companions. I feel good being alone now. Im a person when feeling comfortable with somethg, i wouldnt wanna change it. So now alone is the best for me.

Lets see... how much TF series have i covered.. Energon, Cybertron, Headmaster, Masterforce, G1. Now dling the whole series of beast wars. Fuked...beast war had like 5-7 series. Its gonna take a long time to dl n watching it. Oh well... hope for the better then. Been going for interviews and..people just dont wan me. Lets see.... i think i really sux? as a human ?

Oh fuk it.... it take sometime to forget n get over it. Off to bed.. too much negative charges in my brain now. Its bad for health.

Actually i have alot of thgs to update after i rch home, budden was watching TF beast wars in youtube. No mood to blog now. Oh well... bak to watching TF.

Next time then update bah...

WuWaHahahah.....no need to say much. if u notice the changes then yay!

Was still with losta energy after coming bak from zouk. Remind me of the movie then i was thinking someone muz haf put up a skin for it, TahDah!!!! All along i prefer autobots than decept but this skin really look better than the "protect" so chosen it. The author made 3 in total, one is featuring blackout! i was like omg blackout blogskin~~ so excited.. but the skin aint really that good lo. Gonna use this for the moment til someone post a better one. Seem abit messy but still favourite theme comes first!

Tonight's activity is kinda late. Went out around 1120 waited til 12+ then tong bang roger's car to zouk. Was at winebar chilling then phuture for awhile. Dont knw why....the mood isnt there at all. So... went for supper near 3am. Went to cine's "hongkong cafe", can say its a satisfying supper. Rushed to take night rider home, given the thought that i had to walk 15 mins then reach home. Budden thinking of there's a 7-11 there, i can grab a big gulp and a chance to win ultimate bumblebee!

My legs still in pain. Fri's shopping trip is a waste, didnt get anything at all. Wanted to buy shoes at some cheaper places. Ran around losta toys shop looking for single piece blackout but all sold out. Damnit!Was really glad that i got the optimus prime on last friday ah....cuz i didnt see any of it too. Now...all i need is a new pair of shoes. Might be going to queensway to check it out on monday. For now.... i think i will go for a few rounds of dota then breakfast..geez im hungry again...lol

One last thing!!!! if anyone of u happen to buy any big gulp, pls take the receipt n request for the lucky draw form, im trying my luck to get the "ultimate bumblebee" Many many thanks to gerald, first to help me..haha! 30 lucky winners only!!! i will grab a gulp whenever i can....

I WANT THE BUMBLEBEE!

Been bak to slacking after my ict ended. First thing is of cuz...mambo. No time restriction, its does feel good that i have to leave when i dont wan to. Phuture was packed as hell but also muzik is good like usual. Mambo rly had nothing for me to stay, as soon as 1250 im out of there. Went bak around 250 to finish my drink, danced a few good old songs like call me, lucky, dont call me baby then bak to phuture again. Stayed til morning with gerald n danny, to save $$ on cabby. Tok rubbish thru n sure to enjoyed it again, nothing but lame jokes. Had mac for bfast then took bus home. Couldnt sleep until like 10+, but 2+ i woke up alrdy. Found out that danny went to watch TF without sleep n came bak complaining all the unrealistic stuffs bla bla... So thurs outing is cancelled changed to friday. I need to get a pair of shoe badly. Old one is spoilt n cant be used anymore. So...wat m i going to wear if im going out tmr? -.-"

Recall abit of last week... hmm Tf on thurs n fri. Of cuz watched it with my gang on fri. Their response doesnt seem so well...maybe they expect more bah? Sat met up with andrew cyndi n rest at dbl O. Didnt rly amuse me anymore? Juz hang around there, saw alfred there too. Sometime later decided to drag them to O bar. Go down there, super re entry queue. Suggested Phuture, without thinking all agreed la. Phuture wasnt playing any rnb but lucky zouk main room got guest dj. Cash money or somethg, ok rnb and was good, everyone enjoy i think?

Went to jalan kayu for supper then roger drop us off near his hse cuz he said there easier to take a cabby. Waited like 15 mins, fed up..took a bus to yishun and train bak home. Saved some $$ too i guessed. LoL

Didnt really log in WoW for whole week. Told erik im going for a short break. So im juz spending my time in dota now. Not really used to slaking again. sleeping hrs become messsy n it made me so tired.

Things happen everwhere. Sq, kes and some other. Dont wan to say anythg about it. Hope that u guys will feel better soon ok.

Felt that this entry is abit weird...maybe im juz forcing myself to update thats y its like one piece one piece....

Off to gaming... hope tmr will be able to go out n shopping. Even suggested phuture after that. LoL!!!!