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Hmm... after days of watching n dl-ing of Tf series. Finally got the mood to force myself to blog before i sleep.

Gulit....gulity..is the only word to describe me now.

All along i know its gonna be impossible, never gonna work out. "You never try you'll never know the result." Ok..to be fair i gave it a shot, but...it stil fails. I guess..i m better off alone, relationship.. i still not prepared for it. Some people say, "start a new one and u will forget the past soon."

O'rly? Nah.. i dont think so. For me, i will only take a step out when im done with the past. Been so long and i dont knw wats stopping me from moving. The puzzle still unslove til now. Or maybe like wat i said always. When i totally forgive myself, then i will move on. Mistake and more mistakes is what i can only do in a relationship. Think i really failed in this kind of stuffs. Alway a better friend than a boyfriend. Dont think i m able to change that fact. So... all i can say is sorry and sorry. Didnt expect it to turn out this bad.

Okay....no more emo... if not cant sleep again. Other than that, i have not been gaming. Dont think im joking... really not much activities in WoW recently. Most of the time im Dl-ing Tf series and watching it. Tired liao go to sleep, hungry liao go makan. Simple as that... someone told me "humans need companion." My only answer to that is my toys r my companions. I feel good being alone now. Im a person when feeling comfortable with somethg, i wouldnt wanna change it. So now alone is the best for me.

Lets see... how much TF series have i covered.. Energon, Cybertron, Headmaster, Masterforce, G1. Now dling the whole series of beast wars. Fuked...beast war had like 5-7 series. Its gonna take a long time to dl n watching it. Oh well... hope for the better then. Been going for interviews and..people just dont wan me. Lets see.... i think i really sux? as a human ?

Oh fuk it.... it take sometime to forget n get over it. Off to bed.. too much negative charges in my brain now. Its bad for health.