Was having a serious headache when i was about to doze off. This juz sux..... was tired and wanting to sleep but couldnt. Staring at my monitor don't know wat to do....So i'll juz blog since tonight i had some unexpected events. Today is another working day for me, but had to leave half day cuz i was still very tired. Luckily i manage to finish my work before 1pm. Didnt had any lunch n i went home straight.

Woke up at 7+ by my dad's curry.... recently was into spicy food. Had a heavy dinner and back to my comp. Checked friendster and there was a request. I dun rem having anymore frds to add, who knows....its sharon. I was like "Isnt she in my frd list?" Beo-ed her profile n i guess its a brand new one. Everything was quite empty and i was wondering where had she been for the past 2 years. Saw gabriel in Msn for da whole day, tot he's busy with his wedding stuffs so decided to check it out. He was down with fever....gosh...tmr is kinda important to him and i hope that everthing will go smoothly for him. Maybe is because of the busy schedule that's y he got sick. Take good care of urself bro....

Checked my hp and adrian's sms came early today, tot he will be sleeping his arse off til 9+. Wanted to watch movie so gave him a call, or did he call me? Nvm about that.....We had conference with steve. Barely can heard adrian's voice...lol.... O2 or Motorola... maybe its time u get another new hp. Was discussing til half n i dropped the idea of going for movie. Gabriel is down n i dun want adrian to sleep too late. He got so important stuffs to attend to the next day, anything happen = he's dead. Hahaha... Somemore i was yawning all da way afta dinner...so i guess i would prefer sleeping at home. Tossing on the bed is what im good at..... 1/2 hr i was tossing here n there....Gosh......i was feeling so miserable. Checked my hp n saw roger's sms, location : Double O. Was having second thought becuz i juz cancelled my appointment with adrian n steve. Then thinking about afternoon cyndi Msn me asking me whether going Double O, plus david will be going too. Decided to go since i cant fall asleep, had a quick shower and rush down to Yck mrt station to meet up with roger n yii.

Reached Dbl O around 1130....called jason down juz for the sake of cutting queue. Sorry i really didnt know that the queue was so fooking short. Was kinda crowded... well it was a good thing. Ever since MoS is opened, Dbl O was so empty. First thing i go over to jason's table i saw andy.... used to be my love rival in da past, but now...who cares. Roger bought losta drink n i was thinking...is he going to have war like last week. Msg david n i just couldn't find him. He told me he's at the bar....OmG there is a few bars in double o. After searching all the bars, he told me he's at the toilet.... farking hell....hide n seek!?!?!?!? As usual i will go to the dj console n find aaron n roger told me that alfred is here too. Thats not all... i saw the other jason's campmates. Wow!!! Didnt know there are so many unexpected pple appearing tonight.

Was abit draggy this time, normally we will juz dance n get our drinks after. This time the drinks came first....music started and i wanted to dance...but there is still so much drinks...duhh! Keep asking them to finish it so we can proceed to the dancefloor. Music was good at first... was having a great time. Saw david alone on the centre podium, rest of us joined him shortly. Didnt really talk to cyndi, maybe she's seh or maybe she's busy with her frds. She bumped into me and was talking to david. They r toking about going to devilsbar, so i told them why not go after 3? it will be free entry then. Only thing they reply is HARNA HARNA!!! Halo! im juz giving some suggestions. Dun need to be so hostile right? Even if my idea is not constructive enough, dun need to gimme that kind of reply right? If im a piece of shit to u guys, no point for me being so nice anymore. As simple as that....

Thats not the end..... as i went back dancing, i noticed that there is a group of pple pointing at me n was like laughing at me. Ok...if u pple dun like my way of dancing, so be it. Awhile later... jason's campmate came up to me. He asked me whether im who or who. He got my name wrong but doesnt matter. He popped up a question like "are you her ex-bf?" Was so surprised....How da hell did he know. Then he pointed to me the group that was on the dancefloor. Then i realised that he and that group of pple that were pointing at me are her secondary school mates. No wonder....... finally i know why. Well, was surprised that this world is really small, her schoolmate happens to be my frd's campmate.

Zhenyi was missing soon after we went to the dancefloor n she returned around 2.30. Her frds were in O bar so we decided to join them. Was playing RnB muzik, was good but i already dun have the mood to dance. Was so tired and hungry...was hoping that half an hr will pass real fast so that we could go for supper then devilsbar. Roger had another round of drinks n by the time yii was kinda seh le. From the face u can tell whether she's ok or not. So.....devilsbar is a no since yii is almost goner. We left at 345 not sharp and its was supper time. As usual, 2 bowls of rice with bah kut teh and 2 cans of green tea. Was a satisfied meal of cuz.... soon after the supper we gotta leave cuz the shop is closing.

The more i type, the more im awake.....dun tell me i gotta wait till afternoon then i will be able to fall asleep.....Still gotta go to toa payoh with adrian to visit steve at his Zui Quey stall in the evening. Yum Yum..... going to have good food later.

Its another late entry this week....cyn say i hvnt update it...so im here to do it now. today is the worst off day i had. Not becuz i had to bring my work home n do.....something devastating happened. One of my partition crashed, n that farking partition of mine contains 98% of my mp3. Still feeling quite sad now,only slept 4 hrs afta mambo....most of my time im trying to recover back my lost data. My norton GHOST had been running for the past 6hrs n it only recover 6% of it......dun think my HD can wait that long.... its like telling me "i cant hang on anymore" All i hope now is get back wateva i can n let my HDD go to rest....a long rest that it will never be activate again. First is my mouse, then my keyboard and now my hard disk.... NO!!!! IT WILL BE THE END OF DA WORLD IF I DUN HAVE A COMP!!!!! One day 24 hrs and i spent more than 10 hrs per day on it, even my gf i also dun spend so much time on her. So u can imagine if i lose my comp......days will be like hell!!! yes n i meant it!!!! HELL~~~~ And i m in a deep shit now. Gabriel's song needed for wedding day, n song i promised jeremy...i cant give it to them on time, pls forgive me n understand my situation.

One thing to feel lucky about is it didnt attack my main drive.....If any farking virus really attack my main system...i really can say bye bye to my lovely n precious comp.... afta 4 yrs of using it, thou its old but the performance is still great....spent so much effort n time on maintaining n upgrading it. Its like a frd to me.....juz like i like my Transformers......

Another thing that didnt drag my mood down to core is Mambo of cuz! Thou not as great as the previous one, but i stil had my fun. Sufficient fun n great frds r around. David, marcus, alern and even calvin is there. Not forgetting the usual gang on the centre plat.... Music good, n great crowds. Becuz theres a break for uni students.....ntu, nus blah blah. Therefore theres alot of XMM in mambo last nite.....making my eyes so tired..... LoL...busy dancing n busy beo-ing on the same time...makes my mambo no time for a cigg break....Still there is sometimes i was forced to take a break. There is alot of flower vase in mambo last night. FARKING HELL!!! If u pple dun knw how to do the retro thingy its ok. BUT DUN JUZ STAND THERE N DO NOTHING! Its really damn fuk up when they stand so near to me almost body to body. So if they didnt move, so cant i!!!!!

Last weekend so quite different ever since i started working. First weekend i went clubbing afta i start work. Kinda not used to it.....mayb too tired cuz i gotta work on sat. Went to devilsbar with rog, yii n frds. Was toking about transformers all da time...another collector i get to know....more lobangs in future. Somehow he got his Fortress Maximus @ $900 bucks.....Was kinda jealous.....LoL!!!!! Music was good....some of my fav muzik came out. Eg...In De ghetto..somemore techno ver wan! We had to drink alot....cuz roger need to finish his bottle in a night. Brand new bottle i guess......but wasnt my kind of drink. Afta we finish that bottle, we order a barrel of beer............. at that time i think we went crazy... Couldnt finish in the end n we end up giving to pple around us. Pple around us as in we dun even know who they r. Few of us walked out of devils in a blurry situation. I demanded for Mac breakfast....n it created a joke... A bah poh approach rog's frd.....hahaha...... End of the day everyone is so tired as we r so quiet on the cab.... but i nv stop my transformers topic..LoL...heard that he got losta collections...one day i will rob his hse. I only want ur Fort.Max~!~!~!~!~!~

Juz got a bad news...my HDD up da car....gonezzzz.....all my mp3...goner!!! so sad.....guess i have to start frm scratch....but where to dl all thes mp3....basically there is no way now....Gotta dig out all the cds i could spare n rip in wateva i can....my mp3 empire is gone again for da 2nd time..... finding the songs again is like starting another civilisation........ nothing but sad n despair...

But there is another thing to happy about~~~that is Arsenal won Real Madrid.....Muahahahaha...

More than 12 hrs late...used to blog soon afta mambo. These few days seems so tiring to me. Thou i m staying home most of the evenings...but still im so tired! Meet up with gab, steve, adrian for dinner at sun plaza. Just nice that everyone is on leave on wed so we r able to meet up fro dinner. Afta we went to coffee bean n we start discussing about gabriel's wedding stuffs. Alot of things to do n the most kelian person is adrian. LOL! He will be the photographer that day. Time to rest is far lesser than steve n i. I know the meeting will take some time n i will be kinda late for mambo. In da midst of discussion gerald msg me, i know my reply is kinda harsh. i'm really sorry about that, but im trying to end the discussion AsAp. So i expect no disturbance frm anyone. In the end things went out smoothly n i get to go off at 1030 sharp. Time i reached zouk was 11pm sharp too!

Finally i can use 'good' to describe last night mambo. Usual gang is there except nicole, crowd is good and the muzik rox. Everyone had their fun last night, all left afta mambo ended. Its like a few weeks of boring mambos n finally the good time came. The way muzik was mixed n the sequence played was reallly good. Really kept me busy till 230 i think. End of da day i told myself that luckily i went, was really tired n doesnt really felt like going cuz of past few lousy nights in zouk. Only 5 person went to shell afta that. Rest seems to disappear in the mid of the session. Like i said i was too busy enjoying so really doesnt notice who went back or wat. And it was da first time i saw everyone was so tired afta clubbing. Had our supper quickly n went home. During bukit timah we encounter a road block..... was a very long wait when the policeman ask for many things. Was around $4 more this time.....kaozzz $4 i can buy 2 double cheeseburger ya know! ##%^&!~@^&

First thing i reached home - Drop dead! Dun even bother to take a shower, juz change n POM! ZzZzZz..... I tot i was going to have a good sleep afta that. Who knows.....i woke up 1 n half hrs later....Time was around 635..Had a great shower immediately, again i tot i will be able to sleep afta my hair is dry. Didnt expect my eyes would be so Bright n shiny....tossing on the bed for 45 mins n i decide to do something to make myself sleep. I m going to read a book...YES reading to me is the most darn boring thing in my life... Never failed me, i fell asleep wothout reading more than 20 pages. Woke up around 2pm n my body is aching all over.... counting the the hrs i had slept + - + - less than 8hrs. Am sure that i will turn in early tonight...cuz afta my dinner.. i m feeling sooooo sleppy now~~~

Time to update on my weekends. Fri night was at gab's hse to search for muzik for the wedding dinner. Outcome was good as we found losta nice songs. Had supper dowstairs n was a good one. Vcd soon afta supper... i was stil so awake thou i didnt had much sleep. We watched Wu jian dao 3 and gab went off to sleep afta that. I continued with Underworld n then Sex and the city. manage to finish 5 episodes n gab woke up. Took a cab home as i was kinda tired already.

Sat as usual... gathering of the three "ah pehs" Surprising i didnt had any beer that night. I was darn hungry cuz i met them soon afta i woke up. Had a curry pork rice (rice x2) + ice milo and we had crabs!!! Adrian went over to nearby shell station to buy bread. Wat a heavy dinner...yum yum....was so satisfied after enjoying the crabs slowly. Thats not the end! 3 cans of Jia Jia Liang Teh.. Muahaha! Soon afta my skin conditon gets well, i started to eat losta seafood. Like crabs which i cant even think about it in the past...now i can eat no matter how much the quantity is. Craving over the past year..... was like hell to me, also not frogetting my skin conditons. I m really glad that my skin is getting better n it's going to b stable for quite some time. Past 6 years i was really living in hell......passerby see me in diff ways....suffering when my skin is in bad conditions, hospitalised, do not dare to go out too often. Unlimited amount of pain n stress im going through, and also the non human looks of mine.....Hopefully n sincerely i prayed that it will be over forever. Who doesnt wanna live a normal human life?

Been through alot of things in my life. Asthma in my young age, Eczema when i was in teenager life. And the recent incident, got out of love. Everything seems to be so harsh in my past years. Health problems n then relationships problems. Blah blah blah.....finally its all over.... hopefully all these bullshits doesnt come back to me anymore.

Been thinking about losta things today.... Conclusion...... a smile. I'm satisfied with my life now. Staying healthy is one big bonus for me. Doesnt have to worry about the food that i eat or drink. Somemore i can take liquor n beer now. Another thing is that i manage to survive thru the last realtionship. First i tot it was the end for me as i lost my ex gf.....but now no more.... im recovering n i m moving on without anymore regrets. My life is getting stable as my recent illness is getting better too. My doc was hoping that i will recover soon enough. Problems with frienships is sloved too. All i have do is to learn to close one eye, talk less n response less. Last but not least im back to my clubbing life... thou no more on weekends, but every wed going to zouk is enough for me. One more thing i have to add on is i m enjoying my life as single now. Everything seems to be going smoothly for me from the very first day of 2006...guess its da primetime of my life. Cuz this year is my year. The year of DoG. I'm unstoppable!!!

Haiz...time to blog again. Feeling very weird n bothered for da whole night. This strange feeling....wasn't able to describe it. Tonight mambo was a boring one. Not with the crowd or muzik. Just me feeling weird, tired n bored. Kinda feel guilty, mayb im too bored thats y pple around me r bored too. If thats the truth, im really sorry. Only dance when i heard my favourite muzik or the tempo is fast, other than that......standing around rotting. After mambo things get better abit. First came a joke.....There is instant noodles but there is no chopsticks. So everyone ended up using spoon to eat. The tide finally turned, the one who is anti social is da big winner. Everyone was chatting happily but i'm da only one sitting down there listening, without giving any comments. Maybe the topic doesnt interest me or mayb things are stil bothering me. My mind is still in a fooking mess now.

When i reached back home, i was asking myself.......y did i go mambo???? One definite answer is to meet up with frds, another....wanted to see her. Ok....to thoes who r reading, u muz be asking who is that 'her'. Well... i'm not going to say anything not to say reveal the identity of 'her'. If you r smart, u will know who i m toking about. If not.....too bad then. What is happening to me tonight... Its kinda sad... kept thinking about the past. I thought that i had already put down the past n decided to start new. Yes i did, i swear i did. But dun know why i just start to think about it. Maybe im forcing myself not to think about it thats why it back fired.... If something are meant to pop up, no matter how u hide it, it will still pop up.

Another reason why i think about the past. Got to do with the new 'her'. It's not that they look alike or they have the same character. One is north another is south. Just that when i started to like this someone, i became so no confident of myself. Major issue is about my past experience. I dun dare to move forward n start another new relationship anymore. I got lost in myself before, and i hardly found myself back. I dont wan history to repeat itself. Another issue is she's too good for me. To me, she is near perfect. And for myself, im near useless. How can a person who is almost perfect choose a junk to be her bf? Thats totally impossible and i know the day will not come. Put it in another way, i'm juz too lousy for her. I cant give anyone sense of security. I dont work n i laze around all da time. At the age of 23 i still haven done anything yet. Doesnt have have a stable carreer, no money in my pocket, not mature enough is another point. Who on earth who choose this kinda guy. I must admit im a total failure. Thats why my last relationship failed. I'm about to resign to fate. I can forget about having another relationship. Be a lonesome jerk forever is wat i'm gonna be in the future. So about this ger i like....forget it bah. I can only dream n keep on dreaming. I am trying my best to forget about her and hopefully it will be erase away soon. So meantime i will still be the king of wishful thinking n keep on being silly. Hoping that she will be at mambo every wed. Not going to tell her about it cuz im afraid that i might scare her away. At least i still get to see her n talk to her now. Thats already a bonus for me. I know its stupid but wat to do??? I already fallen for it. It will take me some time to stop dreaming. But i really hope i can keep on dreaming. LoL

Been listening this song these few days. At first i think that this song is stupid but recently it just caught my attention. Most probably it suited my mood now. Its called 'lao shu ai da mi' Dun call me idiot or anything ok. This song does have it meaning too.

'Bu guan you duo shao feng yu, wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni'
'Zhi yao neng rang ni kai xing, wo she me dou yuan yi, _ _ _ _'

Am not going to complete the last four words cuz i know it will never happen. Unless miracle happen. If miracle really come i hope that she will complete that last four words for me. Haha...i'm dreaming again =x
One more thing, i cant put in chinese words cuz of my template setting so only choice is to put in hanyu ping ying. If there is alot of mistakes plz forgive me. I sux in everything. =
Alrite...this entry took me an hour to finish it. Im really outta words cuz my mind is still in a mess and im damn tired now. Gald that im finishing it soon....can go to sleep. Tomorrow is a brand new slacking day for me. All Da Best!

It's 5:52am now. For no reason i'm feeling damn tired now. Tonight mambo was great! More crowd thou the muzik at start is like a lump of shit. More actions for me this week but then was like dance abit slack abit type. Guess im really getting old... body not working well. Alrite thoes who r older than me dun mind me. I'm born to be lazy so i get weak very easily.

Later part of mambo was kinda hell to me. David u r complaining that looking afta pple who r high is one big headache. Thx to u hor! U bring cyn n her frd over then u MIA for awhile. 2 pple who cant even stand firm makes my mambo session end earlier. ( I juz like to complain ok. Not blaming anyone.)

This is not the end.....afta that is michelle!!!! Hvnt seen her for long. She said 6 months, dun knw is it that long. Once i saw her she start toking non logical things to me......Ok....another person who is 70% drunk... Worst thing is afta she got on the podium, all the wolves came along... Gotta keep an eye on her juz to make sure no one touch my frds when they r 'seh' Then suddenly mic say im JI HONG! I take it that u r seh that time so u dun know wat u r toking about. Thoes who know me well will know wat kinda guy i'm....Im gonna say it again i only go for thoes who i m interested in. I dun use fishing net to capture my prey. I like to use fishing rod n slowly fish for it. If that person dun like my bait, too bad. Somemore im not in da mood for anything now. Not even for a casual relationship. So michelle, i think u got ur answer eh? U been asking me the same question all night. If u really dun get it, gimme a call then.

Gathering at shell is getting shorter, afta supper all gotta go. Understand that some gotta work next day. Really missed the good old times when everyone juz sit around n chat til the time is forgotten.

Now is the time to update abit on my CnY.. On the day of CnY eve met up with steve n gang to watch Huo Yuan Jia... Was kinda boring cuz Li Lian Jie movies r all da same. After we went over to Gabriel's Hse for a round of mahjong. First day of CnY is alwiz stay home for me. Was playing my game in da aftanoon til my frds ask me over for a gathering. Guess wat???? Mahjong again! Duh.............. around evening time yii msg me n ask me over to roG hse for another gathering. It was made clear that its a gambling session. So i went over, end up watching soccer at roG hse. Feel so outta place cuz all r his sec sch frds. Was kinda alone down there...watch tv, walk around n hopefully i can get back my frozen throne CD. Things ended around 3+...everyone left afta the mahjong session. Had cup noodle for supper then went back alone. Also...empty handed home..... I wan my CD~!~!~! LoL

Only time i will be visting my relatives r on da 2nd day. When everyone will go over to my grandma hse n gather. Missed my ah ma's cooking, cuz last year i didnt get to go over. Wat happened last year???? Mambo on the first day of CnY. Overslept on the next day. First thing i got there, ah ma asked me where is my gf?????? Didnt get to see her last yr.... The moment the question pop out i was like....WTH... Afta awhile things went back to normal as my mum started another topic. Slowly one by one appeared n the hse is getting more n more crowded. This year there is another few new members in da family. All boys..... By 4+ the hse was like OMG! Nephews running around da place making havok. But it was fun plus there is tons of good food around. Was planning to meet up with gabriel n steve in da night but then cancel. Went home to continue on my games.

Adrian is finally back in Sg on the 3rd day. Had a small gathering at the coffeeshop in da night. Out of nowhere pple was fighting....Happen to be adrian's cousin or something. Things ended fast as police came n we decided to go back n rest earlier. Was hacking in game with steve til morning.....Damn shacked as we die die wan to keep on going. Before sleep, i was kinda happy...Mambo is coming~!~!~!~

That is all da things i could think of now. My brain is kinda dead now. If there is anything i missed out, will fill it in tmr or in the next entry. One last thing i wan to complain about..... MY KEYBOARD SUXOR!!!!!

NeW CritiCaL!!!!!

New critical record. 9318 damage..... Currently LvL 69......Gotta make my weapon more 'powderful'. Currently Legit record is still at 13k damage. GoGoGo!!!