Long Day Part I

King of Wishful Thinking is wat i'm. All along is my childish thinking that there is stil a chance. Awhile hot awhile cold, wat could it be?? i didnt know. She told me that she had a quarrel n feeling down, she doesnt wanna go home. In the end leh......go play mahjong with frds. Dont blame me for being straight. She doesnt seems moody to me at all. All along im the only one down here worrying for her. I seems stupid n senseless right??? Til now she stil doesnt wanna go out with me whenever i asked her to. Why like that??? i felt very extra, its like i keep clinging onto her while she tries to shake me off. One whole week of schedules lining up, not leaving a day for me. even there is a chance for us to go out, im only tagging along. I felt so lost again, suddenly i lost all energy to hold on again. Tell me wat to do