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One entry per week. Is it less?? Anyway i dun think anyone is reading my blog anymore. Thoes who used to support my blog, dun think they r stil reading.

Was kinda bored or i shld say im very bored. Im 5% to my next skil Superion Summon and suddenly some idiot juz crashed the server. Not much things i can do now, was cracking my brain on wat to blog. Was browsing the net just now. Tv suxor n my mp3 doesnt impress me anymore. Cyndi asked me to comment about her new blog skin, ask me if its messy or not.....i can say its quite well done n i like the layout. Didnt replied me after that....... Was randomly browsing pple's blog tp update myself n dun know y i enter someone's blog. After reading her entries i was surprised that i wasn't really bother about her stuff anymore. No special feelings or no other comments, juz closed it after reading just like reading some stranger's blog.

Months pass n i start to feel better......toking with frds that really cared for me n hanging out with new people in mambo. My life is not as havok as before but at least its getting better. I asked myself....' m i able to move on?' The only answer i could give was 'no matter what i had to'
Guess im really recovering from my wounds. Time will heal no matter how much i doesnt wanna put down.

People is progressing with their own life, happily living with their love ones. Doing things that they like. Im happy for them.....sincerely i was glad that their life r better without me. No more stress given by me n no more 'sandwiched' situations. Thou i doesnt see them often anymore n they r too busy to contact me. I will not blame on anyone........i had kinda awaken from the deep sleep.... I know i was very sensitive in da past n i created alot of problems for people around me.
Only thing i can say that during that period of time i was really down....i lost alot of things in my life. Then i started to become very sensitive n bad tempered. I knew i could never change myself. I cant be a successful guy in my life, so i decided to be a lone ranger instead. For all thoes troubles i created in da past i could only say sorry. Im feeling better and i think my mind is reversing back to normal state. But every thing is too late.....i scared everyone off.

Just wanted to start a new life in a new year. Friends that r gone....i know i cant bring them back. Even if i could i m scare that i will make them go away again. As for new friends, i will try my very best to maintain the friendship between us. I will try my very best thou i m stil as lousy as before. But as long people around me r willing to gimme a chance i will try. I do not hope for much, as long everyone that r gone is living happily now.....i will be glad.

My own life.....how m i gonna plan it, i start to think about this already.... I would like to save myself a alot of $ to get myself a car. All i wan to do now is to pamper myself. Recently i juz highlighted my hair n i kinda like it. Thou some pple around me gave me negative comments. Next step is to go shopping. Only bought 2 shirt n a pair of jeans.... My levis jacket im gonna get it soon i swear........ then i will be done with my CnY shopping. Didnt wan to spend too much on my CnY goodies cuz i m still struggling on Fortress Maximus. I found someone on yahoo auction that is selling it. After bargaining i got a good price of $850 without shipping fees. Ahhhh im feeling so good recently..... Spending $$ on myself juz made me feel so great!

Chinese new year plans.....play games when my family r out to bai nian....LoL...i m stil a gaming freak yea???Well... thats my only life support machine now. Until i found a ger that i can forsake my games..And thats IMPOSSIBLE. Gf is gf and game is game. Even if i found a new love in the near future, i will stil not forget about my games. My life formula is very simple. 30% games 30% Love 25% Tansformers 5% Vampires. The rest 10% is for thoes i didnt name out. Last time i used to 100% focus on juz one thing. thats y in d end it made me fell so hard.

As for mambo, i got nothing much to update on. Only word to describe it is Fantastic!!!!!! Maybe its the last 2 mambo thats too bored thats y this week i m feeling so good in mambo. Crowd is abit better n regular of cuz more of them came. Music is good at first n was enjoying dancing around. Been a long time since i danced til so tired. Jeremy came with his gang and we r on a 'pirated' business. We exchanged the stuffs in the middle of mambo. Juz like illegal business transaction. hope our business will prosper ya?? LoL

Hope i didnt missed out anything cuz i think i wouldnt be blogging for the next few days til after next week mambo. My CnY has been a plain one for a few yrs n i know this year will be da same.

My life has been like a schedule recently. Mon - tues is on games. Wed of cuz MAMBO. Thurs - Sun Game Game Game. N if roger n yii is free to meet me, sat is for them. I m contented with my life now. Peaceful yet with few surprises. Guess im starting to like someone. Saw her few times in mambo n left me with good impression. Only thing that made me stop myself is me. Thinking about how unsuccessful im n how bad my character is, i dun dare to make a move. Like my mum said, no gers would like to be with a junk. Currently im still a junkie... i got no confidence to fall in love. I cant give a ger sense of security. I got no succesful career n i got no $$$. I had a lousy temper n a smelly character. And im not handsome enuff to make a ger fall for me. In another word, i'm rotten from head to toe and i m sure that no gers will fall for a guy like dat. All i can do now is start my hunting season. Would really like to play around first until i fixed myself to a better shape then i will start to find a ger that will settle down with me. As for the ger i like...haiz time is not right now. I cant give her anything so i guess i will juz give it a pass. Hahahahaaaa enuff of day dreaming, time to go back n check out my game. I swore to lvl up then i can sleep. Wish me good luck pple. GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!!