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Feeling damn fuk up now. DAMNIT! Reached home was downloading a game till moments juz now. One itchy click, my comp went standby mode. 6 hours of waiting is gone in a sec. Now i have to re download the shyt again, gonna wait for another blardie full 6 hrs again. Yes feeling damn sore now.

*Take a deep breath*

Work is kinda light n easy today. School holiday so students and losta teachers not around. Clear up my workplace cuz its sho messy til i cant stand it. Day pass very fast, went to the nearby hawker with one colleague for dinner. Had my fav tang yuan there and tried the "long" queue satay bee hoon. Wondered y so many pple queueing, to me its not that good. Took a bus home and start dowloading a game. Damnit!

Wanted to go out but cant find anyone. Cuz tomorrow, for sure im staying home. its alrdy pass 11 so i guess i'll stay home. Tot can play the new game im downloading to pass my night. Who knws....DAMNIT! No mood to log on WoW at all, no games to play. Feeling so empty now. Been surfing the net whole night, downloading pics and stuffs. Even changed my blogskin abit. Ok i know its kinda lame cuz i changed the pics and some heading only. Looking at my download.. 4% only. Think i will leave it for tomorrow, whole day playing it. As for now til i go to bed, i really have no fooking idea wat to do.

I think... wed night.. or rather thurs morning, i didnt join them for supper, somehow pissed someone off. Demand an explanation and i think its pointless. Explain le in the end it gotten messy and i guess misunderstanding? I dont know.. yes i really dont know how to explain. But i believe people who know me well and understand me knows what im thinking. If any other dont get it, i have no idea wat to do to convince them. Okay.. take it that im petty, things over so long and im still so sore about it. Wateva! If anyone thinks that way, go ahead. U can say that you finally understand how i treated u as a frd. Oh really? Now i also understand that how u see me as a frd also. If u dont understand me well enuff and keep demand an explanation when i dont feel like explaining, THEN r u really a frd of mine?

So sick n tired so these shyt happening over and over again. Its time to end it, dont have a good soultion now. So i guess for the moment im gonna be a caveman. Stay inside my cave for good. Morning go wrk, evening go home straight. Night stay at home and play game, play until im tired then fuk off to bed. Then next day go work again and so on. Sound boring? no choice... its better than more misunderstanding.

I did that before, to a very good frd of mine. In order not to really lose a frd, i chose to avoid. Avoid having problems and eventually the friendship just gone for no reason. Somehow it works, i save a friendship and i m glad i made that choice. In the past i will not choose to avoid but after so many things happened, i learn that avoiding can really save some unnecessary conflicts.

Oh well... i ended my life again... in a way. Finally feeling tired after so much blabbering. Sorry and thanks to thoes who make the effort to read my entry. I know... after reading, it might hurt ur eyes. Well... i talk in this way afterall. Luckily many people is read and forget.

Kay..time for bed and dreams. As for tomorrow, i hope for the better. IF i have a tomorrow.