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Bored, stressed, fuk-ed up is the word to describe me now.

Another week is almost over le, work is as usual. Learning the things fast, going stable mode soon. Finally end my mambo spree, juz jump off to bed n sleep the night thru. First time was abit messy, wanting to go but cant find any good reason. Oh wellz....

Problems at home is piling up day by day. Im so scared of staying at home now. Every day after work i will juz go home, have my dinner and sleep around 8. Yes...not more than that, today is abit different thou. Was playing DnD2 until complete then watch tv, disturb some friends on msn. And i realised, people around me are getting busy and "hot". Unable to ask anyone out for the weekends again. Another stik at home fri and sat i guess. Getting so fuked up, maybe i will juz go out find a 24hr lan shop n game all the way. Well, i guess i gotta do some "early booking" if i really wan to ask my friends out.

Its 1030. I survived 2 n half hrs more tonight. Maybe im really bored, i need to go and n de-stress myself. C'mom kai... i knw i can do it. Isolating myself isnt really that hard right?! Soon i will get used to it and live again. For now, im officially a dead person. Im going crazy.....


Things aint getting my way now. Depressed and lonely, no one to talk about my problems. Its another history repeating. Last time i almost gone crazy. Hmmm.... dont mind me people, i might be mentally unsound now or im just tired. Been fuking around and had no idea wat im blogging. I think thats enuff... time for bed.

I just feel like saying. F**K everything.... ( i just hope someone will really understand me for a bit... juz a lil lil bit will do.)