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Ok...itz been more than 24hrs. yet i didnt see any pple leave anything on my shoutbox. Guess i need to go around tell pple about my bloggy.

Before i went to sleep, i smsed her. Yes her...only those who know me knows who i m referrring to. Finally after 2 weeks she got her answers, answer to wat she wan n need for our relationship. First i tot it will be settled soon, but after the 3 requests she given me made me feel kinda lost. This is what her 3 requests:

1.Have to change my temper for better.
2.Must be able to take care of myself.
3.Must find a stable job.

I find it quite hard to fulfil the 3rd request. Cuz now i m at home healing my skins. Only after my conditions r stable den i will go n find a job. That means by the time i get a stable job, it will be a few months later. I'm only afraid that her heart will not with me by the time comes. I do not blame her making these requests. Cuz it's entirely my fault. I abused the relationship n i abused her.(Not physically abuse ok....) Now i can only pray that i can get a job ASAP. And hope that her heart n feeling for me will not change so soon. I know that her love for me has thinned, she also admitted that. After that i decide to take a rest.

Woke up at 12.15am last night. The time seems to be months to me, every seconds are ticking so slowly. Bad thing after i woke up is I CANT FIND ANY FOOD!!! Left with no choice i had to bear with my hunger n go play game. For thoes who dun know wat the hell i m talking about, the game is called DarkEden. Adrian, Steve and me decide to do some rank leeching (which we called it GeJak). We gejak for more dan 2 hours n i manage to rank up n level up. Now i only hope my Lamesome(my sword charc in darkEden) will grow stronger. Cuz i would really like to grow strong too. I been too rely on her. Her sudden leaving made me not use to live without her. U guys might think that i'm useless n weak. I admit that, cuz i really loved her too much. Around 7am three of us decide to go for breakfast, so we end our game fast n meetup at hawker centre. I had a big plate of Nasi Lemak n after we went to mac for $2 breakfast. Adrian gave me his Mc muffin. Thank god~!~!~! had a very heavy breakfast. Then we went to Shing Siong to do some shopping. We went thru every sections n was laughing all the way. We alwiz like to make normal things seem so funny. Frankly speaking...thanks to u guys, esp Steve. After he knw wat happen to me, he tried his best to make me feel better n taught me how to overcome it. Also cannot forget Adrian n Gabriel. U guys have paid alot of attention on me too. Thanks alot. Around 12pm..... 3 of us r having tummyache. Steve suggested we go bomb japan first then go for lunch~~~ Biang of cuz is home toilet best. So we went back to hawker n had dessert. Then tar bao lunch home. I straight log in to my game after i reached home. Thous i'm tired but i stil dun wanna rest yet. Play ah play i feel kinda sian cuz only me playing, not much friends r online. So i decide to come n update my bloggy. Sorry and thanks to those who really made effort to read this blog of mine. I know is long n very lo soh. But wat to do?? Ok. enuff rest for me n it's time for me to go back to my game.