Jus another day

Finally, i woke up from the darkness again. The darkness which contain my guilt n regrets. All along i been wanting to change, change for the better, change for good. I'm hoping that the flame of love would rekindle n light my darkest hours once more. But the flame seems to be getting weaker every sec. Will i be in my darkness forever?? I dont have an answer......Now i m facing a very big problem, to fulfill her requests. Originally its a love without any questions, now it had became a deal. A deal which is the only light to my path. I would really hope that we will have the love we used to shared in the past. I'm sorry that i hurted u deeply, made u cried for me so many times. Everyday, every seconds i'm holding onto a faith. Hoping that u will return to me n lead back the old life we used to have. I know it's impossible, but i still wana hang on til the very last moment. Cuz i still believe that our love is stil there. I had been holding onto my phone every sec i could ever remembered, hoping that u will contact me once more. I know that u doesnt wan to contact me maybe due to some reasons. Mayb u trying to be stronger, trying to get used to the life of singlehood. By not contacting me u may find it easier to break free.
There is many wrongs n sins i had done. I doesnt mean to do it, and i m truly repetant. I had asked for a chance, thou the response is not that good, i'm willing to accept.
Everyday my mind is a doing a flashback. Flashback of the good old times together n not forgetting the bad times we had. This Time it been a great lesson to me. I truly learned that wat is a love that i cant let go. The love that is really important n i wun wan to find another. I lost interest n concentration in many things. To others, i m a living dead now.All i do everyday is recall the past n hoping that miracle would happen one dae. One miracle that i have been praying very hard......... I truly love u... pls give me another chance. A chance for me to make up everything....