Weird Feeling

Yest was a very normal day for me. Whole day at home doing my assginments. Whole mind was blank but assignments. Glad to be like that but how long its gonna last me? Then something happened on evening, will not say it out here. Whoever wanna know juz call me n find out lo. Somehow that incident makes my mood feel better. Is it really getting better or is it the peace before the storm??? Wun wan to imagine or think about it. Around 11 i went to 7-11 to get my daily dosage of beer. Been drinking everyday without fail and beer had replaced my meals slowly. All i ate was nothing but a can of beer, sound kinda pathetic right??? Once i reached home i checked my mails n after sleep. Beer really makes u sleep better. I had a good sleep n wake up around 7. At that point of time my feeling is lighter n very calm. Dun knw why or what....i juz felt alot better. Is it that i really think throu or m i too persistant till im totally numb?? Whole day was playing game until someone called me for ktv session. Went to causeway point to have lunchie with her. So glad that she came all the way down..... so lunch is on me. Singing non stop for 6 hr n we r like no voice anymore. Haha.....Then we sat around Mac to had our dinner n having some talk. She happen to explain alot of things to her n what had happened to her in the past. By that time i was thinking alot n i think i'm able to find a road to myself. An answer to what i have to do......for more details....call me lo. LoL....Reached home at 8 and was looking for kahkis to go chiong. Dun knw wat the fuk happened also.... Xuan n danny didnt picked up my call.Maybe there r together with someone n dun wan me to know so they aviod me. If that really happened i would feel very disappointed. Disappointed not as in they didnt ask me to go out. Disappointed as in why r they avioding frm me. Go out with her can juz tell me, i already said i dun mind n i will understand. I wanna change but seems like no one ard me is letting me try or have the chance. Manage to find roger n they r asking me if wanna go Dbl O. I wanted to save $$ cuz juz now spent quite some amount on Ktv. So next destination is Devilsbar. I juz wanna get out of my hse n be outside so i dun really care where im going or wat i will be doing. Really glad i found someone to go out with. One last thing i wanna say is thanks thoes who had been encouraging me. No matter what u guys had said......i really appreciate it alot. From taggy on my blog or phone calls and even face to face.....i m really glad to have u guys. THANKS~!~!~!~!~