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What to blog??? i got nothing much to blog. I'm now alone.... didnt go out much, 90% of the time im at home for the past 10+ days. Feeling been going downwards sec by sec. Like i alwiz said....i got no one to talk to. Past few days had been clearing the rest of the unwanted stuff. Mainly her clothes n things that she used. Been wanting to return her the clothings but something juz struck my mind. I do not want to get scolded again. Don't know what to do with it too... juz leave it in the cupboard til i know wat to do with it. 1 thing i'm sure is she doesnt want it back anymore. Well..... put it in a another way, she can get wateva she wants from her guy. What is some old clothings to her??? I feel like im part of the clothings too, unwanted n ditched.

Its been so long since the dreadful day passed...... but i still cant get over it. I m alwiz like dat. Whenever i wanted to be in a relationship, i will be serious about it. In the end?? Nothing but disappointment. All the promises seems so fake... thinking about it, all the promises i was to made to her and at last she ask me "why r u so serious about me?" Why? Isn't it ridiculous? So all the while i have been throu a non serious relationship with a pacts of lies? All the questions she asked me n all the promises i have made to her. I haven forget abit......but in the end all i took back was a question like that. The most unreasonable question i had ever heard since iwas born. All along she doesnt wan me to be serious with her. Mayb i m just a stepping stone, a person to let her get over her past relationship. But what i can say is she really made full use of me. Never ever seen a person who can use a spare tyre for one year. Calculating the days when my heart started to break. Its been half a year i guessed. Some ask me why havent i get over it? Cuz i really fallen too deep dumbass! One who made me wanted to settled down with.

I started to think that being a animal is really better than a human. Humans think n expected too much of other. Well of cuz im like dat too. Just got a new companion this monday. A free kitten. Thou the kitten is free but i spent a bomb on buying things for him. Thinking for days n i finally decided to call my cat "DoG" Very active kitten n never fail to make me happy. But its kinda lazy....hmm wat the hell i like it anyway, a lazy master sure to have a lazy pet. He really got me sticking at home. Seldom wanted to go out unless its on wed n sat. But after clubbing i will go home n not waste anymore time. Everytime i reached home n saw him sleeping on my bed.... it feels great. I hope the passion i have for the kitten is long... i m afraid that after sometimes i will lose the heat n start to neglect it. At least now there is a pet to keep me company....

Wasted alot of money on bills computers n stuffs for my cat. I m really broke..... Xmas was a plain one. Stil went to double o with adrian n he treated me supper n pay most of the cab fare. Not forgetting the last 2 movies we watched.Really glad theres someone there for me when i m broke. Hope my next isurance $$ will come soon, then again i can start shopping like hell. eed to stay lower profile for the next week. NYE mambo @ expo... i was thinking of not going..wanted to save money. Another reason is wats the point of going there n enjoy alone?? Pple will be having their own fun n i dun think they will notice me. Anyway no one even bother to contact me during Xmas....So i think im out for next week event.NyE mambo not going n of cuz wed mambo is a no for me. Just like i mention above...i need to save money!!! Really can start to quit mambo....had enuff fun n its time i stay at home n rot. Besides i m alwiz alone.... going mambo alone starts to makes me feel miserable.

Well enuff said n i think i gotta go play my World of Warcraft.....but dun be mistaken....i said i m broke doesnt mean i m paying for the game. I m playing on free server!!! Oh....nearly forget about 1 thing. Thx to zhenyi for ur "ging gou biao"sms